Luhan had never thought that this day will come. Never.

But then, there he was, sniffing and sobbing in Baekhyun's arms as the latter patted his back.

"Shh Luhan.. calm down." Baekhyun comforted him. "Maybe it's not him."

"B-but it's him Baek. It's really h-h-him." he sobbed. "I know him Baek. It's.. really him."

"Why are you so sure?"

"All these 6 years of marrying and loving him.. means everything. I've knew everything about him Baek." Luhan wiped his tears. "His voice, his clothes, h-his everything. "

"You're staying here tonight right? Take a rest first and clear your mind okay? I'll ask Chanyeol to talk to him." Baekhyun said softly. "Just go and take a rest first?"

Baekhyun led him to the guest room and gave him a set of clothes for him to change before leaving the room to have a talk with Chanyeol.

Luhan sat on the bed, bringing his knees to his chest, tucking his chin on them. His heart broke once he remembered the scene that killed him inside.

Moans from their bedroom.

A woman under Sehun.

The scattered clothes.

Their skin meeting each other's.

Luhan wiped his tears away and wondered.

'Maybe 6 years isn't enough'

Waking up the next morning, Luhan cleaned himself and walked downstairs. While walking, he saw Chanyeol and Baekhyun were having a deep conversation.

"Hey guys." Luhan forced out a smile.

"Oh... luhan." Baekhyun whispered.

".. yes?"

"We've tried our best, knocking some sense into him but we failed. We.. are sorry Lu."

"It's okay.." Luhan bit his lip, trying his best not to let the tears fell. "I'm okay."

"Oh Luhan." Baekhyun stood up and hugged Luhan tightly. "We're sorry." he whispered.

"Luhan? Sehun sent something to you." Chanyeol interrupted them. "Here."

Luhan took the envelope and excused himself to go back to the guest room. The other two, understanding Luhan, let him go.

Once he entered the room, he quickly opened the envelope. His heart stopped beating once he saw the containing inside it.

A paper.

A divorcing paper.

And Sehun had already signed it.

Then, another paper fell. He recognized the owner of the messy handwriting. It's Sehun's.

'This is the best for us. I'm sorry.'

Luhan's heart broke.

He's tired of crying. He's tired of it.

"Why?" he sobbed. “Just why?”

Luhan quickly took out his phone and sent a message.

'Sehun, I'll sign it because your happiness means a world to me even if I'm not the reason behind your smiles. But just why? Did you not love me anymore? Am I just a someone that you'll love and leave? My heart bleeds many times because of you. It hurts so much. You owe me a reason Sehun. Please, you can do anything to me but please don't leave me hanging in darkness. Your reason could probably be the light in this darkness for me. Your reason could also be the one thing to make me feel not dead. I'll let you go but please answer me. I beg you Sehun. I'll always love you.

Love,
Luhan.'

It's been 2 years but yet Sehun had never once replied the message.

Never.

As for Luhan, he's still living in the darkness.

Because he still didn't get the 'why'.

i hate myself for doing this bye