Identity Crisis

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Everyone has a unique identity. It's the fact of being. It's what a person is and that is what makes a person special. You can't have two identities at once. It destroys you.

Baekhyun needs to choose between his perfect boyfriend, Chanyeol, or the man he spends his nights with, without ruining everyone he cares about with a secret from his past.

 

 

Foreword

 

“So it’s true, when all is said and done, grief is the price we pay for love.” 
― E.A. Bucchianeri, Brushstrokes of a Gadfly

I wrote this while listening to a certain list of songs. So if you want to know the songs that shaped this fan fiction into what it is, here's the list:

1) Boyfriend - Janus - I felt like this song really went well with Chanyeol's feelings.

2) Song Ji Eun ft. Bang Yong Guk - Going Crazy - This song is the song that inspired me for the stalker scenes.

3) Infinite - Paradise - This song inspired me a lot...but if I tell you why, the story will be given away.

4) VIXX - G.R.8.U - This song was used for all the Baekyeol fluff.

5) VIXX - Voodoo - This song in all honesty was more like what Baekhyun felt for Chanyeol. The whole thing about how he would do anything for him.

6) VIXX - Hyde - This song is the main song, in a way I guess...

7) VIXX - Eternity - This song is so very important as well! It is also my current obsession song.

Title: Identity Crisis.

Pairing: BaekYeol, ChanBaek.

Genre: Romance, Angst, Psychological Thriller.

Warnings: Character death, Psychological problems, some violence, mentions of .

Rating: Clean except for some vague mentions of .

Length: Six + Author's Note: Journey of Identity Crisis

Baekhyun shivered as he hugged himself. The street was dark and everything gave off an evil aura. He didn’t want to be there but he had to make it to Chanyeol’s house fast before Chanyeol got the phone call. Why did Chanyeol live in such a shady neighbourhood? Maybe it was because he could barely afford to go to school with his sick mother to take care of. Which direction was Chanyeol’s house again?

Left here, he thought.

He turned left and continued following the small white stripes on the road. He froze. Footsteps. Baekhyun swore he heard footsteps that stopped the moment he stopped. Was he being followed? Goosebumps crawled up his arms. He continued walking, his heart pounding in his chest. A stone clattered towards his right. He flinched and then took off, running blindly. A hand grabbed his arm and he was spun around.

“Hello Princess,” a deep voice said.

Baekhyun felt his skin crawl at the voice. He yanked himself away and ran.

“Chanyeol! Chanyeol!”

Impact.

Baekhyun’s head met the narrow asphalt road and he felt the dull taste of iron in his mouth. He heard a door slam and a woman screaming at her husband to call the police. He was pinned down to the ground, no matter how hard he struggled.

“Chanyeol!”

A/N - This is literally my first ever attempt at putting up angst. Please comment and subscribe! It would be nice to hear your side and feel free to let me know what you think. Although according to my story history this is my second attempt at Baekyeol that is not true. I had a chaptered Baekyeol fic which I was forced to pull down because of some serious mistakes I put in there. Hopefully I will put it up again.

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Sana_rakshu #1
Chapter 8: Omg that was so good a masterpiece truly.... I was hooked from start to end..... The plot,characters, suspense everything was perfect....very well written great work... Loved it
yiseulbi #2
Chapter 8: To be honest, i thought of chanyeol having a mental disorder did occur me. I still cried though at the end. Nevertheless, this story is really beautiful and well-written. It really amazed me that Baekhyun still wanted to save Chanyeol, one way or another and it kinda broke my heart when Baekhyun killed himself. I enjoyed reading this. Thank you for this amazing story, author!:)
naty_kkaebsong #3
Chapter 8: Chanyeol ㅠㅠ but oh wow this was so perfect! I really wanted to read a psychological story like this and this was just perfect! Everything was really on point and such a well formed story. You did such a good job writing it. And the plot twist was incredible. Honestly, it wouldn't be hard to figure everything out if you didn't wrap up the story so well. There were many hints in the story but then you make it seem like it isn't it. First it was pointed that Yongguk was dead and that Bang was his teacher and later when we found out that Bang was a stalker we could've figured out he died that night. Chanyeol was such a nice guy, so it always surprises me when such a twist happens. And I had some thoughts whether he was the abusive one, but whenever I had that thought I was like no it can't be. Because Baekhyun was feeling so guilty whenever he was with sweet Chanyeol and how he regreted it. But it makes sense how Baekhyun said to both of them that he loved only him. It was basically true. But then again it's the guilt again that got me thinking otherwise. There is one scene that I don't really know how it went tho... when Baekhyun was going out but then Chanyeol and the others came to dinner... when Baekhyun texted him, it should already be to the other Chanyeol since he said he couldn't meet? But the nice Chanyeol was already there so why would he text him? Sometimes I get a little confused with who is who hehe >< What attracts me with this story is especially how neither of them were in their right minds. How Baekhyun still loved Chanyeol after all of that, and how I really liked how he didn't get over his death just like that. I'd be a little disappointed if that were the case. But this was really the perfect ending. That Baekhyun had gone a little crazy too, that he really loved Chanyeol so much. That he couldn't live without him >< Damn, this story is really a whole package. I really enjoyed reading this. The characters were perfect and so on point- I liked even the supporting roles, they were all so good, the whole story just got me so absorbed in it, I just couldn't stop reading.... it's like 3am and I have to het up in like 3 hours bit I just wanted to say how much I loved this! Thank you so much for writing this masterpiece, I am so co ntent with this story. Seriously it's really perfect. I don't even wanna know how many times I've said this already ><
Honestly I didn't think I'd like it this much, but especially with this kind of ending it really suited so well. Thank you again, lots of love ❤❤❤
dazedyeol #4
Chapter 7: I did not expect that ending... This story was amazing and heartbreaking ❤️ ?
callmebabybaekhyun #5
Chapter 7: Scaryyyy...
fergalicious #6
Chapter 7: Oh and sorry is there are some mistakes in my comment, my phone dictionary is in spanish.
fergalicious #7
Chapter 7: O my Goooooddd, ok so since the scene of baek's "diary" I knew that teacher was the stalker cause I think it was Kris who said baek didn't answer unknow numbers, and because of that I thought that maybe the dead man was a boyfriend of baek but then it was said he has been in love with chan almost since the start of college so If he was to kill everyone with feeling for Baekhyun he could just kill chan soooo I got confused. Thennnn baek said he owed his life to that man sooo connecting clues I was like "well maybe the stalker killed the man who him" I SWEAR IT DIDN'T WHEN THROUGHT MY HEAD THAT THE STALKER WAS ALREADY DEAD, the only thing I was like supeeeerrr sure is that the abuser killed the man who him. I still in shook you have nooooo idea of how much I enjoyed this, I was craaaviinng a good fic for so long and also it make me feel embarrassed cause I just started studying psycology, sooo yeah I feel dumb jiji but honestly I think I gonna read more from you.
_modelmaterial_ #8
I really loved this story tho since im at plot twists I didn't expect that ending at ing all man I was shook af
_modelmaterial_ #9
Chapter 8: Why couldn't he get Chanyeol help ? Its not like Chanyeol did anything
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