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Butterflies. I always have them. I don’t when I started having them but I had them and I still have. My mother calls me a butterfly because she thinks I am weak. I am not weak. That’s what I think. She doesn’t believe it though. I am already 24! I should stop having them. I once had it had like… forever. But it stopped when it felt the world was stopping. My mum says I am born with butterflies. That sounds weird right? I never wanted to show it so I always hid it. But some special times I just couldn’t help having butterflies in my stomach. Sometimes they are good to me and sometimes not. Once they were so painful to me I couldn’t forget it. The feeling is still there.

Flashback.

“Oppa, what are these?” I asked, looking at a pair of purple butterfly earrings. “Gain, it’s earrings!” He laughed at my cuteness of asking the question. “I know but why butterfly?” I asked. I hated that everyone thought I was a weak butterfly. I never was. But when he was around me I felt strong and calm. I normally get emotional. I am very bad at hiding my feelings. I normally cry as soon as I get upset and sad. But when around him, I always had that cute and not shy self.

“So Gain, I bought you that. What have you got for me for our 1 year anniversary?” He asked. “Shut up, we’re not married yet!” I said playfully turning red. “Soon.” He giggles. I looked away and opened my bag. I took out my present wrapped in purple butterflies wrapping paper. He grinned and opened it. I had bought him a purple pen in the same color of the butterfly earrings he bought me. “We look like a match.” He grinned. I laughed along.

That was a great day… I thought it was the best. After three weeks, I got a phone call from him. His voice was very weak and it sounded like he was crying. “Gain, I’m sorry but we have to bre-” I suddenly got a sound that meant there was another phone call. “Sorry, Call me later.” I said quickly. I answered the other call before he could reply. “Hey Gain, want to come to the Luna Park?” My friend Jea asked. I thought for a moment. “Sure!” I said. “Great. Meet us at 1:00pm at the train station!” Said Jea happily before hanging up. I was about to call him but I saw on the clock it was already 12:40am. “Crap!” I mumbled before grabbing my bag, packing my stuff and running towards the train station. But before that I put on my butterfly earrings.

When I got there I saw Jea and her friends, Miryo and Narsha. I smiled at them and we bought the train ticket to go to Luna Park. The way over there was great. Jea and her friends were funny and friendly. I made friends with them in no time. I soon forgot about him. When we got to Luna Park, we paid for our tickets and went in. I saw the whole amount of rides we can go on. “Lets go on the roller coaster!” Said Miryo. “OK!” Said Narsha. “Gain shouldn’t go. She’s a small butterfly.” Joked Jea. “No!” I shot back laughing. “Nice earrings by the way.” Said Miryo. “Did your boyfriend give them to you?” “Yeah.” I said embarrassed. “Should we go or not?” Asked Narsha sending us back to the topic. “Sure. I am not a butterfly.” I said firmly. But when the ride started, I was scared to death! All the others were having fun but I was so scared I couldn’t even shout! Luckily they didn’t notice. I didn’t want to be called butterfly again!

After the ride, Jea suddenly looked at my ear. “Gain, one of your earrings is missing.” She said frowning. I touched my ears and felt my left earring is missing! “Where did it go?” I gasped. “It must have fallen off when we were on that ride.” Said Miryo. “Don’t worry, he can get you a new pair.” Said Narsha. I nodded and we hurried to watch the horse racing. During that time in Luna Park, I forgot about him and the missing butterfly earring.

After 2 days when all of that happened, he didn’t call me. I got confused and call him but no one picked it up. I decided to go to his house. When I got there and rang the bell no one picked it up. Then I saw his mother in a car with red eyes. I wondered why she was crying so hard. “Gain, you came late.” She said sobbing. “What happened?” I asked confused. “His in heaven.” She whispered. I was muddled up. “It’s April Fools Day right?” I asked, not bearing to take the truth. She took out a letter in a purple piece of paper with a butterfly sticker.

I opened it slowly.

Dear Gain,

When you are reading this I am already in Butterfly World. I just need to say thank you. You gave my happiness in the world. I truly love you. The day I called you was to break up. I haven’t told you in 1 week after our gifts changes I got into a car accident. The doctor told me I could only live for another 2 weeks. I couldn’t tell you because I didn’t want you to be in pain. Now I need to tell you, I love you forever.

P.S This is written by the  butterfly pen you gave me.

Love,

Jokwon.

Before I knew it tears where coming out of my eyes. I couldn’t believe it. One butterfly present and he is gone. I fell onto my knees and showed everyone the weak butterfly side of me. I had butterflies everywhere. I even think. I was once again a weak butterfly.

End of flashback.

I stood in front of the entrance to Land of Butterflies. I saw many couples walk in. I tried not to cry but it just made me remember all of those memories. I walked in lonely and saw thousands of butterflies in the air. Different colors. All the other people were all shocked and surprised. “Welcome to Land of Butterflies. This land is covered with butterflies, feel free to catch some! Don’t worry the butterflies won’t leave here because they have been trained.” Said a woman. I looked up in the sky with so many butterflies. Then I couldn’t believe it. I smiled once again.