I Can't Break it to my Heart

Description

If it's okay
I'll leave the bed light on
And place your water glass where it belongs.
And if it's alright
I'll lie awake at night
Pretending I'm curled up at your side.
See I'm circling these patterns
Living out of memories.
I'm still a long way from accepting it
That there's just no you and me.

But if I still believe you love me
Maybe I'll survive
So I tell myself you're coming home
Like you've done a million times
And if it's alright
I'll still be loving you
'cause I can't break it to my heart

Is it just me
Did I commit a crime?
I won't believe that loving you
Is just a waste of time
Or was it in my head
I'm reading into things that you never said
'cause I still don't have the answers
To why we couldn't work it out
I wanna think it's something that i did
So I can turn it back around

And nothing will come between us
I wanna convince myself we're perfect in
Every single way as long as i can keep
The truth away from my heart
Oh 'cause I can't break it to my heart
'cause I still don't have all the answers
To why we couldn't work it out
I wanna think it's something that I did
So I can turn it back around

"Well that was the last box!"
We had just finished moving into a cute apartment for 2.
We were so excited! Finally we had taken the next step in our loving relationship. 5 months ago, you had proposed and I accepted.
I felt your strong arms encircling around my waist, spinning me around before we collapsed into a heap of giggles. We shared a kiss before we went to go and spend our first night together, in our own apartment. Life was going to be better from now own.
Or so we thought...