Song Ji Hyo's POV

Running Man has changed my life. If I have not agreed to become a permanent member of RM my life wouldn't be this interesting. RM allowed me to meet great friends and also made me into a person that I can be proud of. I was able to challenge myself to do new things and push my limits which made me amazed of what I can actually do.

But one of the most significant things that Running Man did to me was allowing my heart to beat for someone unexpectedly. I didn't know it myself but I finally understood what my heart has been telling to me all along.

I have feelings for Gary oppa.

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Honestly, at first I didn't want to accept that I really felt something for Gary. The first few months when we shooted for RM, everything was just for fun. I really didn't expect that fans would go crazy for me and Gary as Monday Couple so much. And from then on, I have been working so hard in order for us to never let our fans down.

Of course it was awkward at first but then as days, months, and years passed, me and Gary just became closer and closer naturally. We became like real siblings that could just joke around, laugh at each other and share our secrets.

Actually, the Gary everyone sees on-screen in RM is quite different once there are no cameras on him. He makes jokes so much about MC when we are shooting but once we are done, he just becomes a simple guy and is a real gentleman.

Up until now, I am really still touched with the rap that Gary oppa made for me for one of the games we had during the earlier episode of RM. Though my heart rate during that time wasn't really high, I was completely amazed and thankful for what he did. Though I didn't feel anything yet for him at that time, I believe that his rap left a small mark deep inside my heart. Oh how I wish I could hear it again. I really want to hear that rap again.

"Gary oppa." I said to myself and my heart starts to beat faster than usual just by saying his name.

"Oppa, I think I really like you but I don't know what to do. I don't know if I have the courage yet to say it in front of you but honestly my heart is going crazy. I can't stop thinking about you." A tear suddenly came down my cheek and I started to cry.

I laid down on my bed and continued to cry until tears won't come down anymore.

"I understand that I have feelings for you but it would be really difficult for us if we would have a relationship. But I really don't know if I can hold it in anymore."

Then, more tears started to well up my eyes and I started to cry even more until I fell asleep.