~JaeJoong~

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I was speechless. Totally speechless as well as astonished, shocked, stressed, frustrated and angry

"WHY DIDN'T WE FIGURE OUT THAT EARLIER?!?!?!?" Changmin shouted angrily and stood up

"WE'RE SO FREAKING STUPID! DUMB!!!" Yoochun shouted angrily

"calm down guys!!" Matthew said and tried to calm us down

"Gwenchana?"

JoonAh's voice called me back to reality as she was looking at me. Well everyone was. I don't know if I'm ok. am I? No

"You have to tell us more specific so that we won't get the wrong information and idea" I said calmly, trying to control my happiness that we've finally found out the prefect solution and also, I was shocked and angry. Why didn't I pay attention to the words she said before?!

Selina said that she wasn't aloud to tell. She told us that we couldn't tell cause she thought if we did tell Yunho she would probably get another heartattack, or maybe die cause this was her last chance

"Ask me anything" JoonAh said

"Tell us from the very beginning. Everything, From the start to the the very end" Changmin said

"you have to ask me questions. It's easier for me to tell you then" She said

"So the mission is 100 days ?" Changmin asked

"Yes, and she cannot have more than 100 days" JoonAh answered

"And when does.. the time.. the limit.. you know.." Yoochun couldn't finish the sentence since he wasn't able to let out the words of die.. and Selina disappearing, leaving us again

"At midnight at the day of 100" JoonAh answered

"But how come you know all of this when you managed to save him?" Yoochun asked

"Easy. As we were brought back to the night of the day when I was died, we first made a stop where we..kind of.. talked to 'Faith'. I couldn't really ask them all the questions and such but I did get a few answers . And believe me, they are really strict about these stuff. About talking about them to others" JoonAh said

"But how come you can.." I started but she cut me off

"One of the rules are, I couldn't tell anyone what I had been through when I still didn't have completed the mission. But when I had accomplished it, they told me to be careful. Cause the experience, everything that I've been through might give me a hard time to live here on earth. Cause the humans aren't always that considerate and .. kind" She said

"And?" Changmin asked

"But there are a few people who believes in me. Although no one knows if it's true or not and 'Faith' knows that.." JoonAh said

"And.. what happens if she doesn't make it on time?" Changmin asked

Matthew sighed heavily as I saw him taking a hard grip around JoonAh's hand

"Well.. You wouldn't have met me .. right?"

"And not me either" JoonAh said

All of us quieten as the only thing I could hear was everyone breathing, trying to come up with more questions just in case we might needed it

I looked to the side and suddenly I saw Junsu, sitting with folded arms, staring blankly ahead of him, deeply lost in his own thoughts

"Junsu?" I asked

He didn't answer

"Junsu?"

He kind of woke up and looked at me and then at everyone else

"Why are you.. so quiet?" I asked

Junsu took a deep breath

"Can I ask you something?" Junsu asked and looked at JoonAh

"Nae~~"

"What... happens to us.. if she fails.. if she.. can't.. make it?" Junsu asked

JoonAh looked at us seriously. It felt like something horrible. As if the things that she was going to say were going to hurt us. .

"Please tell us" Changmin said

"Well.. uh.. Your memories will be erased"

"WHAT?!" All of us chorused

"Erased?!" Changmin gasped

JoonAh nodded

"Since you guys knows, it's all because you figured it out. Although if she doesn't manage to accomplish it, you will be brought back to the time when the caraccident took place. You will once again go through the pain and see your friend suffer. Although this time, during those 100 days, you won't go through the same thing that You've been through right now. In that way, your memory has been erased and your friend will die .. anyhow.."

"So we will forget Selina completely?" Junsu stuttered

JoonAh nodded

"You will forget that she came back to earth in order to save your friend. And you will also forget that she ever talked to you. So basically, the last thing you will see from her is the time when you're at her funeral or .. whatever happened before that" JoonAh said

For 5 minutes, no one said anything. Thinking it all through and was trying to take everything in that we've just heard. Everything that has been told.. This was .. so.. complicated.. and just to hear all this information was.. astonishing, shockingly surprising and.. just painful..

I don't mean that all the information is worthless but it's just that.. it.. has so much meaning.. and so much is on stake..

I suddenly thought of something as my eyes landed on the bracelet on my wrist . The bracelet that Selina had given me..

"JaeJoong~~ssi.. Can I talk to you for a minute? Alone?" JoonAh suddenly said

I looked up and I guess the other guys were surprised as I was. But they didn't protest. They just went outside to the balcony as Matthew closed the door behind them and came back to the couch as JoonAh were waiting

"I can see that there's something.. that you're not able to talk about when your friends are here.."

I nodded

"There is something.. I need to know.." I sobbed while crying

JoonAh nodded

I put my hands together and the grip was harder than I thought, I was so tense that I would probably be able to break anything right now

"Ask me JaeJoong~~~ssi" JoonAh said

I closed my eyes as I rested my head in my hands

"You mean.. that you.. would go instead.. ? So that she can be here on earth?" She asked

I nodded

JoonAh sighed. I saw her blink away a tear

"Wae?" JoonAh asked

I sighed. I didn't know.. if I could say this, especially in front of the other members but did I have a choice? I'd rather switch place with her.. instead .. of letting her leave this place.. cause she were happy with Yunho..

"Because.. she's happier here.. with him.. "

Matthew tapped me on my shoulder, like we've been friends for a very long time. Like .. two close friends just met again..

"You're very brave.. But are you sure that you would actually.. give up your life here.. and miss everything here on earth in order to make her happy?" Matthew asked

I nodded without even doubting, having second thoughts. I'd die in her place..

"You .. ll l ove.. her" JoonAh stammered

I looked at her as she was looking at me, deeply as if she was searching for another clues, hints or anything to make her understand me better

"You love her.. Don't you?" She asked me again

I nodded

I stood up and looked at the members outside on the balcony. I saw all of them, shedding tears while having a group hug. I guess they were relieved that they've finally found the precious information that we've been searching for so long

"Would you.. leave your friends.. in order.. to save her?" JoonAh asked

I spun around as I was crying and looked at her

"I'd do the same for them. For the guys out there. I'd do the same for Yunho. I'd do the same for the girl I love. I'd give all of them my eyes if they were going to be blind. I were going to give them my lungs if they needed them to breathe. I would give them my shoulders if they needed a shoulder to lean on. I'd give them my arms if they need an helping hand.."

JoonAh and Matthew didn't say anything

"I would also.. give them.. my heart.. if they needed it. I would never doubt .. not a chance in a million years that I would doubt. If I can.. save them, I'd do anything in my power.. to save them"

JoonAh walked towards me and tapped me on my shoulder

"My intention says.. that she doesn't know.."

"Doesn't know what?" I asked

"That.. you love her"

Matthew finished her sentence as he looked at me. I looked at both of them. It's true. She didn't know.. cause she thought I loved her just like a friend.. but really.. I would never do anything to .. destroy the friendship between me and Yunho and also, I'd never.. take away the things that made her happy. One of those stuff was Yunho

"You're right.. She doesn't" I said and looked away

"Why didn't you tell her?" JoonAh asked

"Simple.. Because I don't want to destroy the friendship.. between me and my best friend. I don't want to take away the happiness that she gets from being with him.."

"So.. you're putting yourself through such pain.. just so that she can be happy?" JoonAh asked sadly

I looked at her

"Yes"

"Jaejoong~~ssi.. I think you've missed something" JoonAh said

I froze as I looked at her

"What do you mean?"

"You've missed something" JoonAh said

She spun around and faced her boyfriend and she didn't have to say anything cause it seems like Matthew understood anyway

He then looked up

"You were given a second as well" Matthew breathed as he realized what JoonAh meant

I looked at them

"What do you mean?" I asked

JoonAh faced me again

"She was given a second chance to be with her soulmate. To save him from committing suicide. You were the one that kind of figured it out first right?" JoonAh asked

I nodded

"That's it!! You have to tell her your true feelings!" JoonAh said

"WhaT?! I can't do that!!" I protested

"You have to!! Cause you see, there's also a purpose for going back. She had a mission but if she's able to hit 2 flies just by smashing one, there's a big possibility that she will be able to stay even though she doesn't make it!" JoonAh said

"BUT YOU SAID THE RULE WAS ONLY 100 DAYS!" I gasped

"I know!! But can't you see the connection?!!??! I'm pretty sure that I went through the same thing.. Since I was reborn into a new body, I helped the guy that figured out that I was JoonAh in the first place to reach his dream, becoming a magician. So I when I was brought back, along with Matthew to 'Faith' they said something about 'Every Mission has a purpose and a meaning, The Dream-Circle'. But I never understood the meaning and the purpose!" JoonAh exclaimed

"Okay.. Now I'm not in it at all" I said

Matthew looked at me

"The mission for her was to save him, so that I wouldn't die. The purpose was DREAM! My dream was to get married to JoonAh. The mission's meaning was to help somebody realize the other person's dream as well. What is Selina's dream?!" Matthew asked

"To marry Yunho. To have a family.. with him" I said confused

"What's his dream?" JoonAh asked

"To.. propose to her.. At a ski resort, on the top while it's Sunrise" I said

"What's your dream?" JoonAh asked

My eyes widened in shock as I stared at them

"To at least let her know my true feelings" I mumbled

"Exactly. Do you understand? There's a band between the three of you. All of your dreams can ONLY be fulfilled if one of you starts it. Selina came back, she started it. She can ONLY fulfill Yunho's dream if You go back and tell her your true feelings, and also the information that I've given you. And if he believes her, he will be able to propose to her. She will have her dream fulfilled if she marry Yunho. You see? It's going round like a circle. All you need to do right now is to go back to Korea, tell her your feelings and tell her the information" JoonAh said

"But .. that doesn't have anything to do with the mission!" I protested

"But 'Faith' is unpredictable. You have to understand that 'Faith' is very mysterious and there are ALWAYS lying something more beneath their words. She was sent back to save his life. But the things that keeps the human motivated and to go forward is the person's goals and dreams. . Do you understand?"

"It's all so confusing!" i said

Matthew shook his head

"IT ISN'T! LISTEN! All of your dreams, Yours, Yunho's and Selina's can only be fulfilled if one of your starts it. Yo can fulfill Selina's dream by telling her your dream and also the information you just got. Or else you might be devastated and heartbroken, following the same footsteps that Yunho and I went through. And Selina's dream can be fulfilled once you've told her your dream and your information that you got from us. Yunho's dream can be fulfilled if Selina tells him. Yunho can be able to fulfill your dream" Matthew said

"My dream?"

"Well.. You want to see her happy don't you?" JoonAh asked

"You want to confess, but you want her to happy. Right?" Matthew said

I nodded slowly

"DO YOU SEE THE CONNECTION?!?!?!" Matthew said and shook my whole body

I started to feel that all of the puzzles were falling down on their right places.

My dream : I want to confess but I don't want her to take it to the heart, I want to be her best friend forever and I want her to be happy

Selina's Dream : Was to Settle down with Yunho

Yunho's Dream: Was to propose to her at the ski Resort during the sunrise

So let me get this straight:

1.I could confess and then tell her the information that Junsu, Changmin, Yoochun and I could tell Yunho that She's Selina cause 'Faith' Never forbid US to tell him anything about it

2. If it doesn't work and he doesn't believe it, there still might be a slight chance that she might even be able to survive if I could make this, 'Circle Dream' Work

3. If we couldn't do any of those stuff, then I would be prepared to die in her place

I stared at them

"One more question" I said

"WHy didn't 'Faith' to tell her about this Circle Dream from the very beginning?" I said a angrily

JoonAh sighed

"I'll just say what they told me" JoonAh said

I waited

"Some things needs to be realized through the Human's blind eyes"

I looked at her and then at the guys. They were watching me, eagerly waiting. I nodded at them and they instantly opened the door

"Thank you JoonAh and Matthew" I bowed

All of them thanked Matthew and JoonAh sincerely and we then rushed out of the house

Time's running out on us. I had 3 options to choose right now. The trip was worth it all..

Circle Dream..

Human's Blind eyes

I shook my head angrily as I ran down to the car. We were going back to the hotel to pack our bags and take the first flight back to Korea

Faith doesn't help anyone. Just making it more difficult for everyone. For me.. For Selina and For Yunho. If I had never met JoonAh and Matthew, I would never get such precious information

Faith only revealed all these stuff afterwards. What does Faith think about us?! That we're SUPERHUMANS?!

Stupid selfish Faith.

You're just giving everyone rough time and a painful period.

I started to get angrier as I thought about it. The mission that was Selina was given was Simple, but it had actually more meaning behind it.

Maybe.. she was just stressed and just wanted to get back to earth in order to save Yunho. In a way I had to blame Selina as well for not asking Faith about everything..

But I guess in a way, Faith was kind of striving to band us even more closely to each other, to help us to grow as people.. Maybe they were right

I guess the words that Faith told JoonAh was right

Some things needs to be realized through the Human's blind eyes

I suddenly realized what they meant..

The Human's Love.. The Human's heart

When you're in love, you're blinded...