I forget what my actual plans were for this story and they were probably on my old phone and basically I hate my life ㅠㅠ I sort of remember the plans I have for it, reading it over. Anyway, as usual this is a really angsty story and as usual I'm starting a new fic when I have a billion to work on.. To defend this one, I wrote the preview back in September but never posted it, and now I'd like to post it so people can tell me their thoughts and stuff. So yeah :)

(I asked someone ages ago - back in September or maybe early October - to beta this for me and I can't remember who you were but let me know if it was you and if you remember anything I told you about it ㅠㅠ Thanks~)

Otherwise - amazingly! This will actually have non-Exo members (being Jong's child and the child's mother) but the girl will only be mentioned in flashbacks as the story starts at the 3 years later point. Haven't decided who the child will be (whether someone in Kpop or an OC). When I originally wrote this the girl was going to be an OC too, but now I'm thinking not so. This may be the first of my Skai stories (learn to expect Skai from me from now on, its now a personal ship of mine). (What is Skai? CL x Kai. CL like Sky [like in Skydragon]... I'm sure you can figure out the rest. SEE MY DP :D) It will also (obviously) have hetero content. This is all a big first for me~ Hopefully I won't be a disappointment. Regardless, the main ship will of course be Kaisoo. Everything outside of Kaisoo will only occur in memories.

I have no idea how long this will be. I've given up on trying to figure out how long my fics will be, because they always end up way longer anyway. It won't be as long as Miscalc, but that's pretty easy so. Maybe 100K words or less? I don't even know.