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I am because we are (Ubuntu) [Permanent Hiatus]
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Word Count: 1400

 

 

Warmth, he was surrounded by warmth.

 

Baekhyun wakes up to a sun barely raised, its rays peeking through the clouds creating another magical photo like image. He smiles at the view and falls into reverie. For minutes, he was lost in thoughts, pleasant thoughts.

 

With a tint of pink on his cheeks and a closed lip smile that nearly reached his ears, he snuggles more to the warmth behind him. He tightens the arm around his waist but later takes hold of the hand to clutch to his chest.

 

A dream.

 

Don’t wake up yet.

 

Not yet.

 

 

Almost falling back to sleep, he snaps his eyes wide open at the sudden realization that Oh no.. This is not a dream.

 

Scared of turning around, remembering the almost kiss he was caught in, he freezes – his mind a haywire of asdfhgkaskldfagalksj. The whole time though, he never lets go of the hand he held tightly on his chest – whether for fear of catching him awake or a deeper fear that once he lets go, everything ends.

 

After a moment of trying to sense if Chanyeol was still asleep – arm lose, hand lose, even breaths. He decides to hell with it and turns around. For the second time, Chanyeol’s serene sleeping face greets him.

 

He tries to sit up, elbow supporting his weight as he can’t fully sit up due to the arm still around his waist, and watches the taller sleep. A big giant baby is what he looked like – big ears, big sleeping eyes, plump lips, messy hair. A huge contrast to the dark blank demeanor he has when awake. It all sent fluttery giddy feelings inside of him. He’s sleeping beside Chanyeol the ‘ice prince’ of Team E.B. on his bed. (Yes, that is a big deal.)

 

The smile falters though as he notices the picture frame by the side table, a different picture of Chanyeol with his ex-girlfriend. The happy feels he felt vanished in a second and was replaced by the pain that starts to pinch Baekhyun’s chest – jealousy.

 

Chanyeol’s smile in this picture was even bigger than the smile he saw in the last. His eyes were of crescent shape, wrinkles on the sides. His smile as if glowing showing his row of teeth and nearly reaching his ears. It seemed more like laughter even. Laughter.

 

The thought of laughter alone, a sound he has never heard before, increased the pain in his chest tenfold. This girl, she saw him smile and heard his laugh. She saw the real Chanyeol, the happy Chanyeol. Not the blank, dark, ice cold Chanyeol he met.

 

His feelings were mixed – jealousy, loss of hope, determined. It was all confusing to him.

Jealous – of the Park Chanyeol she met. Of the smiles she saw, the laughter she’s heard. Of their relationship as a whole. Loss of hope – surely this girl fits Park Chanyeol more than he does. Fits him in every aspect from her beauty to her probable name, to her surely high status. Determined – But Park Chanyeol did ask him to teach him how to smile again and he will keep that promise. How he said that this time, Byun Baekhyun would be the reason he smiles.

 

But overall he felt pain. Pain because it has only been a handful of times since he has seen Chanyeol smil

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exocholic
[Ubuntu] Hello! Just to let everyone know, a little update on the last chapter, it's already on the works! It looks like it's going to be a very long chapter though. So I may have to see if I'll update with what I currently have or just the whole last chapter in one go. But finally getting there! 😭

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MyLipsOnEXOs
#1
This fic is definitely the perfect one for winter. If anyone scrolls the comments they’ll see how often I reread this! At this point I would buy a physical copy of it.
Maya1990
#2
Chapter 95: When I saw in the title that it's in permanent huatus I went to the last ch to see where did it stopped and I swear to god I cried .... the pain I felt was REAL, the last 1000 words broke my heart 💔 now I want to read the whole thing knowing very well it will get me depressed
JuliaByun #3
Chapter 95: August 2023 and I still long for this story 🥹 I keep coming back because it demands my attention. I hope you’re doing great and well authornim ❤️❤️
walkinginmoonlight #4
Chapter 95: Ahh sometimes I get reminded of this fic and just how like, lovely it is? It's been years since I've last reread it, but I still remember it fondly, gosh the times when it had just started I still clearly remember. I was just reminded of aff being a thing today and had to try and remember my login.. I cannot remember if I commented on this chapter already but! Even if it's not the complete end, it's half of the end, so we've come pretty far since the beginning 😊 I know updates went from quick to rather slow, but seeing it's been awhile I got a bit worried so checked your twitter, and it's nice to see you're still doing well! Or, seemingly doing well. That you're still around and still enjoying our EXOs~❤️ so I hope you are doing well! And thank you for the very memorable fic 😊
MyLipsOnEXOs
#5
I've lost count of which rereading this is but this shall definitely always be my comfort fic. Whether it's the writing style or the details or the flow or the characters or maybe all of that together, there's just something that has me always coming back.

I read this for the first time in 2018, 5 years later it still holds a special place in my heart. I usually avoid starting new fics that haven't been updated recently, but just like my very first comment on this fic "It's on permanent hiatus but the foreword has me entranced so I will read it", the story is truly entrancing and gosh I'm grateful I read it!
Exofanland #6
Chapter 95: had to reread the last few chap bc its been so long and yes i am still crying my eyes out.
dreaming777
#7
Chapter 95: Hi there, I've left my aff account for so long an happy to see this update!!!! And truthfully I didn't expect I would still bawled my eyes out 😭
uwuness
#8
i keep coming back here just to check if authornim's have an update but no rush authornim, i can still wait :)))))) i'll reread this again because i'm missing this so much~

take care always~
uwuness
#9
i miss this so much 😭
hearteututu #10
Chapter 95: I’m back after many years and this made me cry so much. I really love this story and can still remember every scene vividly. Tysm for this wonderful and heartfelt chapter 💕