Hello sorry took so long to update this, I had some love troubles to deal with *sigh*

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For this chapter, i chose thing song because it fits the situation so much (and cause i'm a er for old songs lol)

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DHT- I go crazy < song link

Everything was familiar; she knows it because she has felt this a thousand times ago. The flutters she feels in her heart, the wild churning of her stomach and Tiffany’s mere presence. All of those combined seemed to toss her into a whirlpool of blissful suffocation.

She couldn’t believe she managed to go on without Tiffany for two years, something she had deemed impossible to do so before. It just proves that the human heart does outstanding things after being shattered into pieces.

She had a firm grip on her glass, as if it would help her calm down. Peering into the swirling amber liquid, she smiled and realized that no amount of liquor could fix this, no one could fix this save for the person who broke it in the first place.

The person beside her.

The person wearing a brand new diamond ring.

She smiled to herself, sad and sarcastic. Defeat crept in like a vine tied around . It’s true, it’s real. She’s really married.

Taeyeon sighed unknowingly and stiffened the next second when felt eyes were on her and Tiffany started inching closer. Shoulder to shoulder now, Taeyeon had to take a mouthful of whatever liquor she’s drinking. It burned its way down but it didn’t calm the frantic beating of her heart, the sweating of her hands and the thoughts that run through her mind.

It was intoxicating, and she wasn’t even talking about the alcohol.

The moment they stepped out of the living room and into the balcony, Tiffany never let her eyes off of Taeyeon though the latter wasn’t looking back. Tiffany understands why, she’s the only one who could fully understand Taeyeon’s reserved demeanor.

She noticed Taeyeon look down on her glass and the amount of loneliness she saw in those eyes broke her heart, knowing that she was the reason behind that only made it worse. If she could just hug Taeyeon with all her might right now, she would but it’s been two long years and maybe Taeyeon has changed, maybe this wasn’t the old Taeyeon she knew.

The selfless Taeyeon that loves her unconditionally may be gone.

And it was her fault.

For being such a coward.

Tiffany approached her with caution, testing the waters. There was a five second stiffness between them before their bodies relaxed, arms and shoulders touching.

“You cold?” Taeyeon asked a minute later.

Tiffany had to smile. She’s concerned

“Yeah, it’s kinda chilly”

“Oh.. here” Taeyeon instantly broke off the close distance and proceeded to remove the cardigan she was wearing but Tiffany pulled her back.

“No, no, no let’s just…stay this way” she whispered into the air.

“O-okay...”

Taeyeon felt like a scolded puppy and wished for an insect repellant to drive away the butterflies in her stomach now that Tiffany’s arms are looped around hers.

She came to realize that there was nothing else more beautiful than this, to have Tiffany beside her sharing each other’s warmth and immersed in the comforting familiarity they seem to only find within each other.

Tiffany was very beautiful.

She was so beautiful right from the start.

The kind of beauty she possessed made people cry, but for Taeyeon, the wholeness of Tiffany drove her insane.

With each passing second, Taeyeon found herself unable to look away. No, she wouldn’t miss this for the world. How could she look elsewhere when Tiffany’s hair looked so feverishly rapturous as it danced gracefully to the tune of the wind, her ever mesmerizing eyes stared off into the flickering city lights ahead with peaceful tranquility and lucid contentment, even her apple red lips never lost its poisonous appeal.

Taeyeon was more than willing to take a bite, even if it costs her her life.

She blinked several times, almost moronically when Tiffany laid eyes on her til the familiar crescents showed up. Taeyeon smiled a real smile for the first time that night, her whole world came whirling in reverse and she found herself on the same spot where she had fallen head over heels for her best friend.

I go crazy

When I look in your eyes

I still go crazy

No my heart just can't hide that old feeling inside

Way deep down inside

Oh baby you know when I look in your eyes

I go crazy

“Ahjumma” Tiffany teasingly scoffed.

Taeyeon made an offended look before playfully shoving Tiffany, the sound of her raspy laughter filled the air and Taeyeon couldn’t help but laugh along. Their laughter subsided as the now normal silence seeped back in. This happiness was nothing like the happiness she gets when watching early morning cartoons or reading through their group chat’s silly conversations, this one was heartfelt happiness.

The kind of happiness only Tiffany could bring.

She turns to her the exact time Tiffany leans her head on Taeyeon’s shoulder. It doesn’t help that the girls inside had grown quiet and started singing a slow ballad. Tiffany’s hand made its way to Taeyeon’s and there she idly played with the latter’s palm before carefully lacing their fingers.

It fit perfectly. They both thought and wondered if the other had noticed it too.

Taeyeon closed her eyes and pressed her face closer to Tiffany’s head, recognizing the scent of Tiffany’s brand of shampoo, perfume, lotion and whatnot.

Some things never change huh?

Except for us, she thought.

A slight flicker on Tiffany’s finger triggered a click in her head. This was too good to be true. Suddenly, it seemed like she had swallowed a pill that left a bitter taste in , it lingers there and grows more serious as it sent a pang of pain in her heart and the gaping hole was once again re-opened.

Taeyeon inhaled and looked away.

“Nice ring, looks expensive” she wanted to let go of her hand but at the same time she doesn’t.

The small smile on Tiffany’s face faded, her insides stung with so much guilt she had to retract herself away from Taeyeon, A part of her felt embarrassed of the silver band on her ring finger, like it wasn’t supposed to be there and she wasn’t supposed to wear it but the damage has been done, not just for tonight but long ago when she had said the words ‘I do’.

Reality came crashing down on Taeyeon like a tidal wave. The hard and painful truth that what they have right now and what they had back then were just borrowed time, that Tiffany was meant to be experienced but not to keep.

Funny how the people we want to be with for the rest of our lives are the ones we’ll never end up with.

Taeyeon tries her best to free her away from Tiffany’s adamant grip but the latter wouldn’t budge.

“Ahh, let me just… it’s sweaty” She lied and forcefully pulled her hand away, creating distance between them at the same time. Tiffany feels start to hurt, she bit her lip and it hurt, everything suddenly hurts.

To dispel the budding awkwardness, Taeyeon thought of starting a new conversation since it was her who brought up the marriage topic anyway.

“So how have you bee—“

“I missed you”

Tiffany was now looking at her, straight in the eyes, with so much power Taeyeon had to back away. With each step backward, the other steps forward until there was no space left and Tiffany lunged herself at Taeyeon, arms tightly encircling the shorter girl’s lithe waist and face snuggled up her neck.

It was love and pain mixed into one.

Taeyeon needed self-restraint but logic went down the drain the moment their bodies met in that longing embrace. Her arms went around Tiffany’s shoulders, pulled her closer and kissed the top of her head.

It was that bittersweet feeling you wanted so much to feel though it hurts you.

“I miss you so much, I’m so… I’m so sorry” she whimpered against Taeyeon’s skin, almost sobbing, she tightened her embrace, like her life depended on it.

When she finally saw Tiffany’s face, she was indeed almost crying, but not really because Tiffany is a strong girl, she’d try her best to fight the tears just like how she fought her feelings for Taeyeon. What she saw in those glittering eyes were remorse, guilt and desperation. Taeyeon hated it but she couldn’t help but feel somewhat proud knowing that she still has his effect on Tiffany. It’s a proof that what they had before was indeed something special, something real.

It’s nice to know that she still means a lot to Tiffany.

Because for Taeyeon, nothing had changed, Tiffany’s still her everything.

***

A lone figure appeared from the living room.

She had this unreadable expression on her face as she walked closer to the balcony, to where two people are sharing an intimate moment.

Taeyeon’s face paled when she realized who it was.

She heard a nagging voice inside her head saying that she had just sinned.

Their eyes met.

 “Yejin-ah…”

Her heart wanted to explode and there was a rising throb in her head. The past and the present had collided.

She was so caught in the middle.

Shout out to taenybebe, bree and yenlo, you guys are probably reading this right now lol thanks for the support.

Lovelots and i'm out! See ya next time :)