FEAR AND BEGINNINGS

MY PUMPKIN PROFESSOR (My Pumpkin Gyo-soh-nim)
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SUNGMIN saw him sitting at the garden steps, possibly trying to get some air from all the conversation and music. Kyuhyun has the sheen that New York gave, but he sat just like old times. His face up and looking at the stars, even if it was hard to. Always hoping to be amongst the brightest in the universe, this one. He always tried to burst his bubble and told him that the light we see are memories, projections of long ago dead stars.

 

"You always said they were memories of dead stars." He was startled when Kyu spoke. He let out a chuckle. "I never did listen to you when you started on your lectures. But your mind had always been the iest thing about you."

 

"Welcome back home." he sat next to Kyu and the latter faced him. Dried tears made him eyes red near the corner. "I'm sorry..."

 

"Don't. It wasn't your fault..." he sighed.

 

"Not entirely." he wanted to explain the trauma he went through. The reason why he was afraid to love him out in the open. But he felt like it would be pressing on an open wound. The bleeding might stop but the wound would just continue to throb despite all his efforts to make the pain go away.

 

Kyu managed a short laugh and nodded. "Not entirely..." he sat up and faced him fully. "I just have one question. I want you to be honest."

 

"Ask anything."

 

"If I hadn't left...if I stayed here with you. Do you think we would still be together?" Sungmin had asked himself that though Tao never asked him, at least not out loud.

 

"I would still be afraid, I think. We..." Sungmin knew that it was cruel but the truth could be so sometimes. He had to tell Kyu the answer he found in his heart. "We got comfortable keeping us a secret. He..." not wanting to compare was even crueler but it was what he knew Kyu needed to hear and know. "He made me braver. I don't know how he did it. But being with him doesn't feel like a risk. I think you cured me of my fear and he gave me a chance to be brave. When you left something inside me, the me who had once wanted to risk all of it, woke up. And Tao was the reason why that me thrived. He held on to me and meant it when he said he would never let me go. Even if I push him away. Even if I am afraid to love again. Even when I was afraid of crying again."

 

"He is so young. I miss being that idealistic." Kyu looked up to the stars again.

 

"Sometimes, when he looks at me and talks to me, I feel like he is an old soul. Like he has lived through this and was sharing his wisdom to me. He was so convinced that his love is enough to make me braver. He introduced me to his mom as his boyfriend. She wasn't even shocked. She just told me that we should take care of each other. And to come and visit them during break." Sungmin laughed at the memory of the warm acceptance. "That is when I realized where his conviction came from. His parents trusted him. His mom knew his heart and understood it. She was willing to let him live far away from home and find himself.

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Aloner
#1
Thanks for sharing.
330nai #2
Chapter 20: authour-nim gumawo.. haha than now i understand why Tao kiss his girlfriend in Saho Chinese vid (rumor). bcoz Sungmin get married this december with his own girlfriend.. so that's the end for this pairing i guest.. <3 <3
330nai #3
Chapter 19: sob sob.. (T.T) I'm melting at the same time sobbing ..
330nai #4
Chapter 17: YAH YAH YAH YAH YAH ...athour~nim what u hve done.. my heart explode
330nai #5
Chapter 5: author~nim i'm faint. how could u put SUJU and EXO together... KYAAAAH ( '///')
330nai #6
Chapter 3: author-nim u r amazing.. i love sungmin/tao pairing.. so cute ^ ^
AussieElf28
#7
Chapter 21: Awww. This story was so cute. I love the Tao/Sungmin pairing. ^-^
exotic_marshmallow
#8
Chapter 21: Good job autor~nim ^^ It was a good story,really cute and it makes me happy that everyone has a happy ending :3
Nin3ja88
#9
Chapter 21: I love it ate!!!!!!
bonchan #10
Chapter 21: Well done ^^. I don't expect this fic to end soon. I enjoy reading it. Taomin has become my favourite couple now. The pic on the background, awwww such a sweet and cute height difference between Tao and Sungmin