I love to hear music.I always to have my own favourite boy group.But always change when another boy group appear.Everybody in my school know that i love music.Because i`ve always wear headphone wherever I go.I had crush on someone in my class.I`ve watch him for three years , Kunpimook Bhuwakul is his name.People called him kunpimook only.But I secretly name him Bambam.

I wonder did he know that i like him ? I hope he know :) Not everyday we talk nicely,sometime we had fight in class because of small matter such as he kick my chair then i kick him back.I dont know that i should get mad or smile . Its make me feel that he want to tease me only . But ,to take care of my bestfriend feeling when she is ex girlfriend of Bambam . I`m a bit (maybe ) sad :) . My day always fulls with his laugh , his smile , his eyes , his style . But everthing changed after he left the school . My day turn bored . I realise that before he left , he quite close to me . Is that the sign that he want to left ?

7 Days Before He Left...

Monday ,On our reccess , i just kidding when i ask him to treat me some chocolate . But then i received a chocolate wafer from my classmate , we just called him White . He said someone give it to me . I dont ask him who give it to me cause i know who . I smiled .

On the next day we had a free time . To full my time , i wrote some of my idol group,2NE1 . And then i fall asleep . I wake up when i feel like being watching by someone . When i open my eyes . Bambam was there . I`m in a bit shock .

`What you doing looking at someone book ?'I quickly close the book . His hand were too fast . He took the book .

`I just want to take a look . I can`t ? Why ? Contain o ? ' I look at my shoes . Shy . The books contain his name . 

`No.' I calmed myself . Hoping that he dont find his name in there.

`Can i ask you something ?'

`Yes'

`Why you love music ?' He asked me a question that never one has ask to me . He was the first person to ask .

`Just...'

`Just ? '

`When I`m sad I hear to a song , because music help me escape from the reality where i live in.To me music is everything.' I laughed , I dont know what i`m telling him just know.

`Are you always sad , is that why you always hear to a song ? ' Another question that hit me . Yes , i said it to myself . I have problem with my family . I`m not answering his question . i Will answer it one day .

Nothing special happen on wednesday to Saturday.

Sunday afternoon,when i`m going for a jog . I saw black care . I know it was bambam`s car . Why ? I wait at the gate to spy on him . When the black passed the gate , I can saw Bambam in the car . He stopped for a while because the traffic light was red . I looked at him .

`Where you want to go , bambam ? ' I know he couldn`t hear at me . He doesn`t look at me anyways .

`He`s going to moved to another country.' The guard said . The word `moved' makes my heart stop beating . I fall onto the ground as the car started to move away to the busy road . I stand back quickly and I want to chase the car . I stopped at the middle of the road . My head spinning around when seeing many car around me . Where is him ? I collapsed there .

When i wake up , I`m in the hospital bed . I took my phone and look at the clock . It`s almost midnight . I need to go home or my mum will scold me . Tommorow i need to go to school . Without him around . I cant believe that i have lost him . I cried as much i want at the street . I dont care if everyone is looking at me . 

On Monday morning , i go to school as usual . As nothing happen yesterday . Roy , my boy-bestfriend greet me and ask me that i`m okay .

`Yesterday , you collapsed in the middle of the busy road , you know ?! The school sent you to the hospital .'

`Really ' 

`The had called your parent based on the number that you give last week on parental information '

`Hmm ok ' I never give the real of my mum number phone.I dont want her to know my school life . Roy is the only guy who know about my family and that i`ve a crush on bambam . 

We walked together toward the school . In class , Roy ask me that i already know about bambam or not . I just nodded and look at bambam`s table . I`m sure that i can life without him . Fighting !