A night of silence, two young boys shared the annoyig silence of it,,though it was actually a peaceful night, something was annoyingly disturbing the silence...one was being the one annoyed can't catch his dream. but the latter peacefuly trying to get his slumber,,shutting the eyes, counting nonstop to the sheeps that he was imagining but then it won't work...he was actually worried to the other who was sighing nonstop,,

Jr thinking of nothing,,he doesn't know actually what he was thinking right now,,back facing the other who was now in deep sleep, that was what he knows..blinking his eyes many times looking to nowhere due to the dark vision, lights off actually, only the light that comes from the moon outside his glass window was his source of having few shaddows from everything for him to have glance...

Ren, who actually ask the favor of spending the night to his masters room cant have his deep sleep,,it was the time the same as like when he was at Mj's place,,cant sleep the whole night, something was bothering him,,not being worried just like before,but worried that the other who owns the room can't sleep because of him.."am i the reason why he can't sleep? does he can't sleep with someone beside him? few questions bother his sleepy state ..he counted to many sheeps but still useless...

Jr moved slowly,,careful so that he cant wake the boy beside him,,,he get off from the bed, he headed dowstairs towards the kitchen,,,he opened the fridge and grab a can of beer,,sipping it immediately after opening the lid...sitting on the stool of the house bar section and think carefully,,,his actions lately towards the boy was confusing his mind..he never imagined his heart could thump strangely to this person,,he doen't have any idea how to be inlove especially to the same ..not even in his vocabulary that the word love would be included,,he finished the can and headed again to his room, walking and making sounds was smoothly made so that he can't able to wake the boy,,he went to the bed, laying slowly and more careful,,tucking the other side of the blanket to the boy, face became closer an inch, he stared tracing every angel of the other,,perfect, is what is mind commented, the eyes, the nose and the heart-shape lips, he gulped and immediately pull out himself from the other, he turn to the other side, back facing him again as he pat his forehead, somehow being guilty for the other, guilty for having a hidden desire but then he can't just do whatever he wanted,,he was always invited from the other but he needs to endure it,,,,,

Ren sited on the bed when he felt that Jr get out from the room,,hugging his knees and resting his chin on top of it,,,he pouted,,he heard footsteps coming in,,,he immediately lay back down to bed again and hug the pillow he brought with him,pretending to be asleep again,he felt an arm moving towards his side and soon felt a warm blanket wrapped around him but then a warm breath pass through his face,,repeatedly, air coming from someone's nose..he felt a chest thumping to fast bumping to his arm...he felt it but he didn't move,the other pulled out,,

Ren opened his eyes and look at his side and saw the other's back,,he faced the back,,"can't sleep? he uttered lowly in tone,,hesitant,,,

"eo?,,Jr was surprised and shifted a bit from his place, hearing the other spoke all of a sudden...

"im sorry,,i startle you,,ren apologize.

"owhh no,,no need to worry,did i wake you up? jr asked facing the other...

"no,,you didn't i actually can't sleep too..did i made you uncomfortable with your sleep? being with me here...he answered and asked back..

"Jr didn't answer, he just stare to the other...

Their eyes locked,staring closely not blinking for seconds..Ren smiled,,,Jr furrowed not sure if the blonde was smiling or not due to the dark surroundings, because ren was facing back the moon, he can't figured everything properly.

"Jr....ren called softly,,,

"Hmmm..Jr replied simply...

"nothing,,ren answered,,they were silent,,they don't know what to talk...he went closer placing his palm to the other's face after the silence ame to them,,"i can't actually sleep". he said..

"why? Jr questioned..

Ren didn't answer but rather he get closer and closer, nearing his face to jr, not backing away, he touch the other's lips,,jR didn't move,,he shut his eyes,,,Ren flatted again his lips, taking the weakness of him,,,Jr opened his eyes and topped the boy, holding him on waist as ren hold him on the face,,,it was dark that they didn't even know each other's reaction.Jr responded to the kiss, somehow thinking, can he grab this chance? can he really do it? heart race too fast,,mind troubling whether to continue or not until he felt Ren voluntarily parted his lips to give him an entrance, just then he stopped for seconds but lips still touching the edge and felt their own breaths coming from their nose,ren formed a small smile as he cup the other's face again giving a sign to enter and continue, just then jr entered the opened mouth of ren and continue, ren immediatey responded,,the kiss was deepened and became more craving to them...

But then Jr pulled after few minutes of invitation from the blonde,,"im sorry,,he immediately apologize..i~~im really sorry...he repeated and sited face palming himself...

"why? ren asked sitting too facing the boy who was now sitting on his heels kneeling to bed..

"i~~i didn't mean to do that,,,jr said..

"im the one who did it,,jr,,can't you do it? why? is it because i already have with other guy? do you feel disgusted about it? you always avoid me,,avoiding having wih me,,i like it,,you like it too don't you,,i know it,,,Ren uttered lowering his head...

"NO~~~ no....that's not it,,,i just can't do it...Jr lift up his face feeling sorry for being misunderstood,,,

"I'm sorry,,it' just my needs,,i am just thinking only myself,,im sorry,,i think i should go back to my room,,,good night,,,,ren said and run out of the bed,,,

"wa~~~wait~! jr run after him catching him to the wrist.

Ren face him, time stops once again,,Jr steps forward inching Ren's face,,slowly their lips touches again,,,Jr pushed him on the bed,,both fell,,jr towered the boy as they both settled properly on the bed..Jr looked at the boy,,ren stared and slowly pulled the other's head towards his until their lips met again.Jr passiontely kissed the boy and both deepened their kiss sweetly...

Jr trace his kisses towards the blonde's neck him like a sweet candy and goes back to the sweet heart-shape lips and nibbled it with passion and softness as he lift the shirt up revealing the bare stomach,,they both feel it, feel each other's lust.....

Suddenly Jr pulled out again the kiss,,"im sorry i can't go far than this,,not now,,i cant do it now,,there is the right time for this,,"he told the boy as he pulled out but their ody still in contact..,,,

"why..not now.it's all the same, why can't you do it now? ren asked, curious and puzzled...

"I have the reason,,i want to settle everything first,i can't do this quickly like today,,im not ready for this,,you are not ready for this,,,Jr continued as he run his thumb to the latter's wet lips and fix down the lifted shirt..he fell lay on the side staring to the dark ceiling...

"whats your reason.? ren asked...

Jr looked on his side, to ren who was already looking at him already.....he smiled at him and offered his arm for the other to lean the head but ren didn't moved,,he himself place his arm under ren's head and pulled him to his chest,,chin resting the blonde's head, and cuddled the boy,,

Ren felt secured,,warm with the embrace and been cuddled,,he haven't cuddled like this in his entire whole age..he placed his palm to the guy's chest, he went up to the boy,,topped him,,his face rested on the chest and wrapping the arms on the shoulder,,thighs level to jr's thighs..resting softly and peacefully, comfortably,,he shut his eyes...

Jr was a bit worried to the blonde's action but then felt relieved when the boy settled softly on top of him,,,not moving for a moment..30 minutes being on that position, quiet...

"jr...ren called...

"Hmmmm? Jr replied..

"why you didn't kissed me when you wanted to pissed off mj? ren uttered questioning...

"beause i am not mj,,he answered,,,

"is that all? you don't want me to compre you with him? ren questioned,,,

"because i have respect on you...jr said after few seconds of silence before he answered...

"respect? why? ren asked again...

"because you deserve to be respected...you don't deserve the treatment like mj did...jr answered again...

"is it the reason why you can't have with me tonight? respecting me?

"maybe...a simple answer that jr uttered,,it is a safe word that ren coudn't understand but then a safe word to know that this guy couldn't do harsh things to him..or it can be a safe word for not able to determined the boy's mind, or a safe word that willl serve a sign for him to give a trust even just a small portion of it,,,

Ren lift up his head and look up to the guy,,eyes were closed already,,,he crawled up and peck the guy's lips...pulling out...."good night,,he told as he pull himself up..

Jr grab him back to his top,,"let's sleep...good night,,he said and hug the boy back tightly..he pulled up the blanket and wrap it around them,,,Ren just look up..."Sleep now,,its too late already...he added reminding the boy...

"sleep on top of you? ren said,,

"yes,,jr replied..

"are you sure? is it ok? ren asked again,,im heavy,,,he added pouting.

"no,,you are light,,it's cold,,you warmed my body,,so sleep now,,,,jr said as he tightened more his grip to the other..

"eo...arrrasseo..ren response and rested his head to the chest comfortably

Jr brush ren's hair,,brushing it until he fell in his slumber...he kissed the boy on the top of the head and he finally get his sleep too..

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The next morning,,ren woke up as his alarm on his phone starts to annoy him,,he was alone,,he wander around the corner, he rubbed his eyes when he didn't found any trace of the guy he was looking at..he stood up and reach his phone to turned off the alarm.,,he poke the screen and his alarm died...he walk outside the room and headed down,,,he heard the guy he was looking talking to the phone while facing the garden that was visible from the living room...

"yes,,he is fine,,it's all settled then,,let's just meet then,,you can check it on your own,,Jr, told to the one behind the call,,ren heard it clearly,,seems the other haven't notice his presence....

"now my job is done..all you have to do is come here and see him,,meet him right? jr taked again and laughed...ok,,see you soon,,,,he said and hang the call.....

"who was that? were you talking about me? whose that one who wanted to meet me? ren asked as jr turn around and both met face to face...

"just,,it' nothing...jr denied...

"Are you~~~ ren panted like he run fast on the oval...breaths became heavy,,,,

"ren..it's not what you think,,,jr said taking the boy in his arms..

"you will sell me to other do you?? you're making money out of me? just like mj did? maybe it is the reason why you can't have with me..because you are preparing me for your clients..are you? ren frantically mutter,,,suddenly felt startled and uneasy,,,

"No!!it's not...not like that...i won't sell you to others...jr told him,,,assuring him but ren was already in hysterical state....

"Liar!!!!! liar!!!!! liar!!!!! you are all the same,,you are all lier,,you treat me like goods to sell of...you Jr,,ren continuously screamed and wiggle like a crazy one..

"ren stop it,,,ren!!! listen!!! jr tried to calm him down but ren is not stopping...he pulled him and cup the face, listen to me,,,

"no!!! i hate~~,,,ren shouted ut was cut..

Jr cant calm him down, he pulled him into a kiss to shut him,,ren wiggle and struggled more on the kiss to break,,jr didn't let him be free,,,he deepened the kiss until the boy calmed down and ended up hugging to him,,,

Ren sniff as he settled his arms around the guy....he cried out loud as if he was scared and afraid of something..

"stop now,,don't cry,,,you just misunderstood me,,,ssshhhh don't cry,,jr consoled,,

*sniff**

"sshhhh,,,stop...jr hug him back tighly,,,while trying his best to calm him totally...then finally the boy stopped and soften..

Jr led the boy upstairs to the room,,you need to take your shower now,,we need to go to school..he told the boy as he wiped the pinkish face of the blonde that was totally messed up with tears,,,,go to the shower room and let's meet downstairs after,,don't think about what you heard a while ago,,we're not talking about you,,he added and take the boy to the bathroom,,needed to lie to make the boy calm,,leaving him there..he sighed, he scratched his head and hit his temple,,,

Just few minutes later,,both met downstairs with their proper uniform,,,and soon headed to their school, again ren's sighed deeply before entering,,Jr hold the hand and walked inside,,confidently, jr walked holding the other's hand,,they walk hand in hand,,while audiences just look at them,,and friends also wondering why,,but just kept silent,soon jr will open about it to them,,of course baekho can't wait but beause of aron and minhyun his mouth was shut,,they can wait until the two will talk about what is happening,,,they can't just interfere to Jr's any decision or move, just like minhyun is happy and relieved that his friend, ren, was safe with jr...though he haven't get ren's trust again,,,but he was still hoping for it..all he needed to do right now is understand the boy..no matter what,they are friends, bestfriends and he was the only friend ren had,,,

Mj, on the other hand, glared sharply to the two especially to jr, his great rival...and great opponent...Jr glared back as he gave a teasing smirk and squeezed ren's hand softly while walking towards the classroom..while ren's walked following the man holding his hand...

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this is the update,im sorry i think i cant make two updates since i had a sudden appointment on my vacation so it is impossible to make two updates maybe but i will try after i update My Better Half...