Drear luhan hyung, 

i would never have ever doubted you. not before. not ever. 
but like i say, that was before. 
we used to be close. we use to laugh and have fun, truly. then you started hanging out with minseok. 
not that i mind. it is always good to make friends. 
 

then you told me you loved him. and it was over. and we didnt even start yet. 
i missed you, i missed us, the old us anyways. 
we still hang out, every now and then, but it is different now. minseok would be with us. and i would leave. 

threes a crowd. 
 
i miss the afternoons we spent after school together. you never have time for me anymore. 
it always minseok this minseok that. 
i dont need you, i dont need you luhan, not anymore than you need me. 
but i missed you. 
i dont say. 
i missed us. 

cant you come back to me? 
but i have to smile and when people ask me about you and ship the two of us together, i have to stay strong and answer with a...

"luhan hyung loves minseok hyung, not me" 

you think im ok.
im not
im broken

breaking apart every single time i say you love minseok
every single time i repeat it. 
i die a little more inside. 
but you will never know

you would never know, nor would you see.
how much i hurt for you. 
for us. for the love we never had.

i still love you.

because we ended right before we began. 
you think i dont hurt. 
i hurts every time i see you hold his hand instead of mine. 
how you lean your head on his shoulders. 

but that was before. 
now i have someone else. someone that heals me
that made me feel complete. 
goodbye hyung.

today marks the end of us. 
of our love story.
the love story that never started. 
it was all just me. 
it always was, and it always will be. 

 
saranghae,  sehun.