By no means was I perfect or the nicest person in life, I wasn’t outstanding, I wasn’t out of this world, I didn’t like to stand out, I didn’t need to, I didn’t want to. I was fine just getting by with how I was and who I had been. But then that idiot walked into my life and just wouldn’t go away. Rude, entitled, lazy, and mean, that boy waltzed into my life and turned absolutely everything upside-down. Though if I’m being honest he wasn’t always rude, entitled, lazy or mean, he would briefly show his courageous, gentlemanly, brave, intelligent and caring side, those small glances of them made me want to be outstanding, out of this world, to stand out, I need to, I want to, I want him to notice me. I suddenly found myself craving Oh Sehun.

Now that it’s all over and I think back to how it was and all the things I should have said, the words I said instead. I think of the unsaid things that had fallen between us. Somehow I couldn’t bridge the gap with my words to Sehun and I wish I had been able to. I wish they weren’t left unsaid. There are a lot of things I'd like to tell him, there are countless feelings that he inflicted on me that I just brushed aside. Questions I'd like to ask, but I suppose the one that's most pressing is this: Could you listen to what I have to say, could you give me the chance I passed on because I was too afarid? I'm brave enough now.