Colours

I watched you from afar. The way you cringed your eyes when you laugh, those creases adorning your forehead and that sparkling white teeth, I never thought that a person could change someone so drastically. You have no idea how much colour you painted into my life.

Black

When I was seven, a boy my age came to me and asked, “Can you share your toys?” I did not really take note of his name. I was a stingy person. I hated sharing. I shoved that kid away. I knew he attempted to make friends with me but I refused simply because being alone was so much better. At least I did not need to give my toys away.

Black

When I was 16, I was a calculative guy. My ex-girlfriend did not do anything for my birthday. On the same night, I texted her, listing down every little detail on what I did to her and what she had done to me. Obviously I did so much for her. I wondered why she couldn’t do the same. The next day, she asked for a break up. I knew that was coming, anyway.

Grey

When I was 19, I was a trainee and was put in Team A. It was chaotic. A new guy came into our group. His name was Mino; Song Minho. A year older than me but to be quite honest, I could not look at him as a person older than me. His character was quite different. An exact opposite of me and I wondered, how am I going to deal with him all my life?

Brown

Fifth day being the last member of Team A. Mino took my hand, pulled me and made me join Seunghoon playing around with other rappers in Team B. Not a single person in the building dared to force me in these childish games and act immaturely. I stared deeply into his eyes, a warning he should take note of. No one said no to me. He pulled me closer and neared his lips to my ear, whispering to me with a voice that had rang a few times before registering what he had said.

 “Life needs a little tint of colours. You’ll be fine. Trust me.”

 I did not protest afterwards.

Yellow

Sixth weeks of being a member of Team A, I slapped Mino’s arm and laughed hysterically. The way he danced along to the music that was blasted inside my room, it tickled me. His smile was so radiant; a smile that I was getting used to, something that I would look forward to everyday. He sat beside me and asked, “Taehyunnie, can you lend me your jacket?” I wasn’t used to it. I said no to him and that was the first time I saw him with his head held low.

“Hyung, maybe, just this once.”

Mino’s smile was so wide, I could not suppress my grin either.

Orange

The day we finally won. My head was a mess. The tear could not stop flowing, the confetti was a disturbance, and the MC was speaking something I did not want to hear. It was all blurry until my gaze landed on him. He was there standing alone, crying like a child. Remembering that he had went through so much before becoming part of this family, I walked towards him and without a second thought, and I pulled him into an embrace. It was so tight I could hardly breathe. Then he whispered once again.

“Thank you, Taehyunnie.”

Red

The first episode of WINNERTV aired; I could not express my anger. I wanted to suppress it down but failed so many times. Mino asked me what happened, but I ignored him. Leaving him clueless, I made him think for so long yet my heart was unsettled.  I tried reasoning out my heart but I was not calm. I was raging inside. It took me long enough to realize what was I feeling. Mino came to me and demanded an answer, at least an explanation to why I acted that way.

“I think… I’m jealous of Jinwoo hyung.”

Well, it’s like a best friend, but more. It’s the one person in the world that knows you better than anyone else. It’s someone who makes you a better person. Actually, they don’t make you a better person. You do that yourself because they inspire you. A soul mate is someone who you carry with you forever. It’s the only person who knew you and accepted you and believed in you before anyone else did or when no one else would. And no matter what happens, you’ll always love that person. Nothing can ever change that.

Dawson Creek