~Selina~

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I was standing in the doorway as I saw the horrible scene in front of me.
The Cutlery were allover the floor, Glasses has been smashed and the table were upside down and the chairs were allover the place.

To short it up: The whole kitchen was a mess

JaeJoong was bleeding, his arm and left hand and Yoochun was covered with blood. I don't know whose blood but it looked mostly like JaeJoong's and yunho

I couldnt' stop the tears from falling as I saw what state Yunho was in

He looked drunk, and it didn't smell good anywhere in the kitchen
His fists were covered with blood and bruises, his hair was messed up and his shirt was covered with blood

"STOP HIM!!" Yoochun shouted

"IT'S MY FAULT!!!" Yunho shouted in anger

His fault?

"GRAB HIS ARM!!" Jaejoong demanded

Junsu instantly grabbed Yunho's arm and Changmin the other

Yoochun were holding him down along with JaeJoong as they tried to prevent him from hurting himself. I saw the big holes in the wall and now I understood why he was in this state. On the floor, smashed beers and wine were broken.

He had been drinking and lost the control over himself

"CALM DOWN YUNHO!!" JaeJoong shouted

"LEAVE ME ALONE!!! IT'S MY FAULT SHE DIED!!!" Yunho cried in anger

I was paralyzed not knowing what to do

"YUKI!!! Clear the way out to the livingroom!!" Junsu shouted

I grabbed the broom, pushed it to one side and tried to sweep it off into a corner so that the guys wouldn't hurt their feet

I was still wearing my shoes and so was Junsu and Changmin. Yunho, Yoochun and JAeJoong didn't so I had to do it quickly and carefully

"COME ON YUNHO!!"

"NOOOO LEAVE ME ALONE!!!" Yunho said angrily

I kept crying as I saw what state Yunho was in, I wasn't sure of what to do
But what can I do? First of all, it's my fault that he even ended up in this way and he's torturing himself thinking that it was my fault

"ON THREE!!" JaeJoong shouted

They all got up, still having a hard grip around Yunho and moved into the livingroom

They were all sweating, out of exhaustion

I knew that Yunho is strong and when he took out his anger, he was even more strong

The guys dragged Yunho into his room and tried to calm him down. He had burst out into tears and were crying hardly. I saw the guys loosened their grip for a bit as they put Yunho on his bed, but still holding a grip if he would get up and break something again

Yunho calmed himself down and within a few minutes, He cried himself to sleep

All of us just stood there, not knowing what to do as we watched Yunho

"Hyung.. what happened?" Changmin whispered

"I was asleep.. and suddenly out of nowhere I heard stuff being thrown at the the walls and when I got into the kitchen, Yunho was drunk and was taking out his anger on the plates and glasses and such.." Yoochun sighed heavily

"Is he.. blaming himself for Selina's death?" Junsu whispered

"Yes" JaeJoong sighed

"But.. he knows that it isn't his fault...." Changmin mumbled

"Maybe.. he doesn't.. You know how it is when you drink and all kinds of stuff are going through your head.. " JaeJoong said

Silently I was standing at the corner, invisible as I watched Yunho from afar. I was crying, as I felt my heart aching, seeing him like this

This is all my fault

"Yuki..."

Changmin's soft voice made me look up and I felt all of their eyes on me. Seems like they didn't forget me after all

Junsu walked over to me and put an reassuring arm around my shoulders and started to comfort me

"Mianhe~~ You weren't suppose to see this.." Junsu mumbled

"What is she doing here?" JaeJoong suddenly snapped

His coldness towards me was so obvious that he could even make the whole room feel cold. I looked at him as he was glaring at me

"Hyung.. she.." Changmin started and JaeJoong shook his head

"Get her out of here"

With that he walked out of the room to take care of his bruises and I heard all of them sigh

Yoochun walked over to me as well

"Mianhe~~.. He's not usually .. like this.." Yoochun apologized

I nodded slowly

"I know.."

"He's just.. not feeling good.. The school.. Selina.. and Yunho.." Yoochun said

Changmin wiped away my tears and hugged me tightly

Yoochun noticed how close Changmin and Junsu were with me and he looked at us a bit weird

"What's wrong?" Junsu asked

"How.. did you guys become.. so close?" Yoochun asked slowly

Junsu looked at Changmin and both of them looked at me

"Mollah" Junsu and Changmin chorused

Yoochun shrugged

I saw Yoochun's shirt and took a deep breath

"You.. should.. go and change .. maybe take a shower when you can.. Yunho will probably sleep for a long time now since he was drunk.."

Yoochun nodded in agreement

"I'm going to check up on JaeJoong Hyung.." Junsu said

Changmin and I were left in the room as Yunho was sleeping

Changmin took my hand and looked at me

I looked at our hands but he didn't remove it

"Yoochun Hyung.. do got a point there.. I don't know myself how we became so close" He chuckled quietly

I smiled slightly

"Feels.. like I know you.. that's all.."

My heart was starting to feel happier as I couldn't hold back the smile that appeared on my face.. I was starting to get somewhere

I squeezed his hand back and he smiled at me

I looked on Yunho and soon I saw his bruises

"Would.. you mind.. go and get a bowl with hot water and the first aid kit for me?" I whispered

"Wae?"

"yunho.. he injured himself"

"Omo~~ I didn't see that.. I'll be right back"

He hurried out of the room and I walked over to Yunho as he was sleeping deeply

I hadn't been so close to him ever since I came back to earth and being so close to him, was making it harder for me to hold back my tears and my feelings

Changmin soon came back with the aid kit box and the bowl with hot water and a towel

"I'll be back soon. i have to wash up.. I'm all covered with blood.." He said

"Take your time. I'll take care of Yunho"

Changmin closed the door behind him and there was only me and Yunho in the room. The room were lightened with candles and the atmosphere calm

Shakingly, I grabbed Yunho's comfortable hand, that I've been holding a billion times but it felt really.. strange now when I was holding it again.. Maybe it was because of the different body I was in

I wiped away and cleaned his bruises and started to apply soft cream on it and then wrapping it around with the bandage

As I was taking care of him, I was just happy that I could touch him again without someone or something stopping me

"It's.. not your fault oppa.." I whispered silently

His face was still asleep and he looked so peaceful

"Don't blame yourself.. I'm right here.." I whispered

I grabbed his other hand as I was crying hardly, while taking care of him

I was grateful for Faith, giving me a second chance.. but the burden was more than i could take. I thought I was only going to save him.. Not trying to stand up for myself against other people, facing jaeJoong coldness.. seeing Yunho so devastated

"I miss you..." i whispered quietly

When i was done with his hands I looked at his face

"I miss you terribly..."

Silence took over and the only thing I could hear was my own sobbing and Yunho's breathing

I looked around in the room and I saw a picture of us two in a photo booth . It was a big picture of us two and then a polaroid photo set with five pictures of us doing all kind of facial expression. I walked over to it silently and smiled to myself as a tear fell

Candles were lightened around it.. and seems like.. these lights were for me

I put the photos back and covered my mouth and nose while crying. It felt great being around him, but at the same time so painful. His room were filled with memories of us two, photos, gifts.. and everything we used to do together

I could hardly breathe when I was in this room since all of our memories were brought back

I looked back at the photos as I tried to control my crying

"I'm right here.. right here.."

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~JaeJoong~

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As I was sitting in the livingroom, with Junsu and Yoochun, Changmin soon entered and looked at all of us

"Gwenchana?"

"I'm fine.. just taking care of the bruises" Yoochun nodded

Junsu was helping him to wrap around his hand as I was still staring at my hands

"Hyung.. aren't you going to take care of your wounds? It might get infected and it's not good for you.." Changmin said

I shook my head

"Where's Yuki?" Junsu asked

I froze as I heard her name and I looked at Changmin

"She's with yunho . She's taking care of his wounds" Changmin said

"oh.. Good" Yoochun said

"Why is that good? What is she doing here anyway?" I asked

All three of them looked at me

"What's wrong Hyung? Why are you so.. cold towards her?" Junsu asked

I folded my fists as I felt the pain screaming.

"I don't like having her here"

"But she helped us" Yoochun said

"I don't care.. Seriously, something's really suspicious with that girl.." I said

"But.. you barely know her... hyung.." Changmin protested

I looked at him

"I don't care if I know her.. but I just have these awkward feelings around her and they're telling me that she's really .. not the person she's saying she is.. "

The guys sighed

"I'll go and wash up"

I left the guys as I headed towards the bathroom. I locked myself in there and started to wash of the blood that has frozen.

I didn't like having her around us. For some reason she was really making me annoyed, and that she was getting along with the guys was making me even more annoyed

She really didn't feel real .. and I didn't like the fact that she was talking to us, hanging out with us or anything

I turned off the water with a smash and took a deep breath

She was giving me really odd vibes and it didn't get all better now when she has become a little closer to Junsu and Changmin

I then remembered that Changmin had left her in Yunho's room alone

I instantly got out of the bathroom and opened Yunho's door

I saw Yunho sleeping quietly on the bed and I saw Yuki standing by his shelf looking at the pictures of Selina. She really must be a crazy stalker or something. The guys couldn't see that and it felt like she was trying to replace Selina

I entered the room and closed it.

Yuki heard me and she spun around and I saw her tears

I stared at her coldly

"I think it's about time that you should leave"

"Mwoh?" She stuttered

I walked towards her and looked her in the eyes

"We don't need stalker girls that's trying to hook up with Yunho. Seriously, Don't you have a heart? Sense? Do you see what state he's in? And yet you're still trying to be his girlfriend. Now let me tell you something, the other guys MIGHT fall for your stupid act but I'm telling you that I'm not blind. I'll make sure that you won't even put a finger on Yunho. So I think you better stay away from Yunho, from the other guys, from Us. Understood?"

She stared at me in shock

"I know what you're up to but as you see, Yunho is still mourning and grieving . We don't need a girl who's trying to replace Selina. I don't know how you managed to get all kind of information about her, but seriously, You don't have her personality, her face, her heart. You will never be able to take her place.. so you might as well stop before something bad happens"

Yuki wasn't even able to utter a word and in 3 seconds she pushed me to the side and got out of the room

Yes, that is exactly what I'm thinking

She really thinks that she's able to BE Selina?

Selina's gone.. and no one can replace her..

I sat down on Yunho's bed and looked at him

He's already hurt. I won't let some kind of impostor girl trying to put her hands on Yunho

I hope she ran away for good and will not interfere our lives anymore..

But if she does, I'll make sure she'll stay away from us..

In one way or another..