Hi, all.

My name is Lee Kikwang, yes, the Kikwang on stage. The solo artist. The Ace Junior. The one with the cutest eyesmile, the one who dances so well. No no no I'm not self-praising. Those are what my fans told me. And that, is just one side of me.

The other side, is me with nerdy glasses and unstyled hair, sitting in the corner of the classroom, forever reading books. Textbooks, notebooks, storybooks, you name it. And I am the attention of the school. Why? Not because they know I'm the AJ on stage, but because they found me easy to bully. They bully me wherever they want, whenever they want and however they want. I didn't say anything. 

Because, ironically, those guys who bully me are my biggest fans. I'd always see them on the first row whenever I'm performing, to the extent that I'm afraid that they'll find out who I am. That never happened, anyway.

Those group of boys. There are 5 of them, and they call themselves BEAST. I was like "what the heck, who in the right mind will name themselves BEAST" then i realise that they were never in their right mind.

Okay, to be veeery honest, I don't like girls. I mean, ya they're sweet, pretty, y, but girls were never my style. Boys my age have raging hormones. Whenever they see y girls, BAM. But for me? I wasn't interested in them. Because BEAST realised I have never looked at girls once, they started calling me gay, well yes its true but still.

Among BEAST, one of them caught my eyes. /Cough/ Yes maybe I have a tiiiny crush on him. He's always with BEAST but whenever they bully me, he'd just stand at a side. Little acts like this, it warms my heart. He's really handsome too. People call him the male god. Son NamShin. I agree, too. My heart pound real fast whenever I see him amongst my fans while I was performing. Have I fallen too deep? Damn I sound like a high school girl.

The fact that he's so damn popular hurts my heart. I knew, that I'll never get to be the one with him, since I'm pretty sure he's straight.

This year is our graduating year. And I'm gonna make the best out of it. I, am going to reveal myself.