~Selina~

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I was standing in front of the mirror, in the room. Waiting for a signal or my bridesmaids to come and tell me that it's almost starting..

1 month had passed already and as soon as Yunho and I was discharged, it was celebrated with a big party. Then, The guys and I celebrated ourselves, talking about everything. Even though it was hard to talk about it, it did feel good to get out all the emotions, memories, the feelings.. Practically everything..

And never .. did I imagine that .. Yunho that night would propose to me. He had taken me out and we had went to the rooftop. I think we did spend around 2 hours up there..

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~Flashback~

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As Yunho took me to the rooftop, I started to feel butterflies flying around in my stomach as always, whenever I was with Yunho. I looked at his profile, just amazingly beautiful with fair skin, handsome smile and a perfect marked face.

When we finally reached the rooftop, he took me out and took me over to the bench. We sat down as he wrapped us around in a blanket and suddenly I could hear music

"What is this?" I asked

He smiled

"Just a date.. between us two.."

We looked up at the stars

"It's really beautiful tonight" I whispered

"Not really" He mumbled

"Not beautiful? The stars are all dazzling and.. just.. beautiful. How can it not be beautiful?" I laughed

he shrugged as he pulled me closer to him

"I already have my beautiful, dazzling star right next to me" He smiled and kissed me

I couldn't help but blush.

"Stand up"

"Me?" I asked

He nodded

I did as I was told

"Look that way" He pointed

I turned to the direction his finger and looked at the empty spot

"I don't see anything" I said

He laughed and suddenly I heard him snap his fingers and a range of light and I read the sentence

"Would you marry me?" I whispered

I was so shocked and paralyzed. I spun around slowly to see him already on his knees waiting for me as he was holding the small box in his hand. THe shining ring was really the evidence. He was proposing

I stared at him with tears in my eyes

"Selina Park.. Would you marry me?"

I was trying to remember how to breathe. How to breathe in and out while trying to gather the sense of mine. This is not happening right?

"Please answer.. you're making me nervous here" He laughed

I walked over to him and bended down to kiss him

"Does that mean a yes?" He asked happily

I wasn't able to talk to I just stretched out my arm and waited for him to put the ring on my finger

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~End of Flashback. Back to Selina~

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So the preparations had started immediately. Yunho graduated after he was released from the hospital. HE had been studying hard and graduated with good grades. As for Changmin, he just kept studying and because of my books about Supernatural stuff, he started to read more and even watch movies

As for Junsu, he was just relaxing. Taking his singing lessons and he had been offered to sing in various places for the next coming months. Yoochun on the other hand, was composing, sleeping and back to composing. Well that's not a big deal since he was majoring in music composition.

As for JaeJoong...

I sighed as I looked at my reflection. I walked over to the white beautiful couch and closed my eyes as I started to think about him

He hadn't done anything. He dropped out of school and started to spend time at home. He said that he didn't want to attend school anymore..

And for some reason, he went back home to his family and came only once in awhile to visit us..
I had been thinking about that a lot and it didn't feel so good anymore..
I didn't like having him at a distance when we used to be so close but also, I think it was his way , trying to get over me and I shouldn't be so mean and not consider his feelings by seeing him but I knew that I needed him in my life..

But the wedding plans and preparations had gone smoothly with the help of Yunho's mom and sister and with my mom. They had set up everything and my sister sometimes helped and sometimes not.

I was pretty picky with everything but now.. the day was finally here.. and I couldn't help but smile.

This half year has really been a dramatic, frustrated, serious but also wonderful and loving period.

I had gotten to know yunho more, seen sides I've never seen and the same goes with the others..
I looked at myself again , studying the shape of the dress, my face and make-up

My hair was long and curly, princess-way with really light and sweet make up. The dross was strapless, decorated in pearls and glitter. This was actually the dress that Yunho had picked out when we went to a wedding store for fun.. and he wanted me to wear this. I loved the dress

*Knock Knock

"Come in" I said still looking at the reflection

"Don't worry.. You're really beautiful"

I spun around and saw JaeJoong smiling at me

I started to blush but the color soon changed into it's normal and I smiled at him

"You don't look so bad yourself" I smiled

He shrugged

"Well.. A best man has to be good looking.. so I'm doing this for Yunho.. I prefer Jeans" He chuckled

I laughed too

"I know. You love wearing jeans.. even lousy pants.. " I rolled my eyes

He walked over to me as he fixed my hair a bit

"Are you nervous?"

I closed my eyes and tried to breathe slowly. He suddenly put his hand were my heart was beating for it's life

He let out a laugh

"stupid question"

"Can you tell?" I laughed

"Well.. I'm glad I'm the first guy to see you.. Lucky me" He said proudly

I smiled

"I'm glad to see the best man then" I said

He nodded

"Of course.. You should"

I hit him lightly on his arm as he fired off his sweet smile

"You're really beautiful"

The atmosphere changed when he said that with a deep and soft voice. I felt the chills down my spine as I was trying to control my breathing.

"Thanks.." I breathed

"After the ceremony.. at the afterparty.. you have to save a dance for me"

I nodded

"You know I will"

"good luck"

He leaned forward and planted a kiss on my forehead and walked out . I was once again lonely while hearing the beats of my heart and the clock ticking..

"Honey.. it's time"

I smiled at dad and nodded

I walked out and put my arms in his as he smiled

"You're really beautiful"

"Thanks dad"

The guys were already lined up and my sister and my cousins were standing there, looking radiant beautiful and smiling happily

I heard the music play and the bestman's with the bridesmaids walked in first and when it was my time to make my entrance, I was telling myself to not fall while walking up to Yunho

But that thought soon disappeared when I saw Yunho standing there, right next to the priest, smiling beautifully and happily at me

I was at the verge of crying and the ceremony haven't even started yet..

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"I do" I said with tears in my eyes

"I do" Yunho whispered

"I now pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride"

I was shaking, shaking of happiness and shaking of tears. yunho winked at me and leaned forward as he kissed me softly

I heard applause and soon I heard people whistle and throw petals at us as we were walking down. I felt good having my arm linked with Yunho's.

I knew this is my fate and this is where I belong..

Could I ask for more ?

The after party soon started and I think Yunho and I , along with our bridesmaids and bestman's greeted all the guests that attended the after party. It took us 1,5 h before it was done and we walked into the big assembly hall that was now decorated with petals, white, purple and blue flowers. The music sweetly playing as the waiters were running around serving the guests. The big table right in front of the scene , was ours. I sat down with Yunho and the dinner was served as the music played softly

I looked around and I couldn't help but feel the happiness and love overwhelm me. This is MY wedding.. and I was now married

I looked to the side as Yunho was laughing to some kind of joke JaeJoong just said

He's my husband..

"Why are you looking at me?" He asked

I smiled at him

"Is it wrong of me, as your wife to look at my beautiful and handsome husband?"

Yunho laughed embarrassed

"I think I should say that"

Yunho leaned forward and planted a kiss softly on my cheek

After the food I was just sitting and talking with Yunho and some of the bridesmaids.

"And now ladies and gentlemen.."

Both YUnho and I looked at the stage to see Junsu, JaeJoong, Changmin and Yoochun smiling at us while Yoochun were talking

"We have prepared a very special performance to our beloved friends"

I stared at them and Yunho looked suspicious at them

"You see.. We've known Yunho for awhile" JaeJoong started

"And.. we just have to tell you.. Your brain aren't working at times" Junsu smiled

Everyone started to laugh

"Anyways, being a Hyung must be tiring but it's good right? You take care of us so I don't see any bad points in it" Changmin smiled

"Except for the money" JaeJoong laughed

The guests joined and started to applause. Yunho covered himself in embarrassment

"Anyway, Selina is a really good girl. If you don't take care of her, I'll make sure you'll end up in prison or something" Yoochun joked

Everyone laughed again

"So the first song we would like to sing is "May I love you?" JaeJoong said

"And we would like to have the couple to open the first dance" Junsu smiled

Yunho looked at me as I blushed

He took my hand and took me to the dancefloor as the music started, bubbles were falling and the music sweetly playing to the voices of the guys

I leaned onto Yunho's chest as we were dancing and I knew that no one could be happier than me at the moment. Yunho kissed my hair

"I love you" He whispered

I looked up as he was looking at me. His eyes were deep, and I was drowning in his eyes. You could really see the sincere and the passion . He did regret for not making things easier for me when I was Yuki but I was just happy that both of us were alive

I soon felt people joining the dancing and the music quieten and Junsu started off with a new song as Yoochun were playing

"Can I borrow her for a few minutes?"

I looked up and JaeJoong was smiling widely

Yunho took a deep breath and smiled. For some reason, it felt a bit awkward cause they were looking at each other for a long time when Yunho nodded

I saw JaeJoong throwing a glance at the clock and it immediately hit me that.. something wasn't right

"Take care of her and bring her back to me safely" Yunho whispered

JaeJoong gave Yunho a hug and I started to feel suspicious as the heart started to beat faster. Something is not right

JaeJoong started to dance with me, swaying both of us to the music. I didn't know if I should start ask him, if I should ask him what was wrong..

"Can we talk outside for a bit?" He whispered after we had been dancing to 2 songs that were sung by Changmin, Yoochun and Junsu

I nodded

My arm was linked with JaeJoong as we walked out on the beautiful, decorated terrace. The silence was really.. frustrating. I had a feeling that Yunho knew something I didn't..

The doors soon closed and we couldn't hear much from the part except from Junsu's amazing voice while he was singing. JaeJoong looked at the sky and soon he turned to me

"I'm sure you're wondering what I'm going to say.."

I nodded

"And you're not far away from tears.."

I sighed

"It's tearing me apart Jae. Please.. tell me.."

"I guess you've noticed that I haven't been around so much.."

I nodded

"Mianhe~~"

I looked up

"What is this all about Jae? Why.. are you acting so strange towards me? Why are you.. why did you.. move.. and why.. did you.." I could hardly say the words cause it kept getting harder and harder

I was finally letting out all kinds of feelings, the doubts and the sadness and the emptiness he left. It felt like it wasn't the same for us anymore

He smiled at me

"I'm sorry .. I never meant to hurt you" He whispered

I looked at him as I was fighting against the tears

"Tell me.. what is going on? I noticed the glance you and Yunho exchanged earlier and believe me.. I'm not stupid. You two are hiding something from me.."

He sighed

"I really don't know how to put it into words"

"Well you have to cause I don't understand" I said

He caressed my cheek softly

"I'm leaving"

I wish I was deaf. I wish I wasn't able to hear anything

I looked up slowly as I looked into his eyes. he was telling the truth

"Leaving? Where? Why?" I stuttered

"I had.. a deal with 'Fatih'. I'm leaving.. and my time is almost up"

I looked at the clock to see it was 11:19

"What do you mean by..leaving?" I stuttered

"I'm leaving this place.. I'm going to disappear"

Disappear?

My heart stopped as my eyes widened in shock

He looked at me and nodded slowly

"Yes Selina.. Disappear.. as in.. I will die"