Last January

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"I realized that the person who made me happily smile more than anyone else in the world can’t be you anymore"

"Happy birthday to you"

Everyone was singing happily.

Kyungsoo was standing there.

Capture it.

Remember it.

This moment.

Before it gone.

"Blow the candles"

He nodded.

Faked a smile.

And blow it until the last candle has been extinguished.

"Make a wish"

As he closed his eyes

He whispered

"I wish I was dead"

Everyone clapped.

Not knowing what just he wished.


Do Kyungsoo (January 12,1993)

"Will you promise me that you will remember that I exist and stand so close to you right now?"

Kim Jongin (January 14, 1994)

"Hyung I'm sorry but we can't be like this. Not anymore. Not when everything has changed. We can't go back like we used to be"

Author's note:

Please before you read the whole story and subscribe to it, I will tell you a secret. This story won't have a happy ending.


It won't because in real life there's no such thing happy ending. Life is cruel. No matter how much its tear you apart. No matter how much you beg. It won't change a thing. Life is life and you have nothing to control it.

So i want you to consider it before you click and subscribe. This is your choice. Will you stay with me no matter how bad the story will end? Will you keep reading it even though this story will have no hope? Will you stand feeling so hopeless after reading? Will you forgive me if I tear you apart? Will you forget me after this story end?Or will remember that I exist and you have read my story? Please consider that and last but not least, Will you give me a chance?




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#1 Last January (Kaisoo) COMPLETED

#2 Goodbye June  (Baekyeol) ON-GOING

#3 Back to September (Taoris) COMING SOON

#4 Remember December (Hunhan) COMING SOON



January 16 2014-Poster by Peperokissu (click here)

April 27 2014-Poster by Jungyeols (click here)

April 16 2014-Trailer by s3xyangel (click here)

April 25 2014-Kaisoo Fanmade video by me (click here)

April 27 2014-Poster by me (click here)

April 27 2014-Quote by me (click here)

April 26 2014-Fanart by soodyo (click here)

February 15 2014-Background by yawmpitschiaa (click here)

Aoril 28 2014-Trailer by nicorobin (click here)




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0 points #1
Chapter 13: Well... angst , at this confusing vulnerable time of my life , that is what I'm reading nowdays and it was one the smartest angst I've ever read. ...
And God your 'author's note' seriously, really, amazingly, ridiculously ,totally Creeped Me Out , I felt. ...... . . connected !?!?
BTS_Rania_ARMY 27 streak #2
It's been years already but thinking about this book makes my heart ash and my eyes teary . It broke my heart and yet it's my favorite ever .
Romanbookdragon #3
Chapter 13: this is beautiful .... im crying but the ending is so beautiful.. i love it
Romanbookdragon #4
Chapter 11: yes
Romanbookdragon #5
Chapter 9: forgotten
Romanbookdragon #6
Chapter 8: i dont know but i will proceed
Romanbookdragon #7
Chapter 7: hi yes my comments arent about suicide, that phase has passed and im still.. well and living haha but ... thanks alot
Romanbookdragon #8
Chapter 6: i feel like im also in between ... i cant guess for the remaining three
Romanbookdragon #9
Chapter 5: i was surprised to not see the author's note in the last chp but nvm
Romanbookdragon #10
Chapter 3: its wierd but i accept the fact that i can understand all the feelings you are trying to imply, idk maybe cause ive felt them too at some point in my life