~JaeJoong~

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I watched everything in slowmotion. I saw Selina trying to understand, to inhale oxygen and just trying to stay calm. But it was impossible for her. I could tell

The tears was absolutely no doubt and I saw her shaking. I knew this is cruel against her since it's her wedding day but this was my last day and if I had told her earlier, she would have probably trying to talk me out of it..

I was trying to read her face, her facial expression and just trying to figure out what she was thinking. But it was pretty obvious that she was hurt..

I closed my eyes

"Please say something Selina.." I whispered like I was in pain

The afterparty inside was so loud that the people was probably not noticing that we were out here

"WHY ! WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

She started to hit my chest with her fists folded while crying

I let her hit me.. as I was closing my eyes and then I opened them and looked up at the dark night sky. I was trying to blink away my tears

"WHY JAEJOONG!!"

I felt her almost falling down and I grabbed her right before she was collapsing and she leaned against my chest

I sighed

"I'm so sorry"

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~JaeJoong's flashback~

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As I was falling, it did feel cold.. I was waiting until I would hit the hard ground, feeling all my bones break into pieces.. But I was at least at ease. My friends would still be alive and Yunho would finally understand. Selina would be happy..

How long have I been falling now? It felt like years

Suddenly I landed but it didn't hurt
I immediately flew up and looked around to see myself .. somewhere.. White

How is this possible? I couldn't have possibly landed on a cloud in heaven yet right? What about my broken bones and such?

I stood up and looked around

It was bright.. And light.. If this is not heaven.. where am I? Cause it can't be snow..

I looked down on my body and I was whole. One piece. Nothing was aching and nothing was broken. Odd.. This is really Odd...

"JaeJoong?"

A soft, singing beautiful voice spoke to me and it immediately captured my attention. I looked around but all I could see was white. White stuff. White.. just plain white
I'm not on a mental hospital right?

"JaeJoong?"

Shall I answer?

"JaeJoong.. You've done something.. very... brave.. and very.. courageously .." The voice spoke

No doubt that it was a female. But there wasn't a person. Instead the voice was just speaking.. It suddenly clicked inside my head

"DOn't tell me you're 'Faith'?" I said

"Yes I am"

I instantly started to run. I didn't want to talk to that.. person, air.. whatever she is.. Cause she had destroyed our lives..

"You can't run JaeJoong"

Like I haven't noticed. It was plain white everywhere and it felt like, when I was running I wasn't getting anywhere. It felt like I was standing on the same spot

"What do you want?" I said angrily

"I want to ask you why you did it" Faith said

"Did what?" I hissed

"saved Yunho"

I started to soften up as I fell down flat on my and sighed. Isn't that obvious? He's my friend..

"I'm sure it's because of Selina isn't it?" The voice spoke

"What exactly do you want?" I asked

"I'm asking you questions.. Trying to understand your thoughts and your heart"

I quieten

"You don't need to understand.. anything" I whispered

"I've been watching you and you've done a lot of things for her.."

"Can we change the subject?" I hissed

"No"

I sighed

"Look if I'm dead.. just send me somewhere else cause you're getting on my nerves" I said

"What are you going to do now JaeJoong?"

"Mwoh?"

"Now when you've saved both Selina and Yunho.. They're gonna.. live happy.. but what are you going to do?"

I quieten. I hadn't thought about that. Just.. get back to my normal life.. what else? look at them from afar.. and see her happy.. and him happy.. and..

"You know yourself that you can't continue to stay by their side now.."

"I can.. Who said I couldn't?"

Suddenly a small puddle of water was formed right in front of my eyes and I saw myself. I saw myself.. looking at Selina from a distance.. and Yunho..

I widened in shock as I saw the years kept passing..

I would get married but I wouldn't be happy.. and I also saw that I was always longing for her..
Even though I would get married and have my own kids I would still love her..

THat's too cruel to my future wife..

I stood up and kicked, splashed and did everything in order to make the puddle disappear

"What is your point?"

"Since Yunho didn't.. manage to figure it out... he should've died but you.. saved him.. and here you are.."

I didn't say anything

"You can't return to earth.."

"I know.." I whispered

"Therefore.. I've decided to make you into an angel.."

"An what?"

"An Angel" The voice said

"Why?"

"Cause.. I'm sure.. that now.. when you can't be by her side.. and your friends.. you would want to watch over them.. right?"

"Right..."

"Therefore.. Being an Guardian Angel.. and help people who has gone through the same thing that.. Selina has.. I'm sure it will fit you"

"So.. there's no options.. I can't go back?" I whispered

"You can.. if you want.."

"But?"

"Is that fair to your future family?"

I didn't answer

"Please choose.."

I started to think about.. It wouldn't be that fair to my future family.. and I knew that I was able to control my feelings in front of Selina and hid them from the others before but it's different now cause she knew what I was feeling..

I shook my head

Just thinking about it was making me crazy. I can't return.. I don't want to.. I don't..

"I'll.. become an angel"

"So you've decided?"

"But only one condition"

"Tell me"

"I want to.. go back and at least.. be there until the wedding's over and visit them once in a year"

Faith didn't answer

"I'm sure that's not too much to ask for .. Isn't this the first time someone ever has sacrificed their lives for another person who's met you?"

"True"

"That would make me into your best Anegl" I said sarcastic

Faith laughed

"deal.."

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~End of Flashback. Back to Selina and JaeJoong~

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I'm sure that I hadn't picked the wrong decision. I'd rather.. watch over her and her family.. My friends and family instead of getting married and .. cause pain to my future family..

"I will come back Selina.." I whispered

"How? You're going to die Jae!!" She sobbed

"I will become an angel to watch over you" I whispered

It was almost too painful.. to even speak and tell her. I wanted to be by her side but I knew that .. it was Yunho's place and not mine..

"You will.. whhha..t?" She stuttered

I looked at the clock. I had 10 minutes left

I knew I wouldn't regret this decision.. At least.. if I was able to protect her.. I knew that I would be able to save her.. and the others from danger

"I love you Selina.. Don't you ever forget that.."

"Jae.."

"I love you and I want you to be happy.. And I can't be happy here.. I know that it's an awful and painful thing to say but.. I can't stand seeing you with Yunho anymore.. it hurts too much.."

Selina didn't say anything

I leaned forward and kissed her forehead

"I've already said goodbye to the others.."

She shook her head and suddenly she pulled me into a hug, clinging onto me
Now I couldn't help but to shed tears as well
I put my arms around her and hugged her tightly

"I love you"

I heard the clock ringing since it was Midnight and then i saw the light

"I love you Selina.. Don't forget"

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~Selina~

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His voice echoed and suddenly I fell forwards as I opened my eyes and looked around.. He wasn't there anymore..

His voice were still echoing and I could still hear his voice

I started to cry even more and it was hard to stop. I didn't care if i was destroying the make-up. He's gone.. and he wasn't coming back

Suddenly I felt a pair of arms wrap around me and I instantly knew that it was Yunho

"Uljima~~" He whispered

I started to calm down when he was speaking to me.. It was relieving and I couldn't help but look at him

"It was his choice.." He whispered

I took a deep breath. I understand.. And he knew the consequences of his decision. And I couldn't be angry with him.. and yell at him cause it's wrong. He wanted to leave.. and I knew that if he would've stayed here.. he would probably.. become even more hurt..

I took another deep breath as Yunho were comforting me

about 20 minutes later I was finally calm and I had gathered my senses.. and I understood JaeJoong's decision..

"Go back inside.. I'll be back in a minute. I'll just change dress and fic my make-up" I said

"You're sure?"

I nodded

He kissed me and was slowly walking back. I nodded and assured him that I was okay
When yunho had left I took another deep breath. At least I understood and he would probably be happy up there..

I looked up

"Be happy JaeJoong"

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~2 years later~

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"Yoona.. SLowly.. do as Omma does!" I chuckled as I was trying to teach her to walk..

It was hard though. The beach was really soft and the sand was making it hard but Yoona seemed so determined about walking..

I held her close to me as I saw Junsu and Yunho taking care of the BBQ grill and Yoochun and Changmin unpacking the stuff

2 years had already passed and I was still happily married and we had our 1 year old Daughter.
I grabbed her and carried her as I kissed my daughter softly on her cheek. I spun around to see Yunho wave at me and my sweet daughter waved happily back making all the guys laugh

I looked at the guys.. It didn't seem to be complete .. without JaeJoong.. and to be honest, it hasn't been a day when I didn't think about him.. but it was ok though.. cause.. it was his decision. Yunho wasn't jealous cause he knew that my heart belongs to him.. and he was supporting me to the fullest.. But of course.. sometimes he did doubt.. and was a bit anxious..

I didn't love JaeJoong in that way.. He was more like.. a close friend of mine..

Yoona suddenly kissed my cheek and I looked at her

"Omma is not sad sweetie" I mumbled and kissed her cheek

"Well she shouldn't"

I froze. I became paralyzed as I heard the voice. A voice that I would recognize wherever and whenever. I spun around and saw JaeJoong smiling at me behind a tree

I stared at him and he soon walked out and came closer

"She's beautiful.. just like her mother"

I was still in daze.

"How did you.."

He smiled

"I'm an angel. I'm able to do anything.. Duh" He laughed

"I can't..be.. you.. how.. you" I stuttered

"You're doing good I see.." He smiled

"You.. seem.. to be happy.." I whispered

He smiled

"Be happy Selina.. I'm watching over you.." He said

"You're leaving?!" I asked

"I have work to do.."

JaeJoong leaned forward and kissed Yoona's forehead and I could tell she loved it

He laughed

"But you can't leave.. I haven't been able to speak to you" I protested

He smiled

"I'm here.. whenever you feel like talking.. Just talk.. I will be listening.. I'm still your friend and friends are suppose to be there whenever others need someone right?"

"A crying shoulder to lean on?" I asked

He smiled and nodded. Suddenly he looked up at the sky and sighed

"Gotta go.."

"JaeJoong wait.."

He stopped and looked at me

"I've been always wanting to tell you this.. but.."

He smiled

"What?"

"I love you too.. but not in the way you want me too"

He smiled

"It's ok.. receiving your love is precious to me. Whatever it is I will accept it.."

"I'm sorry .." I whispered

He smiled

"Don't be.. I'm happy Selina"

"You are?"

He nodded

"I've never been happier.. " He smiled

"You're not lying are you?" I asked a bit suspicious

He started to laugh

"I'm not lying. I'll make sure you'll meet her someday"

"Does that mean you'll come back?" I asked

He nodded

"Take care.."

"Selina!!!"

I spun around and saw Yunho running over

"What's wrong?" I asked

"I called you..like a hundred times but you didn't answer.. I thought something happened

Suddenly Yoona started to cry and I looked at her. Yunho as well

"What's wrong with her?" He asked worriedly

I started to comfort our baby as I smiled at him

"JAeJoong was here"

"Huh?"

"He came.. and told me he was happy" I said

Yunho looked at me for a very long time

"really?"

I nodded

"Wow.. this world is really wicked"

"He's watching us" I smiled

Yunho leaned forward and kissed me softly.

"JAEJOONG!!!!!! YOU COULD'VE AT LEAST SAID HI!!" yunho shouted at the top of his lungs

I started to laugh and Yunho burst out into laughter as well

I looked at Yunho as he smiled at me

"I love you" He whispered and planted a kiss on my forehead

"I love you too" I said and leaned onto his chest

Yoona clapped her hands and clapped Yunho

"You too sweetie!" Yunho laughed

I started to laugh as well

We went back to eat the food that the guys had finished and after the food, the guys were playing cards and Yoona fell asleep. They told us to take a walk on the beach and they said that we needed some time for ourselves

The sun were setting but still, the weather's was really hot and I couldn't help but enjoy the beautiful scenery and the warmth.

"It's beautiful isn't it?"

I nodded

"It's really beautiful" I whispered

Yunho put an arm around me as I walked closer to him

We soon stopped under a tree, on a small hill that was showing the silent water and the sun setting at the horizon.

"can I ask you something?" Yunho asked

"Sure.." I said

He looked at me seriously

"Sometimes I can't help but wonder.. why you didn't choose JaeJoong instead of me.."

He quieten

I caressed his cheek softly as I looked at him

"I love JaeJoong.. but not in that way that you think I am. JaeJoong knows it too.. He's my 'Soulfriend' if I can put it.. in that way. Yunho.. my heart belongs to you.. and will do that for eternity.. Not even the word eternity is enough" I whispered

He didn't answer and I smiled

"I love you. If I could get the chance to remarry you, in the next lifetime, and all the lifetimes after that, I would do it. I love you.. you seriously don't understand how big my love for you is.." I whispered

Yunho leaned forward and kissed me on my forehead

"I'm not doubting , or feeling.. awkward about our love. I believe you.. Selina.. it's just .. that I can't help but wonder"

I smiled

"I love you... Yunho.. And those words are so strong.. I wish there was another word, stronger than that.. " I whispered

He smiled

"Selina.. I've never regretted anything.. and.. marrying you.. to know that we'll always be together.. I can't ask for more.. When you.. saved me.. decided to save me.. I promised myself.."

"Promised what?" I asked

"To always be.. right next to you.."

I didn't answer

"I made a promise when I married you.. and that promise.. I will hold onto it for the rest of our lives, lifetimes.. and all the stuff that comes after that"

I started to laugh as the tears streamed down

"Selina.. I will always be right next to you.. until the day.. you tell me.. to go"

I shook my head

"That will never happen"

He smiled and leaned forward to kiss me
I responded the kiss when I suddenly burst out into laughter

"What is it?" He asked

"You know that you're forgetting a few people" I laughed

"Who?" He asked

"Our daughter.. Yoona?" I asked

He started to laugh

"Right.. I mean... I will always stay by your AND Yoonas side"

I laughed harder

Suddenly Yunho looked suspicious at me

"Wait.. you said.. A 'Few' people?" He asked

I smiled and looked down on my stomach

His eyes widened and suddenly he started to scream and he grabbed me, started to swing around as both of us laughed..