Violet

“Violet?” Kai picks up on the first ring. I smile when I hear his voice, it’s so soothing and gentle. But that doesn’t mean I didn’t notice the anxiety in his voice, he’s anxious, that I can tell because he is breathing heavily after he pronounce my name.

“Baby.” My voice hoarse. I don’t know why I call him that I guess it just happen when someone is so dear to you, all I want to do is to show him I feel affectionate towards him. I can sense his grin on the other line now and I let out a relief sigh.

“Oh Violet, I’m so sorry, so so so sorry-” he begins.

“Kai, stop it.” I tell him, my voice is still hoarsing. Damn it.

“But you were so mad at me.” He tells me. In my mind I can already imagine he’s pouting to himself.

“That, is because you were behaving so weird. I feel like I’ve been rejected.” I tell him honestly. Because that’s how I honestly feel.

“I didn’t mean for you to feel that way. That wasn’t my intention!” He starts to whine now. It’s not hard to make Kai says his sorry, but it’s definitely hard for him to accept if he’s been mistakenly understood. Kai don’t like it when people justify his action. Like how I mistakenly justified his action of breaching into my privacy when he talked to my mom. I realize that by now. I heave a sigh and I roll my eyes.

“Alright fine, I got it, you’re not used to have people touching you like that. Fine.” I give in because honestly, there’s no point in arguing with Kai. I hear him breath out.

“Alright then, so…….." There's a long pause, I'm sure he's contemplating whether to really just drop the topic or to continue asking forgiveness for it. "..what were you doing?” He asks me, clearly running out of ideas on what to talk about. I scoff immediately and I make sure he hear it.

“What do you think? It’s 3 in the morning, of course I was sleeping.” I tell him annoyingly.

“Oh. Sorry for waking you up then.” He says shortly. A tone of disappointment is obviously there.

“There’s so many things you’re sorry about eh?” I .

“Yeahhhh, I’m sorry, I’m not the best boyfriend you can have but-”

“Oh no stop right there, I was kidding, oh my God. Kai, loosen up a bit, what happen to the mischivious naughty Kai? You’re perfect, the best thing I’ve ever had, okay?” I tell him and immediately blush when I realize how cheesy I sound. God, I’ve spent too much time with Kai now I started to sound like him. Damn it. I hear him giggle on the other side and I immediately facepalm myself.

“Well, probably because I’m the only boyfriend you ever had.” He teases me now and I smile, now, I have my Kai back.

I snort at his comment and make a quick reply. “You’re not the only boyfriend I’ve ever had.” I protest in a high pitch voice. True, I used to date Min Hyuk in middle school. Took me some time to get over the fact that he cheated on me. In fact, he has become a hard limit topic amongst me, Kim and Amy. But things change, feelings fade. The more I spend time with Kai, the more I realize I have nothing against Min Hyuk anymore. I didn’t get heartache when I think about him anymore.

“You had a boyfriend before me?” Kai asks in a slightly raised voice. He’s in shock, man.

“Why do you sound so surprised? Of course I had a boyfriend before you.” I say.

“How many?” He asks immediately.

“One.” I answer and I hear him breathes out.

“What’s his name? Does he go to our school? How old is he? Damn, how did you even met this guy?” He asks endlessly. I chuckle at his reaction. Seriously, why did he think I’ve never had a boyfriend.

“Not answering that, it’s all in the past. Now, I’m not sure if you can remember all of your ex girlfriends’ name.” I say.

“What is that supposed to mean?” He asks back.

“Oh c’mon, Kai. I’m not totally oblivious about your reputation.” I answer, he snorts at me.

“What reputation are you talking about, baby?” he asks me now. Hah, the baby’s here, I’m sure he’ll ask me to drop this topic after this.

“No, seriously, just asnwer me this one time. How many ex-girlfriends?” I ask him, I’m curious about this actually. He keep quiet for a moment which I’m guessing he’s thinking.

“Honestly, I’ve lost count.” He says and I gasps. What the hell? Lost count? That many? And he didn’t even keep tract?

“Baby, it was all just a fling. Nothing serious. I’ve never been in a serious relationship.” He coax me when he realize my reaction to his ‘I’ve lost count’ answer.

“Is this a serious relationship to you, Kai? What we have now?” I blurt out that question. He stays in silence for a few second, and then he breath out. I didnt mean to sound doubtful, but I guess I just couldnt help but to ask this. It's no secret that Kai dates a lot, heck, he is known for it. So I guess it's rational that I feel like that.

“Violet,” he starts with my name. Holy , he sounds so serious now. “I told you how I feel about you. And yes, I am damn serious about this relationship now. I’m sorry about my past, there’s nothing I can do to change it, but you’re all I have now, and I’m planning on making it right. It hurts me that you doubt me.” He says and I find my brows cease at this. I didn’t mean to doubt him, I know how he feels about me, h