Hi I write this just because I refuse to let my otp dies ok. is just my point of view if you don't like it please don't read it,cause yeah I need feel that the relationship betwen them is gonna be okay and maybe this is my way of healing a little : )

well first let me tell you something you know I was thinking in sungmin's relathionship and his enlistmen and all that and sundely someone come to my mind ¿do you guys know Ricky Martin? he is a latin star and I remember years ago when this rumors of him being gay did appeared in the news ( I'm mexican so I living it ) rumors were in magazines and entertainment shows everywhere,quickly Ricky will relate to actresses and talked about his ex-girlfriends,because yes he had girlfriends,and early return to one of them (one mexican presenter) and traveled to europe together and had pictures and everything showing their "love", and a couple of years after he write a book of his life and came out of the closet on his twitter, what I'm going is that sometimes is difficult to accept ourselves and then we can look for ways to seem what we are not, what others think we should be but at the end of the day the truth is the only thing that will make us happy, it's just a thought I had, I'm not trying to offend anyone just give my view on the subject,because yeah I'm still in healing process and need get out of my chest this : )

sungmin came into his room, he was crying and did not know why or maybe he did but stubbornly refused to admit it, why if everything seemed to be fine? if he just talk to the members and they supported his relationship? why if the company was happy of that gay rumors being erased? why if most of fans had made ​​it clear that they were with him?, why he was still feeling so miserable?,he knew the answer,it was because "he" had not appeared all day despite having returned from his trip that morning,why was sungmin still caring what he thought? was not the same kyuhyun who asked him to take a time out?, was not the same maknae who in a fit of jealousy towards him said he do good match with his now girlfriend?, why he was still care about the young feelings? cause he can't stand see him hurt even if he was hurt too ... sungmin get out of his now room with all caution to not wake the other members who believed him resting and entered what was his room for so many years, the room that was only kyuhyun's now, sungmin knew kyuhyun had not arrived yet, perhaps would not come all night, he look at the window and saw all those bottles of wine, how many of them had shared together in the same place? recalled as they used to close the door and sit down to enjoy wine and each other's company, as the world outside of these four walls ceased to exist when they were together, then they were young and it seemed that only his love cares but it don't mattered anymore ,he was with someone else now,someone he likes and he truly believe that he can falling in love with her but not when the makne still remain in his heart...