WARNING: Short update due to an overload of taeny feels. Okay, i had this tsunami taeny feels so I didn't get to finish the whole thing hence it may come out as a cliffhanger but meh, will continue the *cough rest of the bed thingy* on my next update, I need to gather my thoughts!

THIS AINT A YUUKISAN! *slaps self

Shock.

That was the perfect word to describe how she felt, it was like a roller coaster ride with a twist, when you have expected and prepared yourself for the knee-quivering fall, the ride cascades backward instead, catching you off guard and defenceless. 

When she broke down in front of Tiffany , she expected the girl to just, say sorry, pity her or whatever and then crush her mulish hope once and for all but no. Her mind went blank the moment their lips came in contact, it was an out of body experience like she consciously fainted. 

Ironic. 

She doesn't know whether it's the truth or a mind game crafted by her own brain. 

Speaking of, her brain buzzed. Her heart stopped and she swore she died for a second. Taeyeon thought about this before, in the dead of the night after extinguishing her dsire for flesh and as Yejin sleeps beside her. At times, she thinks if this would happen to her and Tiffany again sometime in the future and then scoffs at the thought of her old, innocent, inexperienced self when she and Tiffany shared their first night together. 

How long has it been since she last kissed these very lips?

Two years

Seven months

Fifty three days

Thirty six minutes

And forty five seconds

She argues that she may have forgotten how long but at the back of her mind, she counts every day, every minute and second.

Her lips feel numb and cold as ice to Tiffany’s agile and fiery lips. It was a hurried kiss, like they’re running out of time as Taeyeon gasps for air in the middle of their kiss and in that precise moment her eyes rolled back to its sockets when she felt Tiffany’s tongue slither in.

It amazed them of the amount of self-control they had that day, especially Tiffany. Tiffany is always with Taeyeon, always has her hands and arms around Taeyeon, all over Taeyeon in an overtly friendly way, but then again, they weren’t ‘just friends’, the girl never cared if they were in public that the other members, Sooyoung particularly had to keep an eye on them and nudge them from time to time, reminding to tone it down a bit.

And when they’re alone like this, things get to higher levels, levels that Taeyeon clandestinely enjoys very much. It came flashing back to her, like déjà vu, Tiffany’s slender fingers tangled in her hair, the soft touches on her face, their exchange of breaths, her hands, her stupid hands not knowing where to place itself. Saliva and whatnot are tasteless but not for Taeyeon, she was in sugar land, with their tongues swirling in a never-ending spiral of ecstasy and their centers unconsciously pressing against each other.

She feels a warm sensation below her stomach, or was that Tiffany’s? Logic and reasoning flew out of the window as Taeyeon slowly and agonizingly grind her lower torso further into Tiffany who, in turn, broke the kiss to let out throaty gruff, eyes sparking with evident want, or was it lust? Was it love?

Was it both?

Maybe.

Definitely.

She revels in the sensation of having that familiar body on top of her, grinding. She’s lost in the thrill of seeing Taeyeon’s porcelain skin through the girl’s shirt, her chest, a peek of her bra, the feeling of touching Taeyeon’s legs which were firmly spread apart on the sides of Tiffany’s legs. She runs her finger up and down and she hears Taeyeon’s jagged breathing, and the girl’s now fast and forceful s.

I'm a freaking tease I know, I didn't mean to. Okay, throw rocks at me.