A Song Calling For You
God, how could i've be so stupid!
I punched my pillow. Hoping it would ease my anger a little. I couldn't believe he toyed with me all this while and i was dumb enough to believe him.
My phone rang, i didn't need to look to know it was Jinki who was calling. I canceled the call. Few seconds later a message came in.
"Sunyoung i'm so sorry. I know you're furious and you have all the rights in the world to be, but please, please give a chance to explain."
I deleted the message and drew in a long breath. I wasn't 100% angry, it was disappointment that's engulfing me. I trusted him so much and he could have had a tiny bit of faith and respect in me, to tell me he truth. It doesn't matter anymore. It's over.
One week has passed since i learnt the truth. It hasn't been an easy week, not having Jinki around makes me feel a little empty on the inside. Am i missing him? I immediately brushed off the thought and headed to my classroom. I saw Jinki standing in front off the room as he has been for the past 1 week and as usual i ignored him,pushed him aside and walked in.
It hurt me to hurt him, but i wasn't ready to talk to him just yet. I don't want to things between us to end in bad terms. End? Is that what i really want? For the special bond we had, to end? I don't know what i want anymore.
"Okay, this has got to stop!." Jonghyun said, sounding exasperated. "You have stop moping around like the world has ended."
"It has." i answered dryly as i checked my email, to see if Sunyoung has replied any of my emails.
"Stop checking your email and phone every 10 seconds!"
"What the hell do you want me to do then?" i asked. I flipped open my phone but immediately closed it when i saw Jonghyun nose flaring, out of annoyance.
"Jinki, i understand that you're lost without her but by sitting here all day you're not going to make things better. That's the mistake you did before, you didn't do anything."
I nodded. "I have to do something. Something to make her listen to me. Something that'll make her trust me again.And i know exactly what i have to do. " i said, looking at my guitar.
"Now, with that kind of determination in your eyes. Your going to nail this. That was the look you had when you were competing at the Math Olympiad. And you aced it. You'ce got my support this time my friend." Jonghyun said, giving me a high five.
"Are you sure this is a good idea? How if she gets pissed off again?" i said, kneading my hands.
I sighed nervously.
"It's kind of late to back off now.Go get your love buddy." Jonghyun said, passing me my guitar.
Okay, this isn't that bad. It's just a room filled with people. I looked around the cafeteria . With alot of people.The students were enjoying their lunch and fooling around. Hope i won't make them throw up.
I saw Sunyoung sitting at a table which was right in the middle of the cafeteria. I walked towards her and climbed onto the table beside hers. She looked at me with surprise, actually it was more like i was insane. I don't know which.
"What the..?" she said as i started strumming my guitar.
And i kept reminding myself not to faint as i sang the song. When i took a look at her face, my fear disappeared, instead i felt contented when i saw a smile, which she tried to hide, appeared on her face. And i sang. For her.
I'm here without you baby
But you're still on my lonely mind
I think about you baby
And I dream about you all the time
I'm here without you baby
But you're still with me in my dreams
And tonight girl its only you and me.
I let out a sigh of relieve as i ended the song. The crowd in the cafeteria broke into applause. I turned to look at Jonghyun, who gave me two thumbs up with a wide smile. Then i turned to look at her.
She was still trying to hide her smile but her blushed face gave her out.
"Get off the table, you lunatic." i said, crossing my arms. And he did, only that he tripped over thin air and landed on the floor.
And as usual the crowd started laughing. "SHUT IT PEOPLE!" i shouted.
"What do you think you're doing?" i asked, turning to him
I told him to meet me at his secret hideout spot after school. He was already waiting for me when i arrived.
"Hey." he said, taking his hands out of his pocket. "Do you want to sit?"
I nodded and sat down, he settled beside me. I dusted my palms and smoothed my skirt before turning to him with a tiny smile.
"Thank you." i said.
"For?" he asked, looking slightly confused.
"For doing what you did today at the cafeteria. It must have been really difficult for you to do something like that. Thank you." i said, feeling overwhelmed. I was truly grateful and more than happy for what he did. It made me realize my true feelings.
He hung his head down shaking it. "Don't thank me. You deserve way more than that."
I looked down, trying to hide my red cheeks.
"Sunyoung, i promise i didn't mean to lie to you about..you know what. I just couldn't bring myself to tell you and i know it's a cowardly excuse. I was afraid the truth would ruin our friendship and i didn't want that to happen." he explained.
"It's okay. I should have understood you more. I wasn't thinking right. I don't get angry easily but when i do, it usually gets out of control. I know you would have told me the truth if you could. Besides, it's not like you lured me into doing bad stuff right?" I said, smiling.
"But that's no excuse. I shouldn't have..."
"Jinki, do you love me?" i provoked before he could continue,knowing exactly what the answer is.
"Wh..what? What did you say?" he asked, his eyes round.
Until today morning i had no idea of what i actually wanted, but as soon as i saw him with that guitar, i realized how much i missed him. And how much i needed him in my life. I felt complete again. That's when i knew i had fallen for him somewhere along the way. Whether it was Jinki or OnewTokki it didn't matter. He was the same person on the inside. The same warm hearted, kind and loving person who entered my life and made it beautiful.
"You know what? Forget that i asked." i said, getting up.
He scrambled onto his feet and caught hold of my wrist.
"I do." he said. "I love you."
I was genuinely surprised that he admitted it.
"Surprised?" he asked. I nodded.
"I don't want to be afraid anymore. I nearly lost you once for not being able to speak up, i'm not going to make the same mistake again."
I was speechless.
"Want another surprise?" he asked. Before i could react, he pulled me into his arm and placed a long kiss on my lips. I circled my arms around his neck as i drowned into his kiss feeling a shiver run down my spine.
I pulled away and leveled my eyes with his.
"Okay, second thoughts. You're not forgiven. You did lie to me." i said, brushing the tip of my nose to his.
"I didn't lie. I just didn't tell you the whole truth." he argued.
"But if you insist on punishing me. I'm fine with it." he said, flashing a cheeky smile.
"Yes, as a matter of fact i do have a punishment in my mind." i said, swaying in his arms. "You must sing to me. Everyday. For the rest of your life."
"I humbly accept the punisment." he answered, leaning down to kiss me again.
"Wait." i said pressing my finger on his lips."Who..or what is OnewTokki?"
"Oh, that..my pet names. My dad calls me Onew and my mum calls me Tokki. Together they become OnewTokki. I'll let you on the details later. Since you're going to be stuck with me for a long, long time."
I giggled as i pressed my lips onto his, knowing that there will always be a song that'll call out for me.
That's the end~
Did i rush the story? Comments are welcomed..and thank you so,so much for reading..you don't know how much it means to me~thank you.
p/s: in case you're wondering what's the song Jinki sang in this chapter it's--I'm her without you by 3 doors down.
See you in my next fic then..
have a great day~XOXO
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