First of all, I'm not bitter okay? hahaha! I just want to express my thoughts about this. 

Most of the students in our school is in a relationship (Hello 7th graders who have boyfriends/girlfriends!) and I can't help but feel sad about myself. I mean hello, I'm a senior without a boyfriend. Am I ugly. Am I hideous... etc etc. But the thing I just realized is, maybe the reason why I don't have a boyfriend is because I'm not mature enough to be in a commitment.

Yes, I've had two boyfriends already but as I can recall, I was a lame girlfriend back then  (maybe that's why they broke up with me hahahahahaha) And as I'm thinking about it now, I can't help but cringe at my past lovelife. (LAME LAME LAME)

But the MAIN point here is, I didn't love myself before. I was not confident enough, I did not know how to express my mind, and I didn't know how to communicate. I get jealous easily and I drove all my friends away when they're tryna help. See, I WAS LAME. And yeah, what I learned here is (this is for you too btw. If ever you opened this blogpost), you gotta love yourself first. If you don't have enough love for yourself, how can you share any, right? because if I do the opposite, I'll be a walking broken piece of glass. 

After getting hit by this realization, of course I had to know my priorities. A guy isn't the only one that'll make me happy. I have my friends, my family, my cats... And my dream. You know maybe someday, I'll find him. I don't need him to be perfect. He doesn't have to give me chocolates, roses or expensive gifts for every special events, he just have to be someone who'll make me a better person and make me want to reach higher. 

Okay sorry for wasting your time. I'm just having a late valentines thought here. byebye xD