Let's Play Pretend

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“Let’s pretend I don’t have this kind of feeling.”
“Let’s pretend I don’t see him more than a friend.”

“Let’s pretend I don’t find him cute.”
“Let’s pretend I don’t feeling crazy about him.”
“Let’s pretend I don’t need him.”
“Let’s pretend I don’t want him.”
“Let’s pretend I don’t like him.”

 

 What would you do if the last thing you need to do is to pretend that
you happy even though you are not,
you are okay eventhough deep inside you are not,
you are not getting hurt,
you are just a friend.
 

 

Would you continue pretending? or will you stop?

 

 

Foreword

Luhan walked out from the house and Kai went to get him back.

“What are you doing? Why are being like this? Why are you getting angry? Answer me, Luhan!”

“I thought pretending that I don’t need you will help me on moving on, you know what even though I am just a friend to you, I can’t stay being like that! I need you, I want you and I like you. I hate myself for being like that, being a friend to you, because now I am regretting to fall in love with my bestfriend.”


L texted Luhan to go to the park and Luhan accepted it and went out.

“Why do you want to see me, L?”

“I am happy that you let me do this kind of things to you, I am happy that you let me stay at your side every single time that you felt you are losing yourself, I am happy that you make me smile even though I know deep inside you are getting hurt. You know what, you are like sun in my life and I am happy that I have you. Luhan, I like you, since the very start, I like you.”


L grabbed Kai's collar the moment he saw him.

“You hurt him!”

“I didn’t!”

“Yes you did! If you didn’t then why is he crying? Why is he not answering every call? WHY!”

“Because I can’t say that I like him! I like him so much, I like him that I have to divert every feeling I have for him because I don’t want him to get hurt, I don’t want to see him crying, I don’t want to make him sad!”

“Make him sad? Why?!”

“I can’t let him see me wanting him so much! I can’t let him see me needing him so much!”

“K-Kai...” L let go of Kai’s shirt.

“I feel like a monster needing him... wanting him all to myself... I don’t want that because if ever he will leave me... I might die...”


(a/n)

I just want to do this, I just like doing this.

My mind can't be satisfied if I don't post this one, seriously.

Please bare with me!

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ushiii #1
Please update this soon ~
clang2
#2
Oh I'm so excited for this !! angsty KaiLu ~