~Selina~

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I could hear the music still playing but the arms around me, the comfort, the love, the warmth.. the friendship..

They were right here with me now.. They've realized.. They knew

I couldn't stop crying and so did the guys. The hugged me tightly like a group hug and all of us sobbed.. cried our hearts out..

I think.. about 30 minutes later, we settled down as I went to the kitchen and made some tea and got some fruits and I went back to the livingroom.. and.. there they was.. watching me carefully..

I guess they had a lot on their minds..and they really.. were thinking .. about all kinds of things..

The silence.. said a lot..

They wanted to ask.. how, when, why.. but no words came out..

I sighed and broke the silence and I saw them looking at me

"Talk to me.. It's me.." I mumbled

"I can't.. believe this.." Changmin stuttered

"Me.. neither.. this.. is.. insane" JaeJoong whispered

I wiped away the tear that was falling and smiled

"Miracles.. can happen right?" I whispered

"I can't believe this... How.." JaeJoong stuttered

I shook my head

"I .. can't tell.."

"Mwoh?"

I sighed

"I can't tell you.. It's.. one of the rules.."

"But.. why didn't... you tell us .. in the first place.. that you were.. you?" Changmin asked

I smiled

"I couldn't.. I wasn't aloud to.. You had to figure it out by yourself" I said

"But.. how. . I mean.. you.. GOSH!!" Changmin burst out

I laughed

"Mianhe¨~~"

"Can you tell us.. something? Anything?" Jaejoong asked

I sighed

"I need.. to know.. how you found out first.." I said and looked at them

"Yunho found one of your favourite books in his room.. and I decided to read it.. since you..recommended it so many times but I refuse to ... read it.. and as I was reading.. I started to realize.. stuff.. and it all just connected.." Changmin said

I smiled and then turned to JaeJoong

"Wooli.."

I laughed

"Chincha?"

He nodded happily as he drank some tea

"And of course.. Ahjussi.. I can't believe he saw it.. and I didn't!" JaeJoong groaned

"Well.. Ahjussi.. are really a special person" I smiled

"Wait.. Can I ask you two something?" Changmin interrupted

Both of us turned to him as he looked at us

"Who's Wooli?"

JaeJoong and I started to laugh as Changmin were stubbornly waiting for an answer

"It's a puppy.. We went to a store.. and well that puppy.. The owner decided to let us give it a name since it liked us a lot.. and it's kind of a secret.." I said

"Well it's not a secret anymore" JaeJoong rolled his eyes

Changmin smiled widely

"It must have been hard on you.. huh?"

I reacted to Jaejoong's words as both of them were looking at me, watching and waiting for an reaction

"It's.. ok.. I mean.. What could I expect from you.. You were hurt.." I said

"But.. I was so cold towards you in the beginning.." JaeJoong said

I shook my head

"It's alright.. You're with me now right?" I asked

They nodded

"I can't believe it's you.. It's actually .. you" Changmin said again

I chuckled

"Do you want proof and stuff as well?" I asked

They looked at me

"Well, Jae.. You're really clumsy.. You remember when we were suppose to play with Wooli and you didn't see the tree when you were running?"

JaeJoong glared at me as Changmin and I laughed

"Omo~~ Sounds like Hyung"

"And Changmin.. Don't you dare.. you pig.. I knew that it was you who was going behind my back and grabbed a piece from my apple pie.. I saw you" I said and looked at Changmin

Changmin quieten as Jaejoong started to laugh

"IT's her.. " Both of them chorused

I smiled

"But.. How is this .. possible? I mean.. you're.." Changmin said

I sighed

"I can't tell you.. Not yet"

"Wae?" Both of them asked

"It's.. the rules.."

"What rules?" JAejoong asked

"I'm sorry.. Please.. Don't ask me questions.. that I cannot.. answer.. IT's so hard already.."

Both of them quieten as I was looking at my hands

"You see.. It was just.. a miracle.. that I had the chance to even transfer to another body.. To even come back to this place.. It's.. still.. a miracle to me.. and I still.. can't believe it" I said and looked at them

"It's been hard.. but I don't regret anything of it. I was just.. happy to be around you again" I smiled as a tear fell

The guys didn't say much

"I was so happy.. to see you but yet.. sad.. and hurt.. cause I knew that you were mourning.. you were grieving.. and hurting because of me.. I've seen what I've left behind.. and I've seen.. the damage I caused.."

"YOU HAVEN'T CAUSED ANYTHING!" Changmin protested

"How can you even say that?!" Jaejoong said

I shook my head

"Then tell.. me.. Why Yunho became like this" I whispered

Both of them quieten, not being able to answer

"You cannot.. stand there, and lie straight to my face that it's not my fault.. that Yunho's like this.." I said

"But.. It'll be better!! All we have to do is to tell him.." Changmin started

"And Yoochun and Junsu .. Everything will be ok again!!" JaeJoong said

"NO!!"

"WHAT?!" Both of them chorused

I shook my head

"You can't.."

"What do you mean by we can't?" JaeJoong asked

"We can't.. We can't.. They have to figure it out.. by themselves.."

"But.. that.. it's.." Changmin started but JaeJoong cut him off

"Impossible"

I sighed

I looked at the clock and then back to the calendar

"They have to.. Especially Yunho"

"Why..?" JAeJoong asked

I looked up

"I have a mission to do. I have to accomplish it. You're not aloud to tell anyone.. They have to find out by themselves" I said

"But.. We."

"No! Listen!! You have to.. You remember that time when i came over to your place.. and fainted.. Heart attack and ended up on the hospital?"

They nodded slowly

"That is what going to happen if you're going to tell them"

"WHAT?!" Changmin gasped

"So you were going to tell us that time?" JaeJoong asked

I nodded

"But .. 'THey' were faster.. This is my last chance guys.. I can't throw it away.. 2 lives are on stake and I can't.. fail this. I can't throw this chance away.. This is my 2nd and last chance" I said

"So.. we can't tell.. anyone? Not Yunho.. not Yoochun.. or Junsu?" Changmin asked

I nodded

"exactly"

"Do you understand what you're doing? WE COULD CHANGE YUNHO'S LIFE!!" JaeJoong said angrily

"BUT I'M NOT THE ONE WHO'S SETTING UP THE RULES JAE! DON'T YOU THINK I'VE CONSIDERED IT THOUSANDS OF TIMES?!"

Both of them started to shed tears quietly as I sobbed..

"It's been so hard to be around you.. Always watching myself so that I wouldn't say too much.. and not.. expose myself.. It took so much work.. but in the end, you guys realized it.. We have to make the rest realize too..."

"I'm so sorry.." JaeJoong mumbled

"Me too.." Changmin sobbed

I shook my head

"This is what I have to face.. if I want to see you guys again.. I can't do anything about it except.. wait for you.. wait for your hearts"

"Why are you talking like..time..are.." Changmin started

I looked up and nodded

"I don't have many days left.. I have 100 days to complete this.. and so far, only 2 of you have realized"

"How.. many days.. are left?" JaeJoong asked

I sighed

I looked down on my finger, and saw the ring with the initial 'Y' as the jewel appeared again, showing the days that were left

"24"

"BUT THAT..!!!" Changmin said

"Oh my god.." JaeJoong said

I nodded sadly

"My time is running out.."

"How can we help you?" They asked

I sighed heavily

"That's the thing.. You can't"

"What do you mean by can't?" JaeJoong said

"This is my mission.. if I fail.. I'll fail.."

"But.. What's your mission?" Changmin asked

I chuckled

"You don't know?"

They shook their heads as I smiled

"To make Yunho realize it's me.."

"What if he doesn't?"

A tear fell as I was looking at the beautiful faces of the beautiful brothers.. friends.. of mine

"I'll disappear again.. and this time.. I won't come back"