I haven't written to you recently. Now a days it seems to be a difficult task for me, almost impossible. Sometimes I just can't find the right words to say. I want to tell you about my day. I want to know how you're doing. I want to ask for your advice, for your forgiveness. As time goes on it feels as if a part of my heart is missing. I long for you, but I now understand that no matter how much or how hard I try nothing will change. Nothing will ever be the same again, between us.