Yesterday was the anniversary of my most favorite #KPOP girl group its their 8th tho i want to greet them by posting it in my IG/ other fan-fictions accounts but i don't have the strength and will. i become a fan back in 2009 where their careers really boomed. i gradually followed them bought their cds, photobooks, magazines, etc. i write fan-fictions about them posted it from one site to another gaining me a lot of supporters for having the same interests. belonging in this fandom which i called my family too made my journey as aspiring writer/fan more memorable. i was first a fan of seohyun: she is an angel we all know that, but jessica really caught my attention. she has this charm that once you got drowned you never get to stop to hook and be obsess to her. she was always the protagonist of all of my stories, i always paired her to my other male biases in other groups. now jessica left sm for good which means that she's not going back. i have mixed emotions while reading the article, my hands are shaking as i go on and read until the last word. then it really sunken in to me that she's not really coming back. well, there's a side of me blaming the 8 girls  but i know both parties are having the right side and the latter. its been a crazy journey for all of us SONE in hoping for months that things will be good that Jessica and GG members are in talks in reuniting but as today the news broke out and they aren't. now i really can say that they really parted ways. as GG members still continue to serve as part of the Nation's Girl Group that we all love and Jessica who's chasing her dreams and continuing her chosen craft has officially walk thru their own paths, walking slowly and not going to turn their backs. its painful but the memories of them as 9 will always remain to our hearts. this pain will teach us all to be strong.