If I had

Right Next To You

If I had

~Yunho~

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After I was done with my chicken soup, I went back to Yuki's room for the 1000th time to see if she was awake but she was still in the same position and still silent

Quietly, I tiptoed my way over to her bed and put my hand on her forehead. Still smokin' hot

I went to the bathroom and filled a bowl with water and a small towel that I found in the locker and went back to her side. I put the wet towel on her forehead. But like I've always been, a clumsy one, she woke up and she faced me

"Hi there.." She said with a hoarse voice

"Hey.." I mumbled

"Where's... Changmin?"

"You just woke up and the first thing you ask for is Changmin?" I chuckled

She smiled palely

"Well.. it's.. not.. nice of me to leave you all by yourself.." She mumbled tiredly

I rolled my eyes

"You're sick and still you're worrying about me. Gosh.. think of yourself will you?" I said

She closed her eyes and took a deep breath

"Changmin went to his parents house. He'll be back in 3 hours" I said

"Mianhe~~"

"For.. what?" I asked confused

"For leaving you alone. I'm suppose to accompany you when you're here. Not lying here and sleeping.." She said

I laughed

"Pabo, go back to sleep. You're sick.."

"Gomawo~~"

She closed her eyes again and soon I saw her taking deep breaths and I knew that she had fallen asleep again

I went out and closed the door gently and headed out to the kitchen. I had no idea what I was going to do for 3 hours by myself, in Yuki's house. This was my first time being here as well..

I looked around in the kitchen and took a deep breath. To make the time pass, I might as well clean. I don't know.. just clean a bit.. that will at least keep me busy

1,5 h passed and I was finally done. I had cleaned the whole kitchen, the floors, the livingroom and even the hallway and her bathroom.

Actually, it was already pretty clean in her house but I was just taking a bit longer than I usually did. I do admire girls who can keep their apartments clean like this.. I wish I could do the same

I decided to check up on Yuki again and I entered her bedroom quietly

"I know you here"

I started to laugh as I saw her turn around, looking at me.

"How are you feeling?" I asked and sat down

"Better.. and you? Not hungry?"

I shook my head

"You should be.. you haven't eaten anything"

She shrugged

"It's ok.. I usually don't eat when I'm sick.. I'll just stay in bed until I get better" She said

That kind of reminded me of Selina. She used to do the same thing.. Deja Vu.. Spooky feeling

"I'll.. go and get some soup for you"

"Soup?" She asked

I nodded

She looked at me for a bit and then she smiled

"Chicken soup"

I nodded happily and was just about to spin around and go to get some but I realized that I haven't told her that it was chicken soup

"How.. did you know?"

"Know what?"

I looked at her

"I didn't even tell you that it was.. chicken soup"

She started to laugh nervously with her hoarse voice and smiled palely

"Uhm.. it's obvious right. Usually you eat soup or porridge but since chicken's good .. and I know that you love chicken.. so it was just a wild guess.. I think" She said

I chuckled

"Oh.. Araso~~"

I soon came back with a bowl and a glass of water and I sat down on the bed. I put the bowl on the night desk as I helped her to sit up

I grabbed the bowl and started to cool it off

"You're going to feed me?" She asked surprised

I nodded

"It's way to hot. I don't want you to get burned.."

She smiled happily at me as I smiled back at her

As I kept feeding her, the atmosphere was relaxed.. and calm. Not embarrassing and not really.. awkward at all. Even though I didn't know her that well, my heart seems to be at ease at the moment and I somehow was enjoying this..

"How's the guys doing?" She said breaking the silence

"The guys? you mean.. the members?" I asked and put the bowl that she had finished on her desk

She nodded slowly

I shrugged

"I think.. they're ok.. Wae?"

"Just asking.."

"How's.... your heart?" She asked carefully, almost afraid of asking me that

I walked over to the other side of the bed and sat down and looked at the wall, staring straight at it

"Right now or just in general?" I asked quietly

"Right now.."

I thought about it for a minute and I soon realized that this was the first time, on a very long time.. that I haven't thought about.. Selina..

"It's.. ok.." I said

"Good.."

"What.. did you like so much about her?"

She quieten, waiting for my answer. I could choose to answer or not but.. talking about Selina with Yuki.. felt like something else.. not like when I was talking to the members..

"Everything about her" I said

She chuckled

"More specific and detailed huh?" I asked

She nodded

"Of course.. You know us girls.." She said

I smiled happily

"I loved her.. honesty.. the love that she was giving and how she put so much effort in taking care of people around her. Her heart.. was really.. something beautiful.. and I loved everything about her. Her smile.. her eyes.. her hands.. Her personality.. how she managed to make everyone happy.. and.. yeah.. I guess.. she was the perfect girl for me.." I said happily and looked at Yuki

Yuki was quiet but nodded slowly

"Why did.. you fall in love with her?"

"What's up with these questions?" I asked nervously, feeling a bit embarrassed

She faced me and shrugged

"Girls talk are usually like this.. but we talk about guys though"

I laughed

"Back to the question.. I mean.. how did you know.. that you kind of fell in love with her?"

I sighed

I grabbed the bear on her bed and played with it as I started to think about it

"It's.. not that easy to explain.. I just.. did. From the moment I saw.. her.. From the moment.. I looked into her eyes.. you know.. it was.. just.. something about her that.. caught me.."

She chuckled

"It's hard to explain..." I mumbled

She nodded

"Love's like that.. a big mystery"

"A great one though.." I said

"But also.. rough and.."

"Tough" Both of us chorused

We faced each other and laughed

"Love's not really something you can explain huh?" She said

I nodded

"It can only be felt with the heart.. "

"I see.."

I smiled happily

"I loved every minute I was spending with her. Even whether she was happy, mad, sad .. upset, dorky.. cute.. I loved everything..."

"How can you love her when she's mad?" She laughed

I shrugged

"It's just the person she is. I accepted her because she was her. But it was pretty rare to see her mad though.. She's really something" I said

"You're just like she said.." Yuki said and looked at me

"Na?"

She nodded

"Gentle, kind.. thoughtful.. I guess she loved everything about you too.."

I sighed and looked at the bear

"How do you know?"

She hit my arm playfully

"Well.. she loved the height of yours. Mostly because she felt like a little girl in your arms, the feeling of being protected.. Even though she sometimes hated it, she loved your dorky and teasing side. But you have this habit.. You're not stopping even though she gets serious"

I laughed

"I couldn't help it.. It was so fun to see her serious.."

"She loved the way you hugged her from the back, grabbing her hand.. doing everything sincerely with your heart I guess"

I looked up and then looked at Yuki who was staring at the wall

"Seems like you know me more than I do myself"

She chuckled

"Maybe.. I do?"

"That would be so freaky"

"Not really.. I can see stuff that you can't.. nice huh?"

I rolled my eyes

"I can do that too"

"You don't know me" Yuki smirked

"I will though" I said

She laughed and soon I joined her

"Yunho ah~~"

"Oh..."

"If you would get a second chance.. to see her again.. what would you do?"

The question was really out of the blue and I heard the serious tone in her voice. But I felt like laughing

In the end I couldn't hold it back

"Why are you laughing?" She asked seriously

"It looks so funny when you're serious"

She glared at me and hit my arm

"WHAT!!" I chuckled

"Stop laughing you pabo"

"Okay okay"

But even though I said Okay, I really couldn't help myself. Her facial expression was so funny and soon I felt her hitting me with the pillow

"YAH!! YAH!! I WILL STOP!! PROMISE!!" I shouted while laughing

"Stupid!! I was asking a serious question!!!!" She said angrily and hit me with a pillow

After a couple of minutes she stopped since she was tired and fell down on the bed. I calmed myself down and looked at her

"Don't be mad.. I didn't mean to laugh"

"Yes you did" She snapped

I rolled my eyes

"Come on................" I whined

She then faced me

"One condition"

"condition?" I asked

"I'll forgive you on one condition"

"Aniyo..."

"Fine.. forget it.. I won't talk to you" She said and lied down on the bed

"OK OK OOK !!"

I gave up and she sat up immediately.

"Let's play playstation"

Totally shocked by the condition, I stared at her

"What did you say?" i asked

"Playstation DUH!"

"Is that it?" I asked

She nodded

"Fine.. " I smirked widely

She walked towards her shelf, the tv and playstation and soon the game that Selina and I used to play was on the screen. Both of us were in the same team and we were suppose to accomplish a lot of levels, killing all the zombies and vampires

"We can't loose!" She said determined

I looked to the side and smiled at Yuki, though she wasn't looking, keeping her eyes on the screen

I felt great being around her and also my mood and my feelings was for some reason, feeling a lot happier. .

You might think I'm crazy but it felt like I was spending time with Selina..

I looked back at the screen as the happiness were spreading around in my body

We waited for the game to load as both of us were keeping our eyes on the screen

I took a deep breath

"If I had the chance.. to see her again.. " I started slowly

She looked at me, waiting for me to finish my sentence

"I'd.. ask her to marry me" I said as I spun my head to face Yuki

"Mwoh?"

I nodded slowly

"If I had the chance to see her again.. I'd ask her to marry me.." I mumbled

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Nyaikou
#1
Loved this story when I first read it 8 years ago on Winglin and I'm glad you kept it on here for more people ❤️?
Angelz0715 #2
Chapter 68: OMG this story is so amazing!!! I keep crying while reading this story!! This seriously need to be feature!!!
HyunJane #3
Chapter 68: it's really good~ i just hope this story will be featured! can you give me soft copies? i really like it! it made me cry , laugh etc.... it's not just fanfiction~ it can give you the TRUE meaning of life~ even some parts are fiction~ but it's still good~ i'm really crying promise! i'm not lying~
wilnikki
#4
This story is really amazing. I read it one day straight. The tree covered in dew was on replay while I was reading the last part and it made me teary eyed on their final moment on the bridge to Jaejoong dying.. a really really good story, thank you very much!!!
yunjae78 #5
Chapter 68: PERFECT! I LOVE THIS STORY!! ♥♥♥
whateveritis #6
always here!! next to you
koreankendi #7
In AWE!!!
Breathtaking! Beautiful!!!
clinaoh
#8
Amazing story <3