Kyungsoo thought he had everything and everyone figured out. He knew who was in love, he knew the mean boys from the nice ones. He knew the answer was 42. But he can't help doubting himself as everything he thought he knew starts falling apart. Maybe he didn't know anything after all...


Do Kyungsoo is a pessimistic boy who, simply put, hates most everything and everyone. Kris Wu and his terrible gang of friends, including Kim Jongin, are no exception to this. 

Everything is strange this year. Best friends are fighting. His friends are going to parties and losing their ities. He's becoming friends with the enemy. And this boy, this mysterious boy, is writing him messages...



177K words. This story is technically complete! (Though there are spin-offs.)

WARNING: Some violence. ual content, . Angst. (Minor) infidelity. Very vague mention of suicide. Bullying. Semi-abusive relationship? (Not physical, but psychological.) Actually, psychological abuse plays a reasonable role in this. Cheesiness isn't my style but I will use it mockingly sometimes. Cultural inaccuracies.

Ships mentioned and/or acted upon: Baekyeol, Xiuhan, Xiuchen, Hunhan, Taoris, Kray, ing, Suchen, Sesoo, Baeksoo, Keysoo. 

This isn't just , or just fluff, or just angst. Nor is it your typical hs!au. It's a story that has a plot and development and kind of falls all over the spectrum. It's a love story and a hate story and it's not all rainbows and butterflies, it's not all tears and pain, it's not all . It's everything. That's what love is. And I hope you'll like it.


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0 points #1
Chapter 40: Finished reading in less than a week. Feeling shtty AF rn. I can't sleep /it's 12:44 AM/ my poor heart TT How can I move on from this?! I felt all sort of things. I cried, laughed, and even shake in anger and fear. I need more ~~ T.T
KaisooChanbaekHunhan 0 points #2
Chapter 41: OH MY GOD I love this story. it destroyed me but fixed me as well I can't even explain it. it's so....beautiful and sad and most of all realistic and I feel that it is certainly worth being read and maybe I even got to learn something from it concerning human relationships... I'm just UGH I can't express myself at all. I just loved this kay?
i think i'll enjoy reading this
Chapter 44: wah, i finally finished this. this fic grew on me for sure, i kinda wished jongin would have manned up & confessed to taoris about his relations with soo but i'm happy it all worked out in the end. loved this :)
Love the story!
Congrats! Totally deserved the feature!
Chapter 32: "Woah, woah slow down, You - you can't just go in" IM SCREAMIGN THIS IS SO FUNNY & HOT AT THE SAME TIME
liquorandice #8
Chapter 44: yo okay SPOILER ALERT
I'm sort dissatisfied w how it ended. Don't get me wrong, I loved it, but throughout everything I was hoping Jongin would finally get the guts to tell Kris and he never did! I felt the same as Kyungsoo did on his birthday.
even if it wasnt the person I was dating, if someone I cared so much about denied relations with me-- especially on such a happy day-- I would have gotten so mad. ahahaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I'm not criticizing your work I'm really just ranting here.

congratulations :)