~Changmin~

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Trying to calm Yunho down was so hard. He was fighting against me all along and I even started to sweat out of exhaustion

Why did it have to happen? Hadn't all of us been through enough?!

What was happening to our lives?!

Selina's death destroyed Yunho's.. messing up all our lives and now.. when we had to witness the same scene with Yuki.. Even my heard cried this time.. but I can't even imagine the pain that Yunho was going through right now..

He was on the floor, as I was locking his arms, preventing him from to hurt himself..

I soon heard the front door open and soon the steps of Yoochun and Junsu came

"How is he?!" Junsu breathed

I shook my head

"We have to do something Hyung.." I sobbed as I looked at Yunho

He was wide awake.. his eyes wide open. He didn't look at us.. nor did he close his eyes.. he was more like.. dead.. like.. eyes wide open but his soul was dead..

Yoochun bended down

"Yunho.."

He didn't answer

"yunho.." Yoochun called out again

Yunho didn't react on our words

All of us put him on the his bed and he just lied there.. Lifeless.. All three of us watched him.. patiently waiting for something to happen but nothing did

he didn't say anything, he didn't move.. He didn't ask about Yuki.. he just lied there.. lifeless.. and just.. filled with.. hurt..

He was crying though..

I soon saw him.. closing his eyes..

"Did he fall asleep?" Junsu whispered after 5 minutes

"I think so.." I whispered back

He was breathing slowly as and inhaling deep breaths.. so I guess he's asleep

All of us walked outside and I sat down on the couch as I looked at them

"Where's JaeJoong hyung?" I asked

"Hospital.."

"What?" I asked

"He's at the hospital, checking Yuki" Junsu shrugged

"But I thought..." I started but Yoochun shrugged

"We did too.. but seems like... we.. were wrong.." Yoochun said

"So he actually cares about the girl?" I asked

"Probably.. he's just.. having a hard time showing it.. You know how he is.. Whenever a girl approaches, it's hard for him at first. Selina's the only girl that has ever succeeded in trying to talk and getting closer to him"

I sighed

"I'll go to the hospital" I mumbled

"Now? What about?" Junsu quieten

"I need to check up on her Hyung" I said

"Wae?.. Why is she so important to you?" Yoochun asked

I stopped and spun around and looked at them, trying to come up with an answer but it was impossible

"It's.. my heart speaking.. and my mind.. Something's.. I don't know.. I can't explain it.."

"Are you in love with her?" Yoochun asked

I shook my head

"No definitely not.. Hyung.. I feel some kind of connection to her.."

"Connection?" Junsu asked

I nodded

"I can't explain it.. but.. I don't know... All I know right now is that I have to go... to the hospital.."

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~JaeJoong~

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I was waiting in the waiting room, to get an answer from the doctors. The emergency light was still on where Yuki was..

The mixed feelings that I was feeling couldn't really be described in words.. and all those times that I had been harsh on her.. Regret started to fill me up as I tried to not cry

I had to stay strong..

I just wish I hadn't been like that to her.. I just wish I hadn't..

I stood up and walked towards a wall where I punched

I punched because I was an idiot.. for being cold and for being harsh.. But can you really.. judge me because of that? Everyday I struggled with trying to become a nice guy, to let girl's approach me without facing them with my coldness.. but it was different with Selina

She changed me.. but now when she's not here.. I don't feel the devotion to even look at a girl.. Yuki interfering our lives was surely at the wrong time..

But right now.. I don't know.. All i knew that I wanted her to wake up.. so that I could apologize..

"Mr JaeJoong?"

I spun around and saw a female doctor looking at me

"Y.. yye ss?" I stuttered

She smiled

"Friend of Yuki if I'm not wrong?"

I nodded

"How is she? Is she alright?" I asked

The doctor closed her portfolio and looked at me

"She's fine. She had a heartattack but are now resting and she's fine. She might need to stay at the hospital for observation but other than that, she will be back on her legs soon enough.. You may visit her if you want"

The doctor showed me to her room and it was completely silent except the monitor that was showing her heartbeats

"Just press the button if you need me"

I was left alone with yuki in the room and I took the chair and sat down as I looked at her

She looked awfully white, pale and tiny. Helpless in fact..

I didn't know why but for some reason I started to cry. I didn't know why i was even crying and I couldn't really.. control my feelings ..

I looked at Yuki as she was breathing through the oxygen mask ..

I looked at her hands.. Soon I felt myself grabbing them and holding them, tightly.. like I was holding onto dear life..

It felt like.. having a Deja Vu.. as if.. it was Selina's hand I was holding..

The more I looked at her, the more I thought about Selina.. The more.. Yuki started to resemble her in so many ways..

The heartattack.. the scenery.. Yunho..

It was scary..

"Yuki.. Mianhe~~" I whispered

Soon I nurse entered and checked Yuki and she even removed the oxygen mask

"Why are you removing it?" I stuttered

The nurse smiled kindly

"The doctor told me to... She will be in here in a minute"

I nodded

I kept looking at Yuki as she was closing her eyes..

"Mianhe~~" I whispered

I soon felt Yuki's hand.. grabbing my own hand.. in a way and I looked at it surprised and then at her

She didn't open her eyes but she was moving.. her fingers was..

"yuki?" I whispered

No answer

Her fingers moved again

"Yuki?" I whispered

"W. .. oo .. li.."

My heart stopped and my eyes widened in shock as I heard that word

"yuki?" I whispered again

Another stammer was heard

"W.. o . oo ..li"

I kept staring at her and soon the doctor entered. A nurse was right behind her and soon another nurse grabbed me by my arm

The monitor stopped it's sound, as if Yuki's heart had stopped. The nurse and the doctor were right next to her

My eyes were still in shock as the word kept repeating itself inside my head

"Wooli.." I whispered

"We're loosing her!" The doctor said

The nurse took me outside the room and I saw 2 more nurses run into Yuki's room

My eyes were still in shock as I kept staring at the door

"No way.." I whispered