Kyungsoo thought he had everything and everyone figured out. He knew who was in love, he knew the mean boys from the nice ones. He knew the answer was 42. But he can't help doubting himself as everything he thought he knew starts falling apart. Maybe he didn't know anything after all...


Do Kyungsoo is a pessimistic boy who, simply put, hates most everything and everyone. Kris Wu and his terrible gang of friends, including Kim Jongin, are no exception to this. 

Everything is strange this year. Best friends are fighting. His friends are going to parties and losing their ities. He's becoming friends with the enemy. And this boy, this mysterious boy, is writing him messages...



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This story is technically complete! (Though there are spin-offs.)

WARNING: Some violence. ual content, . Angst. (Minor) infidelity. Very vague mention of suicide. Bullying. Semi-abusive relationship? (Not physical, but psychological.) Actually, psychological abuse plays a reasonable role in this. Cheesiness isn't my style but I will use it mockingly sometimes. Cultural inaccuracies.

Ships mentioned and/or acted upon: Baekyeol, Xiuhan, Xiuchen, Hunhan, Taoris, Kray, ing, Suchen, Sesoo, Baeksoo, Keysoo. 

This isn't just , or just fluff, or just angst. Nor is it your typical hs!au. It's a story that has a plot and development and kind of falls all over the spectrum. It's a love story and a hate story and it's not all rainbows and butterflies, it's not all tears and pain, it's not all . It's everything. That's what love is. And I hope you'll like it.


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good job!!
Chapter 41: Can i have a pdf file for this story?
Thisfangirl10 #3
Totothepig #4
Chapter 3: Omg!!!! I knew it's gonna be Kai!!!
Chapter 20: I am not sure if anyone asked this before but both Jongin & Minseok are so against America. Why did you make them like that tho? .-.
kaisoo22 #6
Chapter 45: Ayyyyyeeee
ohtshn #7
Chapter 45: Congratulations on being featured and getting a new job! You deserve it ❤️
Chapter 45: Congratulations on the new job and new life in Korea! Your students are lucky to have such an imaginative teacher. i know they'll love you!
ielsky #9
Chapter 41: I started reading the epilogue again!! It appeared to my notif and i was checking it out again i didn't notice i continued reading hahaha
Chapter 45: Wait, but didn't you already sell this as a book? Why are you going to edit it after already printing out so many copies?