Meeting you is fate

So does leaving you

You make me feel loved

Yet you broke it all in a second

Loving you is fate

So does hating you

You bring the best out of me

Yet you treat me like I am nobody

Having you is fate

So does losing you

You bring happiness back into my life

Yet you freak the hell out of me

I always think…

If only I don’t have to meet you

What my life would be?

Will it hurt less?

Then I know the answer…

I don’t have to hate you so much

So much that I want you to feel the same pain you caused me

But I know, no matter what I do

It means nothing for you

Because even from the very beginning…

You just had never been in love..

With me

-SY-

I hate myself

To make you feel rejected

Seeing you cry that time

Hurt me more than I have ever thought

I hate myself

To make you feel worthless

Seeing you run from me

Crush me more than I have ever felt

I hate myself

To make you feel miserable

Seeing you broke down to your defenses

Pain me more than I can ever take

I always think…

If only I don’t have to meet you

What my life would be?

Will it hurt less?

Then I know the answer…

The day you stepped out from my life

I had promised to myself

That no matter how many times you pushed me away

I wouldn’t take a step back

Because even from the very beginning…

I have just always been in love…

With you

-YN-