You Love Him

CHAPTER 39

"You Love Him"

 

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Same day...
 

*HyunMi's POV*

 

6:00 PM

 

Practice was finally over, and my mind was full of thoughts. Different and confusing thoughts! Just because of Taemin's confession, why am I thinking of such things? May be I'm just shocked that he confessed. I really didn't expect him to say those things.

 

"Well, after letting go of Sunny. I never imagined that I would love only you so fast. There were times that I was angry at you, it was just because I cared so much. I acted different when were alone so I could let you see the romantic side of me. I like you a lot HyunMi-ah. More than a dongsaeng." he sincerely said.

 

We ended practice with Trouble Maker.

"Waah~ Yoseob-oppa, HyunMi-unnie. You two look good together" Gayoung said. She was the host of the dance competition last month.

"Go-gomawo" Yoseob and I said in unison and scratched the back of our heads. We looked at each other because of the same actions we did at the same time. We laughed when our eyes met.

"Omo. May be we should have a HyunSeobie couple or something, ne?" Gayoung joked.

"That sounds good!" Yoseob played along. We all laughed.

 

After a tiring day of practice, it feels nice to laugh and joke around with everyone. For one moment, I forgot all my troubles. I forgot about Taemin and the things he said earlier. But I accidentally glanced at his direction, he was looking at us. Everything happened in the cafeteria flashed inside my head.

 

"Ne. Well, it's really simple. It says, I love you." Channie simply said.

 

I shrugged it off and turned back to Yoseob and Gayoung.

"Yoseobie~" I sang in a girly voice, joking along. They paused for a minute, but burst out laughing after.

"Jagiya?" Yoseob acted surprised. I laughed hard at his expression. It's... gay-ish. HAHA!

I suddenly felt chills running down my spine. Someone was in a bad temper, I just know it. I looked around and I think it came from Taemin. Well, he is a jealous type of guy. Again, I shrug it off.

"Aish~ my cheekbones hurt" Gayoung said while rubbing both of her cheeks

"Omo, mine too~" Yoseob mocked. She glared him playfully. Kekek. These two. So cute together~ :)

"Oh. Oppa, Unnie, I'll be going now. Jalga~" Gayoung said and left.

 

As soon as she left, Yoseob and I kept on joking with each other.

"Yah~ HyunMi, does your jagiya look sekshi?" he joked and started doing sekshi-gay poses.

"HAHAAHAHA!" I laughed so hard that I dropped down to the floor. It was so alien. HAHAHA!

"Yoseobbie! Stop it!" I said while trying to stop my laughter.

"Hehehek. Arasseo" he said and helped me to get up from the floor.

 

"I'll be going now!" he said and tossed his jacket on his shoulder

"Ah. Take Care Jagiya! Hahah!" I said and gave him a goodbye hug.

I watched him leave with a smile on my face. Yoseob's really funny. But Hyukie's way funnier than him. Mianhe Yoseobbie~ :)

 

"Kaja?" someone from behind spoke. I turned around and it was Taemin, holding my bag and jacket. He was looking at the ground. I simply nodded and grabbed my things. I tied my jacket around my waist and put on my body bag.

 

We started walking towards the dorm. Since I'm practicing in school, I have no work. That's how it works. Hehehe. We were walking silently.

"HyunMi..." Taemin suddenly spoke

"Ne?" I asked. My eyes were closed while walking. It feels nice how the cool night air passes by us. It feels so nice, it calms my mind.

"Are you mad?" he asked in a sad tone.

I opened my eyes, but didn't look at him. I shook my head in response.

"I'm more confused really." I admitted. My eyebrows furrowed. Why am I confused?

I sensed that he looked at me.

"Wae?" he asked

"I don't know. May be I was just too shocked. I didn't know how to respond to your...uhmm... confession. I know that you were serious and sincere with the things you just said." I answered honestly.

"Because you love someone else" he mumbled.

"Mianhae" that was the only thing that I can say to him now.

He paused. I looked back and paused 2 steps ahead of him. He walked towards me and grabbed my shoulders, turning me to face him. Our eyes met. I never seen his eyes sparkle with warmness like this before.

 

"It's alright. I can wait. I know you won't answer me right after I confess, since you love Jinyoung-hyungnim. I understand why really. But while you're still single, I'll wait for you. I'll wait for your signal. I'll wait at the right time when I can court you...date you... and to make you... MINE." he said with a sly smile in the end.

His warm, velvet voice chimed in the cool night air. I never heard his velvet voice before. It was... romantic. The words he spoke touched my heart. His stare, his voice, his sincere words melted my heart. I just stared into his eyes for a long time. Sundenly a strong cool air passed by, it gave me the chills. I broke off the eye contact and just looked down at my feet.

"A-arasseo" I said, feeling all shy.

He smiled at me, my favorite smile of his, and let go of me. We continued walking towards the dorm.

 

 

 

We reached the dorm and waved goodbye to each other. I walked upstairs with my head pounding rhythmically. I entered the code and stepped inside.

"HyunMi-ah~" Channie sang, his way of welcoming me every time I arrived home.

I cringed at the sudden loudness of the area. Walking home from school with Taemin was really quiet and soft.

"Annyeong" I said with the opposite tone of Channie's voice.

"Omo, wae?" he asked. I change my shoes to my slippers

"Ani" I said whilee hitting my head lightly. It was still pounding.

They were all in the living room. Baro and Sandeul were playing video games, while Shinwoo and Jinyoung were simply watching Baro lose to Sandeul.

"HyunMi" Jinyoung called

"Ne?" I said. I was heading towards my room.

"I forgot to give you my gift" he said with a chic smile. He was slightly blushing.

"Gift?"

"Ne" he said and handed over my iPod

"How did you--"

"Channie gave me your iPod. I already transfered it." he answered before I could finish my question

"Gomawo" I said, forcing a smile. I didn't want to ask further since my head was really pounding hard. I entered my room and changed into my PJs. My phone began vibrating.

 

 

 

 

From: 진영 오빠 (Jinyoung-oppa)

       Listen to it. It might help you relax. ;)

 

 

 

 

I felt my lips curving up a bit. I grabbed my earphones and plugged it into my iPod. There were 3 new songs added to my iPod. I think these are his gift. Kekek

 

I played the first one. It was Drunken Confession. My favorite song that he sang. It's a clear copy? How could that be? He never recorded it for their album... Hmmm???

 

I closed my eyes and continued listening to it. It did made me relax a bit. Images of Jinyoungie were flashing in my head. I know that I'm already blushing but I don't care. Kekeke.

When it was done playing, I played the next one. From the start of the song I already knew what the song was. It's a "A Day" by Super Junior from their album A-cha. I've been singing to it recently since the lyrics are so... dreamy. Kekek. When the lyrics came, I was shocked. It wasn't Donghae-oppa singing. It was actually, Jinyoungie.

"Omo?" I mumbled. I continued listening, his voice was so beautiful. It just simply melts my heart. This is the reason why I fell for you Oppa. Kekeke.

 

After to listening to Jinyoungie's version of "A Day" I played the last song.

It was...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

"Saranghamnida"

I was expecting for Ryeowook's voice again, but it was Jinyoungie singing. Images suddenly flickered inside my head. Some were Jinyoung-oppa's... but mostly were Taemin's. The times when we teased each other, when we laugh, and when he pins me on to a random wall whenever I hit him. I felt tears building up inside me eyes, I didn't know why. I shook my head a couple of times. But something flashed inside my head.

 

"It's alright. I can wait. I know you won't answer me right after I confess, since you love Jinyoung-hyungnim. I understand why really. But while you're still single, I'll wait for you. I'll wait for your signal. I'll wait at the right time when I can court you...date you... and to make you... MINE." he said with a sly smile in the end.

 

Those words are still still fresh in my mind. I was looking down when a tear escaped my eye.

"Aish~ why am I crying!?" I mumbled, my voice was starting to crack. I wiped off the tears in my eyes and stood up and grabbed my jacket. I walked outside of the room.

 

"I'll be walking around the park" I announced

"Arasseo. Don't take too long, it's cold outside" Shinwoo reminded.

"That's why I wanted to go outside. To have my tears frozen up." I mumbled.

"Mwo?"

"Nothing. Channie-oppa can you accompany me?" I asked

"Sure" he answered and grabbed his jacket as well.

 

 

We went out in our PJs and jacket. We looked like kids. Heheh. We walked at the park. I saw a tiny playground with swings. I dragged Channie to the swings and sat.

"So what's bothering you?" he asked while we were swinging. It took me a long time to answer.

"It's Taemin..." I sighed.

"And?"

"He... confessed" I said, my voice was cracking again. I stopped swingning and just looked at the ground.

There was a long moment of silence. I could hear birds singing behind the closest tree.

 

 

 

Sudden Flashback~~~

"Oppa, it's so cold~" I complained while hugging Taemin. We were siting behind a tree, soaking wet.

"What do you want me to do?" he asked. Raindrops poured down even more

"Anything to warm me up" I said through my chattering teeth. He looked at me with a pervert smile.

"Yah!" I yelled at him

"Kidding~" he said and looked away. He began singing.

♪ Eolmana eolmana sirheohalji almyeonseodo
Igeotbakke hal ge eopda
Neoui jip apeseo harireobsi neoreul gidarineun il

Amuri amuri na bicham haedo
Neoreul irnneun geotbodan irheul ge eobseoseo
Gateun goseseo neoui jip apeseo gidarinda ♪

 

It was 2AM's "You Wouldn't Answer My Calls"

I hugged him tightly. Minutes passed I fell asleep and the rain stopped

 

END OF FLASHBACK

 

 

 

 

 

 

He kept on singing even though he was already cold.

 

That thought just made me teary-eyed. I took in a deep breathe.

"So he confessed?" Channie asked

I didn't look at him and just nodded

"Then, why are you bothered?"

"I...*sigh* Mollaseo"

"That's not a convincing answer" he said with a tone

"Well... There's always something in my head. I think I'm thinking of something but it's all blank. I'm frustrated why I can't think of it" I said.

"Did you ever thought that you love him?" Channie asked seriously

I was surprised by his question. I never thought that. Actually, I don't want to think about that. My feelings are getting all mixed up. Awhile ago I was confused and tired. Then I was crying because of... I don't know. Know... Agh!

 

I was quiet for so long.

"You love him..." he stated.

"Mwo?" I asked, my voice was once again cracking

"THere's a chance that you love him more than a big brother since you're not blood related to each other. There is the tiniest chance. He's important to you, ne? You don't want to loose him, ne? You're happy when you're with him, ne?" he said

 

I felt my heart slowly sinking. My answer to his questions were all "yes". Whenever I think of Taemin now, my heart beats rapidly fast. Whenever I think of his smile, his voice, his warmth. How could I love my Big Brother? WHEN have I fallen for him? This is so frustrating!

 

A tear escaped my eyes again. Channie stood up and went in front of me, wiping my tears.

"Shh~ why are you crying?" he asked

"I-I Don't Know" I said, and I just cried. He hugged me tightly.

"Oppa. What will I do? I'm so confused" I said while crying.

"Just follow your heart HyunMi" he whispered.

"How could I love two persons at the same time!?" I struggled.

"Who's the other one?" he joked

"Jinyoung..." I whispered.

"Just follow your heart HyunMi. You'll know the answer at the right time" he said.

 

But I don't want to wait! I don't want to have a complicated life! Every day I'll feel confused and troubled! I want to have a simple life. I want to have only one guy in my heart! I don't want to hurt anyone!

 

I just cried hard on Channie's chest, holding the hem of the back his shirt tight. I cried the whole time we were there.

 

 

 

 

"That's enough HyunMi, it's late and you're tired. Kaja?" he offered.

I pulled away and wiped my tears. I nodded and we went back.

 

 

 

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UPDATED!!!!

 

HyunMi loves Taemin. HyunMi loves Jinyoung. Eotteokhe!? Who will she choose? Taemin, her sweet, handsome, caring bestfriend? or Jinyoung, her ultimate bias who really fell for?

 

Okay, this is the last update for today I'm sure. Kekeke. So this chapter is a bit... dramatic? Hahah. I was trying to make a better drama than this, but... I'm just not in the mood. So I ended it quickly. Wahahaha! The flashback... I want someone to do that for me. *dreams xD* AISSH. Hope you like this chapter. ;D Sorry if there are a lot of mistakes. I just feel lazy editing and re-reading it. Hahaha! Mianhae. Just correct me if you want. Jalga~~~

 

@shin29: Don't worry. Jinyoung's confession will come. ;) but with a little... twist. >:)

 

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