Have you ever thought of what would happen in the future, when all your Kpop Idols have gone their separate ways, or have moved on with their professional and personal lives? Have you ever thought of how the 1st generations idols have decided to walk either a path together with the group, or to go on and leave the limelight? Have you even imagined walking with them when the spotlight dims?

But I never thought he will be a part of my life. Apart from just knowing him on stage, I never thought that jumping ship and bringing him closer to my personal life would in return bring me a rollercoaster fill of emotions.

I was very happy when we were together.

He was the star that shone so bright. He was the light I was so very afraid to touch. 

But I promised never to leave his side.

Only to break it when the times have gone tough, and the emotions brimmed the cup.

This is my story.

And I bet the heavens won't forgive me even if I did this much.

February, 2017