The Confession

CHAPTER 41

"The Wrong Confession"

 

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*Jinyoung's POV*

 

FLASHBACK~~~

In the dressing room...

 

"Jinyoung, you need to confess!" Manager-hyungnim exclaimed.

"Give me one good reason why I should go out there and confess to every Bana that I like Yuri!" I demanded while pointing at the door behind me.

"This..." he said while pointing furiously at where we were standing, "This is for your career! THIS is for your own good!" he yelled at me. This was the very first argument that we had.

"How can that be for my own good!? How can that be for my career!? It's just stupid love team!" I furiously stated. He glared at me with wide eyes.

"If you don't confess then I'll terminate your contract!" he threatened.

"MWO!?" I asked, shocked and angry at the same time.

"I already agreed with their manager. If you don't confess, I have no choice!" he said, pointing angrily at me.

"Then why did you ever agreed with that Hyungnim!? Are you stupid!?" I choked out.

"Where's your respect Jinyoung!?" he roared. "And besides, you also agreed on this!"

"I'm going to confess to HyunMi today!" I finally told him.

"Mwo!?" he asked, surprised.

"That's why I brought her here! I'm going to confess to HER! TO HYUNMI! And NOT to YURI!" I growled. Tears of anger were building inside my eyes. This wasn't suppose to happen!

"Then confess to her AFTER 6 MONTHS!" he impatiently said.

"6 MONTHS!?!?" I asked in disbelief.

"Look! I can't just let go of you now that your career is taking off!" he angrily stated.

"How... How could you!?!?!" I roared, shaking my head in confusion.

 

Someone suddenly knocked at the door. Both of us fell silent, but I never took my glare off him.

"20 minutes more" one of the staff reminded and quickly closed the door.

Hyungnim let out a sigh, "It's up to you Jinyoung. If you don't confess, I have no choice." he said and started to walk towards the door.

"Oh I will confess... but not to Yuri..." I chuckled evilly. I sensed him pause.

"Jung Jinyoung! Are you that crazy!?" he exploded. I turned around to look at him.

"May be I am!" I shouted back.

"Jung Jinyoung, I'm begging you to think it over" he said, controlling his temper. He went out and slammed the door behind him. After the loud slam I kicked the door hard.

"Aaaagh~~~!!!!"

 

END OF FLASHBACK

 

 

Curse Manager-nim! Why does everything have to revolve around me and Yuri now!?!?! Isn't our music more important some stupid fake-couple!? What will I do!? My contract is in the line! Aghhhh! LET ME DIE! NOW!

 

I was sitting on the sofa, grunting very loudly. Every thought that I can think of is stupid and had no sense at all! The boys were having their make-up retouched.

"Jinyoung, we need to retouch your make-up now" one of the noona artists told me.

"I don't care." I simply said, not thinking of what she just said. All I can think of now is I don't care. I don't care about Manager-nim. I don't care about that stupid love team. But the only things that I do care about are HyunMi and my career.

I grunted loudly again while my face was buried in my hands.

"Noona, can you just leave us for a second?" Channie politely asked. They all obeyed and went out of the room. The boys sat beside me.

"Hyung, what's wrong?" Sandeul asked.

"Nothing." I answered through my clenched teeth.

"Oh come on, he's just nervous about the confession." Baro said, trying to lift Jinyoung's mood up.

"Jinyoung~ I really need to do your make-up now" the noona suddenly barged in.

"Aish~ arasseo!" I said. I was really irritated. There were so many things running inside my head right now! This is so frustrating!!!

 

 

After some minutes, noona was done with my make-up.

"Showtime~" Taeyeon-noona said while coming in our dressing room along with Yoona and Yuri. We were all ready. Well, we looked ready but I wasn't really in the mood.

"Everything set?" Manager-nim entered last.

"Ne" they all answered. I just slouched on my chair, ignoring his presence.

"Jinyoung?" he called. I turned my chair to him, he's raising one eyebrow at me.

"Wae?" I answered coldly.

"Have you made up your mind?" he asked with the same cold tone.

"Ani" I bravely answered. Anger was visible in my eyes.

"Jinyoung!" he yelled. Everyone jumped except for me. I was already expecting him to yell at me in front of everyone.

"Ob-wae!?" I answered back furiously and rudely as I stood up from my chair. The boys quickly blocked me like I was about to attack Manager-nim.

"Ya, hyungie. What's wrong with you?" Sandeul worried.

I ignored him and continued glaring at Manager-nim. I could see the girls' reaction from the corner of my eye. Yoona was feeling a bit awkward about the situation while Taeyeon and Yuri looked worried and scared.

"It's time! SNSD first, then the boys" the staff suddenly announced. The girls quickly went out.

"Do it" Manager-nim said and then stormed out of the room.

"Aaaaagghh~~!!!" I growled in frustration and buried my face once again in my palms.

"Hyung, what's going on?" Channie worried.

I just ignored him. I thought and I thought of what to do.

 

 

 

Some time passed and the girls finish performing. I was in a calm state now. Well, calmer than awhile ago.

"B1A4~" the staff called. We stood up and went towards the backstage.

"Let's go~" Sandeul cheered.

"Yallu~" Baro said.

"Eotteokhae?" I mumbled.

We were at the backstage while the host was saying some introductions.

"Calm yourself Jinyoung. Calm yourself." I repeated inside my head and took deep breathes

"Let's give it up for our Super Rookies~ B1A4~!" That was our queue. We went on stage and everyone screamed. We waved and smiled to our fans. I was looking through the crowd when someone caught my eye. It was HyunMi. She was exactly at the center of the audience. My range faded little by little, but I felt very anxious and worried now. I looked at her longer, forgetting the other fans. She was smiling brightly at us.

 

"OK" suddenly played in the background. We prepared ourselves for our performance.

 

♪Cheot nune piri kkochyeo neowa na
Love me love me love me
Love me love me baby
Eunmilhi jugobatneun mesiji
Tell me tell me tell me now

Namjadeul chim heullimyeo neoman bwa
Love me love me love me
Love me love me baby
Cheongsunhan geullaemeoe puk ppajyeo
Show me show me show me now♪

 

We sang like the stage was our playground. We were happily and freely singing and dancing for our fans. My problems vanished in a flash. The whole performance I kept on looking at the pretty girl that was at the center of the audience. She was smiling and singing along the whole song. She even yells the fanchants. It made my heart ease up looking at her smile like that. I really forgot about everything. I just continued looking at the person who keeps me happy and alive. The person who I really love. It just feels so nice.

 

 

The next song was Chu Chu Chu. One of her favorite songs. I remembered when I first hear her sing that.

 

She suddenly hummed the song she was listening to. It was familiar. I closed my eyes to remember what song it was, but all that I can hear is a a whole different sound that her voice made. It was really soothing. Her beautiful humming...

 

♪ Churu chu chu chu chu~

Chu churu chu chu chu chu~

Oh my love. Oh my love... ♪

 

She sang it perfectly but her voice was really low. Her voice was really beautiful. Wonderful to the ears. I can listen to it forever. Replaying. I opened my eyes, realizing I was smiling.

 

I was unknowingly smiling at her. She seemed to notice. Her shoulders jumped but she smiled back and yelled "FIGHTING!" It made me chuckle a bit.

 

♪ Saljjak ttoneun nesungi nomu gwiyowo
Ppijukdeneun du ipsuldo jongmal yeppeuji
Churuchuchu chuchu chu churuchuchu chuchu
Haengbokhe Haengbokhe ♪

 

I was about to sing my part in the chorus when I saw her singing along.

 

♪ My only hope it is you~
naye soneul jabajwo
I will *chuckle* love you forever~
naye mameul badajwo ♪

 

Yes, I chuckled. The fans noticed it and giggled. The other members were looking at me with teasing eyes. I just tried to stop my giggling and put on a wide smile. The fans shrieked as they saw how happy I was.

 

 

Our Chu Chu Chu performance ended and our host greeted us.

*skip intros~*

"So, Jinyoung-ssi we noticed that you chuckled during your part in the chorus... Wae? Did you remember something?" she asked with a teasing tone.

I looked down and chuckled to myself. All eyes were on me. The Banas were murmuring things.

"Ani" I answered.

"Jinjja? Then why? Kekeke" she asked again.

"I just saw someone pretty singing along" I admitted while looking at HyunMi. Channie and Sandeul were holding in their laughter. After saying that, the Banas reacted very fast.

"Omo~ Who could that be!?"

"Oppa! Nugu!?!?!?"

"Tell us who!!!"

 

I just chuckled to what they were demanding.

"Oh, could you please point her to us?" she requested.

"Well... I... uhmmm" I hesitated.

"Annyeong~" Yuri suddenly showed up. The SONEs went wild when she appeared.

"Oh, annyeong Yuri-ssi. What brings you here?" the host politely asked. I looked behind her and Manager-nim was standing at the backstage. His face was cold dead serious. This is one of his plans, I just know it.

"Oh nothing. I just want to join in the fun" she bubbly stated and sat beside me.

"Hmm... okay. So for our next segment, like what Sparkling is, the fresh boys will be performing their individual talents. Each member represents Sparkling's flavor."

 

First to perform was Sandeul. He bravely sang "In My Dreams" by Super Junior. He hit the high notes very well. I just remembered the song I picked. It was "Drunken Confession"

 

 

FLASHBACK~~~

 

"HyunMi, if someone will confess to you through a serenade, what song would you like him to sing?" Baro randomly asked her.

"Hmm... Any heart touching love song will do. Wae?" she answered and asked.

"Be specific." Sandeul said.

"May be Drunken Confession." She giggled.

 

*Note to self: Confess to her after singing "Drunken Confession" on Saturday. ;)

 

END OF FLASH BACK

 

 

"Waah~ I never knew that Gongchan-ssi had a wonderful voice." the host praised

"Ah, kamsahamnida" Channie thanked. Oh, it's my turn already? That was fast. :'>

"Now, the leader's solo." she announced. Banas cheered for me and raised their banners up high. I stood up and stood at the center.

 

Drunken Confession began playing.

 

♪ mwohago issonni neujotjiman jamsi naolle

noye jip golmoge inneun noritoe anjaisso

chin-gudeul mannaso orenmane sureul jjom henneunde

jakkuman ni olgul tto-olla mujakjong dallyowasso

i mam moreugenni yojeum na michinsaram chorom

noman senggakhe decheg-obsi niga jomjom joajyo

aniya anchwihesso jinjjaya nol jongmal saranghe

nunmuri nal mankeum wonhago isso ♪

 

While I was singing, I was only looking at HyunMi. She had her beautiful smile on. I stayed in one position, looking directly to her eyes. She looked back. I felt that we were the only two standing, alone in this large room. I was only performing for her. My heart beated so fast when I saw her eyes sparkle.

I broke the contact when I was about to hit a high not, but I looked back straightly to her. She was blushing and smiling. It was like the time when we first met. The wind blew at that time and I also felt that we were the only ones in her school. She is still the pure, beautiful person I see.

 

♪ jigeum dangjang dedaphajima nawa iljuilman sagwio julle

huhweobsi jarhe jugo sipeunde geuhue do niga siltamyon

na geutte pogihalge gwichanke anhalge honja apeulkke

jinsimiya noreul saranghago

(chwiheso ironeun-go aniya saranghanda) isso~ ♪

 

The song just ended. It was followed by an instrumental. This is the time I confess.

"That song... was for someone special" I started. The audience gasped and started murmuring. Every look was on me. But I only looked at the beautiful person that was at the center of the murmuring crowd. Her sparkling eyes widened a bit. I just smiled and continued looking at only her.

 

"It was for someone who caught my heart the first time I saw her--" I was cut off by the fans reaction. I held my index finger near my mouth, signaling them to be quiet. They obeyed.

"As I was saying... It was for someone who caught my heart the first time I saw her. She is a simple, elegant, nice, pretty, and a really shy girl. I wasn't the one who found her, but I was the first to introduce myself to her. The moment our eyes met, my heart began beating faster than ever. It was so long after I felt that speed again. I was strucked by her. We can call it love at first sight. Hehehe. But I knew that we can never meet again, so I decided that it was a simple crush and it will fade away quickly. But I think fate didn't agree with my decision. We met again and got to know more about each other for more than a month. She grew close to me and the boys really fast. We were shy with each other most of the time, but I was happy to be able to be by her side. 

"She has a beautiful voice. She sings from the heart. She sings familiar songs we all know, but for me it was a whole different song. It was more beautiful than anything else. A voice that I won't get tired of replaying over and over again inside my head.

"She's also an amazing dancer. *chuckles* Everybody's first impression towards her would be 'nice' and 'innocent' but when she dances... she can be a different person. She can be a childish and cute dancing to "Gee". She could also be mature and... uhmm... a bit seductive *chuckles awkwardly* when she dances seriously.

"Many people already love her. Well, I'm one of them. It isn't hard to love her. Whenever I feel down, her smile is the only thing that makes me feel alive and happy in a flash. Her cute aegyo makes me want to pinch her cheeks and tickle her all the time. One touch from her and it takes my breath away. One big hug from her, and my stomach is already filled with butterflies. When she calls my name, every sound just dies and it was only her voice that I can hear...

"But... when one tear comes out of her eye... It stabs  my heart a thousand times. One time, she got seriously hurt because of me. I really felt guilty. Mostly I was mad at myself for hurting her like that. After that incident, I promised myself that I will do my hardest not to hurt her again and if I did something wrong, I will love her even more.

"She's the most thoughtful, hardworking, loving, caring person I know. She's also the most beautiful, pretty, cute, childish person I see. My heart only beats her name. She captured my heart in just one month. I feel very thankful to God that I met an angel like her. Despite the troubles I caused her, she kept on smiling to me and saying that she's alright, even though we both know that she wasn't.

"She's the person who I've never expected in my life..." I paused, holding a deep breath and exhaled with a smile.

"I never expected she would be very important in my life. I never expected... that I will love a person this much again. I just want all of you to know how much I love her, and who she is. And I would like to confess to her right now at this very moment." I smiled at her and continued looking at her.

 

Murmurs began to spread in the area again. But as I stare intently into her eyes, it still feels like we're the only two together, alone. The only sound I hear now was my heart echoing her "Lee HyunMi" over and over again. This was our first long eye-contact. The boys stood up and walked to my side. I cleared my throat and smiled at her.

 

"I just want you to know how much I like you. If you would be very kind to accept my confession... I like you--"

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"BOOOOOOOOOOM~~!!!"

Something from backstage dropped, causing a big boom. Everyone jumped and looked to the direction where the big boom came from. My eyes caught Mr. Kim, SNSD's manager. I looked at him and he had a big smile on his face. Suddenly, everything came back to me. My contract, the fake confession! My eyes widened, everything was hitting me too fast. Pressure was already killing me. I looked back at Mr. Kim with range in my eyes, Manager-nim stood alongside with him. He had an apologetic expression planted on his face. I looked away with disappointment.

 

What am I going to do!?!?! I already told everything what my heart was keeping from HyunMi, then I'll just say that it was Yuri who's I've been describing!? That's just crappy wrong! But...

 

 

 

If I confess that it's really HyunMi, my long-time dream will just vanish within a snap...

 

 

 

 

 

If I confess that I like Yuri... I might not have a chance with HyunMi after 6 months...

 

 

 

 

 

 

EOTTEOKHE!? GOD HELP ME PLEASE!

 

 

I turned away from everyone, hiding my face. I closed my eyes and thought for a long time. After some time, I knew what I was suppose to do. Just as I open my eyes, tears quickly came out continuously. I immediately wiped them off before someone could notice.

"Jinyoung-ssi, please continue." the host politely said.

I faced the audience once again with my poker face. I looked at HyunMi and just stared at her. I really wanted to say, "I LIKE LEE HYUNMI" so bad! I just couldn't open my mouth. I felt like my tongue was tied up inside.

 

"Come on Jinyoung! You can do it!' Baro whispered into my ears.

"It's alright to feel nervous Jinyoung" Shinwoo patted my shoulder.

She was in the audience, waiting for an answer like everyone else. I looked at her and began opening my mouth.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"The person I truly like is...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Yuri-ssi..."

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

And this was suppose to be the confession....

But it turns out to be the wrong confession...

 

 

 

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UPDATED!!!

 

Jinyoung confessed.... to the wrong person. Why did he lied? What would HyunMi feel? Can they still be together? Has Jinyoung lost to Taemin? What was Jinyoung's reason to twist the confession? STAY TUNED!

 

ANNYEONG~~~ So what do you think of the confession? :) It's pretty dumb right? *sighs* It took me two days to come up with that kind of confession. Actually, I would like someone to confess to me like that. It would be so romantic and stuff. T.T Please leave comments! I would really like to know what you think about the long confession. ^^ As for HyunMi, you should watch that out in the next chapter. ;) Sorry for any mistakes! Correct me if you wish. Love you all!

 

 

 

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