~Selina~

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During the whole game, I was excited, playing and fighting for our lives. Just like the characters in the game, I was fighting for the life that I wanted to live more than myself.

Even though I was concentrated, and seemed to act like 'Yuki'
my mind kept slipping back to the real person. The real me..

When I heard.. what Yunho said about the second.. chance.. I was so overwhelmed, touched.. and.. heartbroken.

Overwhelmed, excited.. and happy cause he wanted to marry me..

TOuched because of his words.. I knew that whenever I asked him why he fell in love with me, he would shyly turn away. He wasn't good at expressing his feelings but he surely did show them in a way..

I guess I did gain a lot with being another girl but it was hard just to act all the time when all I wanted to do was to hug him, tell him that it was me and and I was just in a different body

I had to pretend to laugh, to smile and just to be 'Yuki' so that he wouldn't get suspicious about me being Selina. He had to figure it out in the meantime..

He told me that he .. loved me.. that he wanted to marry me.. It gave me new hope and strength to fight for his life. I'd save him at any costs and I wouldn't let him die..

Being able to be his 'friend' was another story and it did feel a bit creepy. I could ask him stuff without him knowing it was me and I felt like I started to get closer to him , getting to know him in a different aspect..

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~Yunho~

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For a moment I thought Yuki forgot that I was there since it felt like she was on a different planet. I did throw a few glances at her when she didn't notice and sometimes, she would just stare at the screen, kept playing though but her mind was somewhere else..

But then she kind of woke up and started to shout excitedly and just kept cheering for us. I couldn't help but laugh all the time and it just kept getting better since we managed to come very far

"BREAK!" She shouted

"Wae?!" I asked

"I need to drink something.. my throat" She coughed

I gasped

"I had totally forgot that you were still sick! Mianhe~~!" i chuckled

She was about to go to the kitchen but I stopped her and ran to the kitchen first

"YAH!!" She shouted

I grabbed a glass while laughing and poured some water and gave it to her as we met each other in the livingroom

"Omo~~ Who cleaned this place?" She asked

"I did" I smiled proudly

"Wae? You didn't have to"

"You're sick.. I didn't know what to do.. so i just.. did. I hope.. it's ok with you?" I said slowly

She nodded

*Ring Ring

"My phone!" I shouted

She laughed and sat down on the couch as I headed to the kitchen to grab the phone

"Yoboseyo?"

"Oh.. Yunho"

"Oh.. JaeJoong~~ah"

"Odeya?"

"I'm at..Y.."

I instantly remembered what Changmin said. I couldn't expose us

"You're?"

"I'm outside"

"Outside?"

"Nae~~!" i said a bit nervous

"Where outside?"

"I'm just.. wandering around"

"oh.. When are you coming home?"

"Uhm.. later.."

"Oh.. is Changmin there?"

"Oh he's.. uh.. buying. . candy"

"Oh.. Why didn't you come home last night? Do you know how worried I was?" He asked

"Mianhe~~.. I forgot.. "

"Where did you go?"

"I stayed up all night.. I was .."

"DOn't tell me you were at the cemetery?"

"Aniya.. I went home.."

"You went home?"

"Nae~~"

"IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT?!"

"Yes"

"MI CHUH SSO?!?!?" JaeJoong shouted

"Look.. let's talk when I get home ok?"

"We better do"

I hung up and took a deep breath. JaeJoong could surely cross the line when he was protective.

I walked back into the livingroom and on the couch, Yuki was sitting and holding onto the teddybear that I had taken from Selina's place

I gasped, loudly enough for her to hear

She instantly looked up

"Where.. did you.. get this?" She asked

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~JaeJoong~

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It was already getting late and still no sign of Changmin and Yunho

"Gosh.. where are they?" I mumbled

Yunho didn't come home for the entire night, Changmin found him but they're out somewhere and now, i can't reach any of them.

"Hyung.. they'll be here.. don't worry" Yoochun said

I rolled my eyes

"I'll go out for a walk.. I can't stay inside" I mumbled as I grabbed my coat

I put on my shoes and went outside in the cold night
I was walking slowly on the small pavement, with the lights on, hearing the cars that was driving from afar, as well as a few students outside drinking and having fun

I sighed heavily as I passed them.

For 20 minutes I wandered around with no destination and my mind completely at loss. As I was walking I suddenly saw a couple passing by..

They were laughing, talking and they surely looked beautiful. I stopped at the sideline and my gaze kept looking at them . ..

As I started to walk again my mind was spinning around and shortly, I started to run. Run as if.. I was loosing something..
Run for my life

A few minutes later, I fell down on my knees in front of Selina's stone and was crying silently.. Over and over I read the sentences, that showed me how long she was alive, her birthday that I remembered..

I sighed heavily..

I was looking at the stone, the person.. that taught me the meaning of love.. of friendship..

You're probably wondering what I'm talking about..

Selina Park... Sol Mi Park..

Was my First Love