The room when silent and I can only hear my own self sobbing with my both hands covering my face. He keeps throwing his tantrums and was shouting at me. I felt so vulnerable at that very moment. I wanted him to hug me, keep me warm to protect me just like always but he was just so tense over my mistake.

“Why!! Tell me! Why didn’t you tell me?!!”. He was banging his fist on the table and shouting at the top of his lung.

 This was my very first time seeing him that way, he was suppose to be gentle, funny and joyful man. It was my entire fault. If only I tell him the truth in the first place things would not be like this or I should have not accepted his confessions 1 year ago.

“What am I to you? How could you do this to me?” he came towards me, kneels down in front of me and held my shoulder.

“Jagi, look at me...”

“Oppa~~ I’m sorry! I didn’t mean to keep this from you but I don’t want to be a burden especially to you..” I took his both hands and ask for forgiveness and I am still unable to look up at him.

“You think I would let you go just like that if I knew what you have been through? Is that what you have been thinking all these while? Jagi~~ look at me, you think I am that heartless?” his voice had calm down and as I look at him there were a glint of tears in his eyes.

He sat next to me and hugs me tight, I still kept on crying as I am still unable to control over all this emotion.

“I.. Oppa.. mian~~.. I am just afraid that if I tell you... you won’t love me the same anymore~~..”

“Pabo~~ hush now~~ “ He hug me tighter.

“Oppa~~”

“Shhh~~ I won’t leave.. I promised! I will stay beside you always!... and Jagi...” He took a deep breath, kiss me gently on my forehead and then he said “I love you~~~”