"I don't have any reason to not be okay, right? I mean... I knew he was never mine. So I have no reason to cry, right? When I sat back down from refilling my drink, I told myself that I should give up knowing it's too late anyway. I know I've been waiting for years for him to figure it out on his own since I didn't have the balls to say or write it to him. I had many chances to tell him, but I all screwed those chances up."

***

"I'll be there to support him as the long time friend he's always had” He sniffed, “not as his stupid dongsaeng who fell in love with him. I'll be there because I want him to be happy knowing that he has us by his side when he steps into a new life with a wife."

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When I heard silence, that’s when I left quietly. Sitting in my car, I cried, just knowing that I might’ve ruined the chance to be with him all this time made me feel like an idiot who didn’t know about the love he was talking about.

That was the moment I knew I still loved him.