Pairings: ReitaxUruha(main), ReitaxRuki, AoixUruha, RukixKai
Genres: Romance, drama, angst, humor

Back then everything was okay. Uruha had Reita and he couldn't wish for anything else; his life was as perfect as he wanted it to be, even with bullies and parents who hated him. As long as he had Reita, his life was fine. More than fine. That's why he was so scared when Reita suddenly stopped answering his calls and meeting him. He didn't even answer any e-mails. Had Uruha done something wrong? Had Reita gotten bored of saving Uruha from the bullies?

Uruha didn't get it. He was getting desprate. He was beaten up even more, he was being mocked by everyone around him. And then he found out why. Reita had moved away. Where? Uruha didn't know. 'I was foolish to think someone would actually care for me', Uruha always thought.

A year passed. He had started cutting and he couldn't sleep because of the nightmares about Reita. He was in verge of suicide and almost committed it. Suddenly, someone saved him. A mere stranger started caring about him and he became Uruha's lifeguard and boyfriend. But even with Aoi, his life just wouldn't smile without Reita. Every morning he would wake up from a dream about him. Every day he cried without Aoi seeing.

Uruha just couldn't forget his blonde friend. Why hadn't he told him earlier he loved him? That would've just made Reita leave him earlier, but Uruha still regretted it. The pain he went through wouldn't stop. Some days Aoi could make him smile, some days were deep in the dark.

Two years. Three years. Four years. Five years. Just how long would Uruha have to suffer of his childhood memories torturing his mind while he slept?