DONGHAE POV (continuation~)

-next morning-

I heard my alarm clock. It’s trying to wake me up, because it didn’t know that I’m already wake since an hour ago.

Okay… I’m ready to school. Should I go to Hyukkie’s house?

Or.. I just leave him and meet him only if he wants me to go there.

Suddenly I heard my phone’s sound.

It’s a message… from Hyukkie!

Wait.. why I should be that happy? I’m just his servant.. and I’m not expect to be more than just a servant.

‘ don’t pick me up. ‘ it says.

Okay. He don’t want me to pick him. Why? Because he hates me. Why? Because I make mistake.

And why? Because I didn’t know that I make a mistake!

I have to ask him.. but maybe I’ve to wait for him first to be calm. i’ll ask him slowly…

--Rakooga, Morning.

I walked into my class. Why everyone’s looking at me? I’m not late…

“Hae!” I heard someone called me. It’s Sungmin.

“what happened?” I asked him, because he looks uneasy. “is it true that you and Hyukjae—“

“Minnie ah,” then I heard another sound interrupting Sungmin’s words. What’s with me and Hyukkie?

It’s Leeteuk hyung. “ask him slowly, or he’ll shock with your words.” He told Sungmin like an umma.

“yah, sorry..” Sungmin said, then look at me again.

“what happened seriously??” I asked them. But they just looking at each other then sighed.

“Hae ah, were you mad to Hyukjae?” Teuk hyung asked.

I raised my brows, “huh? I’m not but.. how did you know that?” I asked him.

“your job has changed!” Sungmin then yelled.

Huh? What does he means?

“he means… everyone saw Hyukjae came to school with Siwon this morning.”

Teuk hyung explained Sungmin’s words.

Omo… what the hell…???

“what do you mean by that?? He’s Kibum’s servant, you know.. you’re kidding me.” I chuckled. I felt pain deep inside me, but still try to ignore it.

“no!” they both shouted.

“do you really didn’t know about this..?” Teuk hyung asked. I just shook my head slowly.

That Hyukkie!! What does he want?? He really have to explain me about this.

But suddenly, my phone rang.

Unknown number…

“yoboseyo?”

“yoboseyo.. Donghae hyung?”

Wait.. I think I know this voice..

“Kibum ah?”

“yeah… um..”

“hey, with whom do you went to school today?” I asked when he didn’t say anything. I don’t know why… I feel strange.

“huh? I went to school alone today.” He said, “aaah, I see. You’ve known that, right?” he added.

“know what?”

“um.. Eunhyuk hyung asked me last night to change servant with me.. and when I asked Siwon he said he’s okay.. so that’s why.”

I hold my breath. My heart feels like stopped. “how come he didn’t tell me anything?” I asked. Hold yourself, fishy…

“I don’t know…”

. Why it feels so hurt?

“okay…” I sighed, “that means.. you’re my master now. I’ll picking you up after school….” I said. I can hear my own voice is smaller than before.

Why, me?

“you okay, Hyung? You don’t have to called me master.. really.” Kibum said. Well, he’s really nice.

“um… okay if you not mad,” I said. “should I go there when lunch time?”

“yah, you don’t have to.. but..”

“I’ll help you with anything… please.” I said, and I don’t know why I said ‘please’.. it looks like I really want to go there. I’m started to feel really weird…

“I understand hyung.. just come, heheh” he said, chuckled. Omo.. did he think I like Hyukkie? I’m not!

“yah.. I’m not.. um, never mind. See you later then, Kibum ah.”

“kay hyung, later.”

Then he hung up.

“is that Kibum?? What does he say?” Sungmin asked curiously.

I took a long breath. “I don’t know. Maybe Hyukkie’s really hates me. But.. I don’t really think about that.” I said bitterly. Somehow it doesn’t feels like I was saying honest...

“really? Ah, I’m really sorry.. I’ve to done an assignment first, I promised I’ll back to talk with you later, Hae!” Sungmin said then he leave me and Teuk hyung.

“you lied, don’t you?” suddenly Teuk hyung asked me after Sungmin left us.

I cough. “what do you mean? Lied about what?”

He grinned, “you said you don’t really think about Hyukjae. The fact is, you REALLY think about him.”

I raised my brows, and I feel strange. “i.. that’s not true!” I said.

“I know, that’s true. You can lie to us, but your eyes won’t lie.”

I just keep silent. How can I lied when I either didn’t know what’s the truth?

--

I sat on a chair at Fukuura, waiting for Kibum to out from his class.

There, I saw Hyukkie.

“was it too heavy? Let me bring it for you.” Siwon said, really really softly.

“ah, thank you, Siwon ah. This’s not really heavy. I can bring it by myself, but.. thanks..” Hyukkie said, then handed him his bag.

When he was with Siwon, he never cold like he’s with me…

And what the heck is this feeling? Worst than before. What’s happening to me?

“hyung,” I heard someone.

“oh, Kibum ah, you’re finished?” I said after realizing it’s Kibum who called me.

He nodded. Then looked at where Hyukkie and Siwon stand.

“Eunhyuk hyung!” he called.

Ergh.. why Kibum called him?

Hyukkie seems realize then he turn to our way, and his eyes meet mine.

Omo.. why am I being so strange?

I just look away. I’m not mad, not upset, not angry, but not happy, and.. I’m not jealous. Ugh, I really don’t!

“let’s go there, hyung.” Kibum said, then walk into Hyukkie and Siwon place.

I don’t really like this…

“hey, Eunhyuk hyung,” Kibum greeted Hyukkie.

“yeah..” Hyukkie murmured. Sometimes he looked at me.

“you wanna go home now?” Kibum asked.

“no.. maybe a little bit more. How about..you?”

Then Kibum stared at me, “I don’t know..” but after that, he looked at Siwon.

His eyes shows sadness.

Hey.. why’s that?

I stared at Siwon. Yah, he’s standing really close with Hyukkie. It’s look like...

I was looking at one of Rox’s couple. But….

Aisshh.. like I expected. I’m starting to feel more uneasy with this.

Suddenly, my phone rang. Make 3 of them looked at me.

Ahh, who’s that?

I was really not in mood—Eh...

“…” I answered the call without saying anything.

“Donghae?” thevoice’s called me.

“….” I still keep silent, but listened to it’s voice. I stared at Kibum, Hyukkie and Siwon. They’re confused of why I’m not say anything.

“Lee Donghae!” then the voice shouted.

Okay, I surrendered. “yes,” I answered.

“why you don’t respond to my call?!”

I sighed. “sorry,”

“I’ve more money. Do you like a new car or something?”

I just keep silent again. “hey, Lee Donghae!!” he called me.

“what? You have the money, you decide. Money is not what I really want.”

I just said finally, then hang up.

Right after I hang up, I stare at Hyukkie. He looks so worried and curious of what’s going on. Honestly.. I can’t see his face like that. He’s not worth it to be sad… that expression is hurting me, I don’t know why.

“who is it.. hyung?” Kibum asked.

Ah.. I’m getting confused now.. should I tell him?

That... ugh. I stared at Siwon. he seems understand what I meant.

“he is.. Hae’s father.” Siwon said.

Yeah, my father. The only one in this world that I really hate the most.

He’s one of the reason why mom’s… ah, I don’t want to remember that again.

“what….?” I heard Hyukkie murmured, unbelievingly.

“Hae hyung’s dad?” Kibum, the same like Hyukkie, look at me. Still not sure.

I sighed. “Siwon’s right. Why so amazed?”

“but… it’s your dad, hyung..”

“I know.. so what then if that’s my dad?”

“don’t you like your father?” finally Hyukkie asked.

I smiled. “I just can’t. the end. okay?” I tried to end this conversation. What kind of conversation is this? Talking about my dad.

“wait….. but..” Hyukkie seems the one who really curious now.

“sorry, conversation’s closed.” I said, “Kibum ah, wanna go home now?” then I asked Kibum.

“oh, um… Eunhyuk hyung want to join too?”

“eh.. can i?” Hyukkie then stared at me. Aisshh.. this monkey is so weird. Yesterday he hates me, now he want to come with me. What’s in his mind, really?

Yah, and why I felt this slight happiness? Geez!

“just come, hyung… and. You too.” I heard Kibum said, pointing at Siwon.

Okay.. I can understand it.

Kibum seems to like Siwon.. but maybe.. Siwon didn’t realize it.

Siwon nodded. “let’s go,” he said, then walked closer to Hyukkie.

Ahh, weird feeling came again. I really hate that. Everytime I feel this, I just feel angry to Hyukkie. I don’t know why.

But.. I’m not jealous, just feeling..weird.

...

At least that’s what I thought.

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NO ONE POV

….

“yoboseyo?”

“yoboseyo.. Shindong hyung?”

“yeah..”

“I heard you want to go home, am I right?”

“you’re right.. is there anything happens? Or.. something that I should know?”

“you have to really know maybe..”

“what? About what?”

“your brother, Hyukjae.”

“what’s happening to him? Is he okay?”

“he’s fine but… I just informed you that he had a new relationship.”

“chinja? That’s good, right? Is she pretty?”

“nope. It’s a guy.”

“what??”

“yeah, you hear me. A guy named Lee Donghae.”

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HYUKJAE POV

I looked nowhere.

My mind is at time when I still really happy when Hae’s with me, especially when he smiled at me.

He’s so adorable. He’s so kind.

I love him but he never want to love me even if I ask… I can see it from his face.

I pull out my phone and dial the numbers that already out of my head, and connected to Hae.

“yoboseyo?”

“yoboseyo..”

“Hae.. um.. sorry for yesterday. You still my servant. Okay?” I said. I hope he forgive me.. because I know he’s a person that when he’s happy, he’s keep calm and when he’s mad, he’s calm too..

I’m afraid he already hates me.

“it’s okay.. I can’t hate you.”

“thanks Hae..”

“yeah. Sorry, I’m eating now. Do you want to eat? If you do, just come to my house. Or.. want me to deliver the food to your house?” He asked.

Oh gosh.. he’s just too kind. I can’t hold it. I really love him.

“um.. thanks but.. I’m full already, I already have dinner.” I said.

I just need some time for me to calming myself.. that I can’t have Hae. he won’t love me and maybe if he knows that I love him, he’ll hates me.

Right now, I just have to.. hope and dreaming, maybe?

...

‘I didn’t want to wake up from the short dream I was so happy in

I felt like an idiot as I laughed, it was just a small sigh of rest

I know, I know too well that the bad person is me

But I don’t know, how it is to like

Just love me once

There is not one thing you should forget

For just a moment think about me, just that

It is barely just to that extent

I worry about you, because of your kindheartedness

Likely, can a person be happy?

Even if you don’t need a person like me

I know, I know too well I have many shortcomings

But I don’t know, who I am looking at

Just love me once

There is not one thing you should forget

For a moment give me your time

Just only that

On this winter road, no matter what, I smell your scent

It is full of memories, even now

For just once give me your time

There is not one thing you should forget

For just a moment think of me, Just only that

Its is barely just to that extent’

Super Junior KRY – Just You

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[a/n]: i'm updating so fast *o* i'm getting sick of making Hae in denial... he's really pabo XD

anyway, is the lyrics fit with Hyukkie's mind? i think it's fit~ XD

@mrslee19 : 

you're so fast!!! @o@ thank you very much for liking the update~ i love youuuuuu!! 

now it's Hae who's jealous Xb la la la la