Last January

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"I realized that the person who made me happily smile more than anyone else in the world can’t be you anymore"

"Happy birthday to you"

Everyone was singing happily.

Kyungsoo was standing there.

Capture it.

Remember it.

This moment.

Before it gone.

"Blow the candles"

He nodded.

Faked a smile.

And blow it until the last candle has been extinguished.

"Make a wish"

As he closed his eyes

He whispered

"I wish I was dead"

Everyone clapped.

Not knowing what just he wished.


Do Kyungsoo (January 12,1993)

"Will you promise me that you will remember that I exist and stand so close to you right now?"

Kim Jongin (January 14, 1994)

"Hyung I'm sorry but we can't be like this. Not anymore. Not when everything has changed. We can't go back like we used to be"

Author's note:

Please before you read the whole story and subscribe to it, I will tell you a secret. This story won't have a happy ending.


It won't because in real life there's no such thing happy ending. Life is cruel. No matter how much its tear you apart. No matter how much you beg. It won't change a thing. Life is life and you have nothing to control it.

So i want you to consider it before you click and subscribe. This is your choice. Will you stay with me no matter how bad the story will end? Will you keep reading it even though this story will have no hope? Will you stand feeling so hopeless after reading? Will you forgive me if I tear you apart? Will you forget me after this story end?Or will remember that I exist and you have read my story? Please consider that and last but not least, Will you give me a chance?




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#1 Last January (Kaisoo) COMPLETED

#2 Goodbye June  (Baekyeol) ON-GOING

#3 Back to September (Taoris) COMING SOON

#4 Remember December (Hunhan) COMING SOON



January 16 2014-Poster by Peperokissu (click here)

April 27 2014-Poster by Jungyeols (click here)

April 16 2014-Trailer by s3xyangel (click here)

April 25 2014-Kaisoo Fanmade video by me (click here)

April 27 2014-Poster by me (click here)

April 27 2014-Quote by me (click here)

April 26 2014-Fanart by soodyo (click here)

February 15 2014-Background by yawmpitschiaa (click here)

Aoril 28 2014-Trailer by nicorobin (click here)




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Chapter 9: To be forgotten by someone who loved you and to forgot someone you love is the most scariest thing for me.

I love my mom, very much, till this day. When she passed away something inside me died with her. I'm scared, cause as the time goes by as a grew older i slowly forgot a little detail about her. I'm scared. her voice, her laugh, her warmth, her stare are alredy a blur in my memory. I just have her photographs, not a video of her.
nanayeolxx #2
Chapter 13: this story is so beautiful. and the notes u left for every chapters gave me smth to realised
jolenedeer #3
Chapter 6: What has this got to do with us wth
chanlily2109 #4
Chapter 13: Why you said that :(
sehunsright #5
Chapter 1: :(
kais00f0rlife #6
Chapter 7: I'm reading this again and crying. The first time I read this was last year and back then I was different. Now I'm suicidal. I have need help hispitilized twice and I tried killing myself 5 times. Overdosed. I was so close to death. Honestly I'm so glad I surivived but right now is one of those moments I wanna die again. I hate my life and I don't see a future for myself. There's nothing for me In this world. I'm better off dead. Wether kyungsoo death was suicide or an accident I get him.
Jasmine_Jesal #7
Chapter 13: Wow...I loved your story...this is one of the most beautiful stories ever....thank u so so much for writing this..
I love the story, author-nim. You did great..
Anthurium #9