I'm Heartbroken pt. 2

hi..

i'm back into my heartbroken mode *sobs*

this is so sad..

first since today i went to a reunion , i met up with my ex.

he called my name and greeted me in front of his friends like we're so close and nothing had ever happened,

so i just ignored him and kind of escaped lol

because just you think !

he acted that way to me but when we passed by each other , never did he sent me glance or greet me like that.

don;t you think he's a jerk ?!

why do you think he acted that way ?

i'm frustated.. yet I still loved him

much to my own complaint,

secondly about the guy i stated as my best friend on the previous blog..

now he asked me where did I bought my albums and said that he is going to give it to his crush on her birthday..

gosh.. i feel like crying

i dont know am I too kind or just plain stupid..

i even said that i will ask the online shop's admin if there was a ready stock of EXODUS album Sehun's cover since I know the girl's bias is my-lol Baek and Yeol's- Hunnie..

i even gave hm the information of how you can't get the poster anymore because it's probably sold out and all that ...

what do you think I hsould have done ?

i feel stupid but I still care for both of them..

that's why i went out of the way to ask for Sehun's cover..

and now i regret it a little..

did i do the right thing ?

gosh.. i really dont know anymore..

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jellyace02 #1 May 14, 2015 21:16:33

I've read your previous blog, and you know what I could say. Confess to him and stay away. Though it'll really hurt you since you may regret your friendship but look, you're also hurting when you keep on sticking with him. I said confess to him so he could be sensitive towards you. and maybe your friendship won't end if it's really strong. bc I also experienced that in some way, but it's my best friend who likes me, he's a guy and yeah, I didn't stay away from him bc it's his choice to stay friends since we really value our friendship. but I'm sure I'm sensitive towards what he's feeling but since I didn't have a crush so it's not a big deal but it's clear that he's my best friend.

Stay away, well bc I think it's different if it's the girl who has feelings. we, girls, are sensitive and well, dramatic regarding our feelings. yeah. So stay away if it hurts you. you'll be hurt no matter what. But to think, it's worse if you are hurting yourself everyday in staying with them and seeing them happy. But then when you confess to him then stay away from him, you may experience a big regret, thinking of yourself to be stupid even, but then your heart will heal. time will heal if you won't see him anymore.

but then, our case is another possibility, since my best friend knew that I don't like someone and has no boy friend. Our friendship became is still here. Yeah and I'm happy for that. I don't really know what his true feelings are since he's so kind but he accepted and respected my answer. But in your case, I don't know what to say, that's why I told you to confess then stay away. yeah.

I saw you, still valuing your friendship that's why you gave him the information about the poster, and yeah it's for his crush. I think you did that bc he's important to you, of course, as a best friend and lover. yeah. But then this should stop. You deserve to love and to beloved. c:

jellyace02 #2 May 14, 2015 21:16:24

and with your ex, he's insensitive and stupid yeah. Acting like nothing happened?! Argh, acting as if he didn't do anything wrong to you. then unfriending you in facebook as if your at fault that's why you get your relationship broken when he's the one who loved another flirt! That's only right. yeah. that's right, don't be too friendly, okay? because in the end, you may feel like bc you've been stupid for being SO kind. the same goes with your best friend. Don't be too kind. c:, 'kay?

Okay sorry, I got carried away since I also experienced that. what's worse was he's my classmate yeah. just eff. Well, you should move on and love another guy who could love you the way you love them. c: Good luck! I hope this helped you out!