I'm an idol but i'm still human right?

I love her, but i'm too shy to look at her and confess to her.

She is my senior but we are in the same age.

Maybe, she is look chic outside but she is very cute and care to athers.

Now, she is has and instagram account, i want to follow her ig but i'm worried she will get a bash from my fans and yes i'm too shy... ~~~