Live for me, Dara.

Those are the words I see imprinted on my right arm at night. Some find it terrifying to have the last words your soulmate written on your skin, but I am comforted. They are all worried about being with the wrong person, but I am not. I know that when I meet my soulmate, I will feel it in my whole being. There will be no doubts. I just know it.

**

Don't go, Jiyong.

That short phrase haunts me at night. Will that be the last thing I hear my whole life? Or do I mess up my chances with my soulmate and leave her scarred for life? That's what I'm good at, messing things up. Jobs, opportunities, relationships, just life in general. Why does it have to be your soulmate's last words written on the arm? It would be so much easier if it was the first. I shake the thought off my head. It's broad daylight, I'm surrounded by a crowd, yet my mind is wandering off.

**

I'm sorry. I love you, Donghae.

I don't know how to feel about the words on my arm. When they began to appear in my 20s, I began to panic. It seems so bittersweet as I say it aloud, the words dripping on my lips. It seems like a goodbye. Is it possible to have someone as your soulmate, but you're not theirs? Yet, I'm also hopeful. I have yet to feel love-- romantic love. I bet it will be amazing despite the challenges. I wonder if I've laid eyes on her or passed her by on the streets. Where are you, my love?