~JaeJoong~

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I looked at Yunho who was lying on the hospital bed with closed eyes. Seriously, I couldn't stop myself from crying

"Hyung.. U u ljima.." I heard Changmin sobbing hardly behind me

Yoochun and Junsu were right next to him on the other side of the bed

"Otoke?" Junsu cried

It really must have been a miracle since we were on the right place at the right time. Who knows what might have happened to him if we didn't help him out of the car?

I sighed heavily..

"It just can't.. get any worse.." Yoochun sobbed

I looked at Yunho who was resting at the moment..

I took a deep breath and decided to go outside and to the room right next to Yunho's.

Junsu followed me as Changmin and Yoochun stayed to be right next to him.

We got out of the room and I stopped as I looked at the crowd right outside Selina's room..

Junsu and I were at loss. We seriously didn't know what to say at this moment.

I saw Selina's mother crying, her father, her aunts, uncles, her little sister and her grandparents

I started to walk slowly towards the door and as soon as her family saw me and Junsu they looked at us sadly. her mother's eyes were swollen as her father could barely stand on his feet due to the tears. Her sister were sitting on the floor, covering and hoovering herself into a ball while crying

I bowed as I saw them and they just nodded

I went inside the room and it was completely silent.

Junsu were right behind me and I could hear the doors close. The only thing that I could hear was my footsteps and Junsu's. And our sobbing

Behind those drapers, Selina was lying there..

I felt Junsu putting an arm around my shoulders.

I pulled the drapers and on the bed, a pale, white body was lying there with eyes closed, blanket covering her body to the chest. Her fingers were still, and her chest didn't move up and down.
Her head was resting on the pillow comfortably.

She looked so peaceful

I could hear Junsu break down behind me and as I heard him break down, I broke down as well

Junsu fell to the floor on his knees, covering his face while crying. I fell down to the floor on my knees and rested my head onto the bed's edge while crying

In situations like this.. what are you suppose to do?
Your best friend since kinder garden, his girlfriend.. died.. right in front of our eyes..

I looked at Junsu who was crying hardly

I tried to control my breathing and approached him

"Junsu ah~~" I sobbed

Suddenly the door flew open and Changmin, Yoochun rushed into the room and they fell down on the floor right next to us

They hugged us in a group hug and we didn't let go of each other

In situations like this.. You kind of realize what is precious on this earth.. in this life right ?

After 20 minutes, when all of us had finally calmed down, we stood up. Although Junsu and yoochun were still crying..

Changmin and I had to stay strong and we walked over to Selina's side as we looked at her

She looked peaceful but I'm sure that all of us.. knew that it wasn't her time yet..

I put my hand on her hand as I felt her cold boy temperature.. It was extremely cold.. as a doll..

"Hyung.." Changmin sobbed with his swollen red eyes

I looked at him

"I know I shouldn't even ask this.. but.. what will happen now?" Changmin sobbed

"What do you mean?" I whispered

"Yunho... He's.. going.. " Junsu started

I shook my head

"I don't know guys.. I don't know.."

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~Yunho~

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I felt something pressing down my body, as if I wasn't able to breathe.. no air

From a faraway place, I could hear Selina scream..

"YUNHO LOOK OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

"SELINA!!"

I screamed her name as I flew up from the bed and looked around

The lights were on, strong and brightly and I started to calm myself down to see that I was sitting up on a bed, and around me there were drapers

"Hyung.."

Changmin's weak voice made my head turn to him and I saw him standing right next to me
Yoochun were on his side and on the other side of the bed, Junsu and JaeJoong were watching me carefully

I stared at their red swollen eyes, red nose and the tissues in their hands

I looked at them and then around in the room. I recognized the hospital smell and I also recognized the drapers and the bed

"Why are we in the hospital?" I asked

The members looked at me a bit confused

"You don't.. remember?" JaeJoong asked

"What happened? Why do you.. look so.." I started until my eyes landed down on my hands and legs. My right leg had been taken care of and my hands as well. There were bruises all over my hands and on my arm sleeve, it had been ripped

What had happened to me? I looked around in the room and soon my eyes fell on my jacket on the chair

I looked at the members and my eyes fell on JaeJoong's finger.

Ring..

I instantly flew up from the bed and walked over to the jacket. My leg started to ache but I didn't care

I grabbed my jacket and looked inside the pocket and I saw the small box with the ring..

But .. something.. was still wrong.. I could tell by the atmosphere.. I looked up and at the members who were waiting for me..

Odd.. Where's..

I stared at them and then back at the engagement ring..

"Where's.. Selina?" I choked

"Hyung.. " Junsu started

Some weird voices inside my head and car crashes appeared inside my head as I closed my eyes

I covered my eyes and fell down on the floor

"HYUNG!!"

"LEAVE ME ALONE!! WHY ARE ALL THESE NOISES INSIDE OF ME?!?!?!" I shouted

"What is he talking about?" Yoochun panicked

"WHERE'S SELINA?!" I screamed

Suddenly the door opened and a doctor entered, as well as Selina's sister, Sunmi

"Yunho~~ssi.. Please.. lay back down on the bed" The doctor advised

JaeJoong and Changmin helped me up but i didn't look at the doctor. Why didn't anyone tell me where she was?

Sunmi's eyes were swollen as well.. Her small fingers and small body were shaking because of her crying and I had never seen her cry so much in my life

I looked around in the room, at the members, at the doctor and back to Sunmi. I looked at my jacket and I don't know what happened to me but my reflexes grabbed the jacket again and I started to look for something inside of it..

I soon realized my keys.. and car keys were gone.. I looked back at small box with the ring ..

I suddenly gasped

The ring..

Wedding store....

Eating out..

Drunk driver..

Selina..

"WHERE IS SHE?!?!?!?!" I screamed

"Please calm down Yunho~~ssi!" The doctor said

"NO!!!!!!!!!!!"

Suddenly Selina's 15 year old sister grabbed my hand and she took me out of my room and to the hallway. I looked up as I saw the crowd outside the door right next to my own room and Selina's family were there

My heart started to beat faster as I realized why they all were crying.. Her mother looked up at me and I saw that she was looking anxiously at me while crying..

I walked slowly towards them and put my hand on the doorknob

Another flashback started to play inside my head as I felt myself getting all weaker as the pictures became clearer..

Selina.. looking at me..

Bleeding..

Her Strength..

Ambulance..

Reviving..

The staff looking at the clock

Unknowingly while thinking about the whole accident I had started to cry

No.. it's not true

I looked up and opened the door and walked in

I didn't see anything since drapers were covering something that was behind it. I heard her family sob and the weird thing was.. the monitor wasn't beeping or anything..

"Selina?" I whispered

I took one step forward

"Selina.. It's.. Oppa.." I whispered again

I heard her family sobbing harder

I started to feel more anxious

"Why aren't you answering?" I said as I started to cry

Shakingly, I pulled away the drapers and I backed away from the bed as I saw her on the bed

I leaned against the wall, sank down slowly as my heart started to break, piece by piece, bit my bit..

The tears just automatically started to stream down like a river and I couldn't hold it back

"Hyung.." Junsu cried as he tried to approach me

"NOOOOOO! NOOO!!" I said and pushed him away

"Hyung.." Changmin cried harder.. and tried to grab my hand

"NOO NOOO!!! LEAVE ME ALONE!!" I cried as I sobbed

The members backed away from me and I opened my eyes and wiped away the tears

I stood up slowly and once again, the sight of seeing her on the bed, not moving.. not breathing.. not doing anything.. it was tearing me down.. inside.. I could hardly breathe

Wobbling and on unsteady feet I started to walk towards her

I stared at her as she was lying there, still and peaceful.. with her eyes closed

"Selina.. Oppa's here... You can.. open your eyes now.." I sobbed as I looked at her

My hand reached out for hers and I grabbed it carefully as I felt her cold hand in my warm hand

"Selina.. I'm here now.. Just open your eyes and look at me.." I sobbed

I could hear the members behind me starting to cry harder and Selina's family was crying as well..

"SELINA!!"

With her hand between mine I leaned onto the edge as I was holding it hardly

"OPEN YOUR EYES SELINA!! OPEN!!!" I cried

I heard Sunmi's pain as she was crying.. her mother whispering hurtful words about how cruel the world was..

I shook my head and leaned onto her head, feeling her scent..

"I'm here... please.. open..." I cried

"Pl l ease.. justtt t. opeen.." I cried

I kissed her forehead as I was waiting..

"Open n ..your eyes.. Selina... Tell me how bad I am.. how.. I'm always late.. tell me.. anything.. hit me.. do whatever you want.. just .." I said and fell down onto my knees while crying

I couldn't shut the noises.. voices inside of my head out and the sobbing I could hear around me was making me feel frustrated..

I kissed Selina's hand as I looked at her peaceful face..

"Why.. aren't you .. opening your eyes. .. Selina?" I sobbed

"Hyung.." Changmin sobbed behind me

I felt the members putting their hands on my shoulders as I started to cry harder

Suddenly I felt their strong arms help me up and they were holding me up as I saw someone in white enter the room

The old man sighed

"Selina.. died.. today at.. 4:49 pm.. We couldn't save her due to the bad injures, the internal injuries inside her body as well. . She hit her head hard and broke a few ribs.."

I started to cry harder and I covered my face while crying

" There wasn't anything we could do...I'm sorry.." The doctor said