Jaejoong hates that he still speaks Yunho's name so often after they've broken up. It's been years, yet every other word out of his mouth is Yunho's name. Maybe one day he'll fall in love again and no longer say the name thats haunted his dreams as every other word.

He hates that his memories of Europe were all with Yunho. Feeding him ice ream, whispering sweet nothings under the crowded Eiffle Tower, taking a night ride over the Seine River and gasping at all the pretty buildings. Those sweet memories, he knows, won't leave him. Instead they'll leave a hole in his heart that will only fester and grow, and eventually pull him down in a dark abyss.