Hospital cafeteria , January 14 

"Happy Birthday to you ! Happy Birthday to you ! Happy birthday kim jongin -" 

I thought he will thank me for the present . I thought he'd be happy if i gave him present . I need some light over here . Why is this place so damn dark . I bit my lips hard . It's hard for me to see . Oh wait , i can't see . I'm blind . I can only hear sounds . Sounds of him breathing . Sounds of his voice trembling . He's standing in front of me . Yes i feel that . How i wish this serious night blindness go away and never come back . I need to see jongin ! 

Kai's not going to leave me . 

Tears dripping down my cheeks . Although it's cold outside but i dont care . I dont even care not wearing any jackets now . It's raining outside . We suposed to be walking around the hospital enjoying the peace of night's view right now . Holding hands , and him guiding me . I can't see . I really cant see at night . Things was back normal at the day but not at night . I was living in this hospital for 7 years . So does him . We're somekind of roomates . Long last hospital roomates . One thing he did said to me before . "I wonder how long we going to stay here , we're going to die anyway " . Although he seems feeling hopeless before but we did enjoy our time together . 

As for me , i was here since i was 8 . Because of serious eye problem . Not like the usual one . Well , you just can put on glasses but mine . My glasses was about half and inchies when i was 5 . There was a title i have before . 

Stupid ugly blind Yin or SUBY . 

That is why i never gonna get back home . i hate meeting those old friends . Never and ever since i meet jong in here . He was pale white back then . Chubby cheeks . And cute . He likes to pout . Jongin pouted . DAMN CUTE . 

The storms seem louder than before . I heard him was about to speak but then he poused . He 's crying . I hate myself .  i hate myself that i cant approach him . It's not my fault you drag me in the cafeteria while everybody else is celebrating your birthday upstairs and you here wanting a break up . jerk . jongin is jerk . 

You knew i cant see so move closer idiot . 

" Yin im sorry " 

for what you idiot 

He stutters . So unlike him . Everything was fine before but what's up with all this now jong in . Why ? jongin ? why ?

I heard the storms . Louder . 

" i hate you yin " 

Jerk this is not a way guy wanting a break up . 

" Just stop this nonsense kai , now come over here and lead me back upstairs " I held my hand out . 

He slapped my hands . Hard . And step back . 

The hot tears forming in my eyes . Not because he slapped my hands . Because i cant figure out why he is so damn mad and wanting a break up . I was clueless . 

I move a step foward searching for him . 

" No ! dont come here ! go away !! " it's him . 

We're like playing hide and seek except im not wearing any blindfold . 

" Jong in just say it out loud why are you being like this ! I aint do something wrong did i ? so what is your problem kim jong in ! Can u please at least tell me ! I hate screaming at you and if you ask am i mad or not Yes !! YES YES YES I AM DAMN MAD RIGHT NOW ! " 

" It's you . You are the problem . You are the biggest problem that ever happens to my life ! Did you ever think why do you exist ? Did you ? You never ! You only know how to trouble me and make me dragging you here and there leading you ! I hate that ! I was definitely troubled ! You blind girl ! " 

" Say that again " 

" Oh god dont pretend to be deaf now , you being all blind every night is already enough Yin " 

" Say that again , we're real over " 

You dont want to say that Jongin . Being mean can't end this . 

3RD POV

Jong in gulped . 

He shouldn't say that . He didn't mean too . He's a jerk . 

But if letting her go is the best choice then he will . 

" You filthy stupid ugly blind girl " adding filthy sarcasticaly . 

She moved closer and grab his collars . Her heart thumping hard . He was shocked he didn't expect that . Jongin was pale . It was cold . He wasn't wearing anything warm either . 

Yin shakes his body and sobbing hard . She doesn;t care anymore . She hits his chest again and again . Jongin cried regretting it . Regretting his words . He didn't move an inch . His body was in pain . The girl hit hard . He was crying either . 

" Yin stop it ! " 

He grab her hand making her stop hiting looking straight at her face . Her eyeball was looking somewhere else . Well she can't see in dark except when there is light . He cup her face . And kiss her soft lips for the last time . 

YIN POV 

He suddenly stop . 

I heard footsteps . 

Jong in where are you going ? 

" This will be the last time i met you "

He let my hands go . 

He left . 

I feel like my heart stop beating . My eyes were swollen . Now it starts tearing again. My head is spinning . It hurts so much . Something in me hurts so much . I hold my chest . Is my heart attack coming back . It has been so long since i got one . Last one on 3rd grade . Is it my time already . Wait . This was darker that before . Everything was numb . It's dark ! 

I ran out of breath . And saw something sparkling . Ouch! 

"Yin yin yin yin !! " 

Never thought i'll die like this ..

"No Yin !! " 

sorry for late update T^T i find no time to update . This is a oneshot . And thanks for reading . /THROW HEARTTTSSSSSSSS/ 

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