Self-conscious
Wary 
Nervous-
When I'm near you
I am all of above. 
I'm not a fool;
I know it's love. 
You just don't seem to see it. 
How hard I try 
To catch your eye
your attention
And to start a conversation 
with you. 
But it's more difficult
than I thought. 
It's like an unseen force
holding me back 
and at the same time
sending shivers down my spine
making me fearful. 
When I open my mouth
no words come out
my throat will feel dry
like I'm in dire need for water
but I know that's not the case.
I want to do something-
smile
wave
anything to make you notice me. 
But even smiling,
I can't do it. 
I get frozen
frozen in time. 
Afraid that my smile
would be horrid looking.
I watch
your graceful movements
that remind me of butterflies.
Delicate and fragile.
Beautiful. 
Your messy hair
your smile that lights up 
even a room full of angry people.
Beautiful.
I'd like you to know
the fierce love 
blooming in my heart
my love that is true.
But what would you do
when I tell you
would you freak out
and ignore
hate
me?
What would you do?
But that's not the problem. 
Brave enough to tell you or not
I can't seem to move my lips
whenever I'm near you.
I'm paralyzed. 
I don't know what to do. 
I love you, 
I say in my mind. 
I will say it in my mind
until I can finally
utter it to you.