The class ended,,,ren lazily drag his feet towards the door of their classroom,,didn't even look at the boy sitting next tohim,,,,he turn his look at minhyun once and force a smile before totally exiting the classroom,,,Jonghyun just froze to his seat,,he lowered his head and face palm himself,,,,

The moment ren disappeared from the inside of the classroom..a deep voice spoke to him,,,,"hey ren,,how are you,,been a long time since a talked to you,,i'm sorry i was so busy with something else,,,,Mj came to him,,,

Ren looked up to the boy, he didn't change his expression at all,,,Mj carressed his face as usual,,the touch of him,the teasing touch of him,,,Ren tilted his head a bit to avoid that touch,,,but the boy came closer,,,

"Still mad at me? i'm sorry,,im sincere this time,,,can't we be friends again?,,,and why jr isn't with you? he said and asked peeking inside the classroom,,,,

"none of your business,,,,ren answered with his cold nonchalant tone,,,,

"wohhhh,,,ok,,,look,,i'm trying to be good to you,,,mj raise a voice,,,

"he don't deserve you being good to him,,,,so get lost,,,,two guys came,,its minhyun and the other who shove mj's hand away from ren was Aron,,,

"alright alright,,i lost,,,mj said throwing his both hands in the air,,,,

"are you alright..aron ask as he lifted the boy's chin,,,

"choi minki,,,don't ever go without us again,,,don't make me worried again,,,,minhyun cried out with his wrinkled brows,,,

"i'm sorry,,i just want to be alone....ren replied,,

"You will not go alone,,never,,do you understand,,,,minhyun told with his gritted teeth,,,

"But,,,you have your own life,,i can't always be with you or stick myself to you like a gum, i cant just interfere on your plans,,look minhyun,,i love you and i thank you for being with me,,but aron deserves to have enough time from you,,,,the blonde said  feeling guilty for taking all minhyun's time and not able to give some moment to his now boyfriend...

"i't alright princess,,we can have our time if you reach home safe,,,,aron said with his smile to lessen the boy's burden in his heart,,

"but~~

"no buts princess,,let's go home,,we will drop you home so that your bestfriend will have a good time to me then,,,,aron cut the boy and said while placing his arm around minhyun's shoulder and threw a smile to the blonde,,,

Ren bit his inside cheeks while looking down his feet,,,,he wanted to rebut again but he can't,,he will just definitely be cut by them over and over again,,,,he shut his lips and waited for the others to speak again but no one had spoke, instead he felt his wrist grabbed by his bestfriend and motion him to walk,,,he followed while minhyun clung his arm unto ren's arm,,they walk at the crowded hallway since it's the end of the class,,as they exited the main door,,,and headed to the parking lot near the gate, they saw baekho with jr and sungjae,,,seems the three are conversing with something,,,the three look at them,,,

Jr tried to lock his eyes to the other, ren, but ren never look at him,,it has been two days since they both didn't had a proper talk or something,even a glance, ren hadn't given to jr,,,,Jr is worried already,,,Is ren really serious from their break up? a question from the boy that cannot be delivered to ren again,,afraid to hear some break up words repeatedly like a broken cd,,but with the situation now,,with the action ren had showed, it seems they are over already, he wants to convince his mind that it's over but his heart never says like that,,, he doesn't want to believe it either that's why he can't accept the fact,,,,,he can't let go of the blonde that easily,,,he loves him,,,

"Hey!!! a shout from the gate echoed to their ears,,,all of them look to where the voice came....and the silence had some noise now,,

"Eoo!!!ren formed an o-shape to his lips, surprise to the person he doesn't even expect to see,, he gze to everyone and stopped to the boy on the gate again,,,

"Hi ren!!!the guy, seyong greeted and waved with his bestest smile,,,and his remrkable salute,,,

"Hi,,what are you doing here,,,ren asked,,the awkward silent moment had broken because of seyong's appearance, though no one had greeted back in words, rather they all just bowed except to jr, jr who jsst being an observant to the change of mood of ren since the stranger boy came,,,ren and seyong voice were the only noise that breaks the ice,,,th other's just ing their gazes the two, turning their eyes to whoever talk,,

"I'm here to fetch you,,can i? wanna go out?,,,seyong answered back and turn to others,,can i borrow him for a while? he asked with hs pleading facial act,,,he manage to ask not knowing what is happening,,not even a single idea,,,,,,

"well...if you promise to take him home at 8,,,minhyun interrupt before minki had delivered his answer with his raise brows,,,

"that's all fine,,it's only 4 so we still have 4 hours,,seyong said while looking at his watch,,,

Ren just smiled a small one, Jr just look at the blonde, keeping his eyes lock to th pretty face of the boy and shifted to the guy seyong,,,but no words came out from his mouth,,does he have still the right to opposed to that idea? does he can still hold ren's neck, does he cn manage ren's time still,,can he say no because it's too dangerous if the boy will gone at night? of course there is still, though they already broken up, he is still the legal guardian of the blonde not minhyun, not aron, not baekho, not even his parents,,,he is the sole guardin of the blonde,,but to think of it,,he is sure that ren will just contradict him, will just ignore him,,,his mind ws debating of what to do,,will he speak with his opinon, will he answer in behalf of ren since he is the only prson who will know what's best for the boy or rater just keep silent and let the boy gone now with that stranger he don't even trust,,,?,,

"So? seyong waited for the answer as he winked to the blonde,,,,

"ren sighed,,,alright then,,,he answered,,,,

Seyong took the wrist of the blonde suddenly and walk him outside the gate,,they entered a cab,,,since he has no car,,,he was just having his vacation in the first place and soon he'll be leaving the country again to continue his study to where they live,,,,

Jr felt sinking and sinking,,,why he is ignored all the time, why he can't say anything he wants now,,why he can't protect the boy now,he saw a while ago that mj approach his princess but he didn't even manage to move fom his seat until minhyun and aron decided to go and save the boy..

"Jr let's go home,,,sungjae spoke as soon as ren and seyong disappeared from their sight,,,

"Jr can we talk? minhyun  hold jr's wrist before sungjae had drag him away,,,Jr look at minhyun, puzzled,,,They both walk few more steps away from othrs especially with sungjae,,,

"Minhyun,,jr talked first,,,

"No jr,,let me tlk first,,,minhyun cut his friend,,,what's happening,,? what happen to ren? to you? why did both of you broke up? you promised me to preotect and hold unto him,,,he confronted,,,

"I know,,he decided it,,,i don't know what to do,,,he didn't listen to me,,he told me to go to sungjae,,,he's throwing me already...minhyun~~~ jr paused and heaved his deepest sigh,,,

"Jr,,you chose sungjae, aren't you,,you can break up with sungjae and choose ren,,,,minhyun continued,,,

"I love ren,,i love him i love~~~ jr bit his lips,,,he hates this emotion,,he hates crying,,he cried once for sungjae,,he doesn't want to repeat it,,,he doesn't want to loose his love but sungjae threatened him,,he is araid because he isn't prepared to what his parents will say if they found out he has a special interaction with his step-mother's son,,

''You love ren but you love sungjae too,,,,,,,minhyun told,,

"no..i love ren,,sungjae~~~ sungjae,,,i know i've loved him before,,,but~~ i'm sorry i can't explain it to you,,,,jr aid in the end and ust turn his back,,,he went straight into hi car and sungjae just followed...

"Jr!!!! minhyun called few times but the car was gone,,,

"It's alright,,,just let them cool first,,,aron comforted,,

"But..that seyong,,can we trust him? seems ren trusted him already,,,that easily, come to think of it,,before ren trusted us, it took so long long years,,,how come he trusted that boy whom he mt jut few days ago...baekho spoke,,,

"I don't know,,maybe he wants to have someone else beside him,,,and seyong seems to be trusted,,,,don't worry ren is too cautious to anyone,,,we can't really tell if he really trust that boy now,,minhyun answered, assuming,,,

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Ren and seyong dropped at  a restaurant,,,seyong brought him to a fine dining restaurant owned by his uncle,,,he wanted to make some memory of him and the boy together,,he admit it already,,he fell for him at first sight, but he can't confess,,,they knew each other in just few days,,,he needed more time to let the boy knows him better but his time is not enough, he is eving again in a week, so he is planning to confess today and take the risk,,,,if ren will reject him, it's fine,,he can forget it but it is better f ren will say yes...hopefully it turns out good,,

"Wahhh..seyong,,this is awesome,,this is reallyan expensive one,,,ren amused while roaming his eyes around,,,but wait,,why did you bring me here,,this is an expensive place,,,he said ready to step back and leave the place,,,

"No..it's alright,i arady reserved a table,,and i had discount, i know the owner of this restaurant,,,trust me,,,i just wantt o treat you out,, and i really need to tell you something,,,seyong held ren's wrist to stop him from maybe running away?

"owhh,,i see,,then what do you want to tell me,,is that an important one? if not just don't tell me,,,ren pouted and trace every corner of the place again,,,

Seyong just chuckled at how cute the blonde talked and that pout,,his heart melted like an ice cream in a cone,,let's go i there and eat first,,you might not able to eat if i wil tell you soon,,,seyong added in a joke,,seyong pulled the wooden chair with a perfect engraved flower design on the arm rest when they reach the reserved table,,,here,,,the guy said motioning the boy to seat,,ren smiled and seated,,he was like a perfect lady having a perfect date with the perfect gentleman to the most perfect restaurant,,some other waitress and some customers inside were looking at them,,ren felt it,,some eyes were loooking at their direction but he ignored it,,,

"Thank you,,the blonde said after he settled himself from the chair seyong had pulled and pushed for him,,,

Seyong sat across him,,he lean his arms on the wooden table for two with the perfect engraved flower on the top and covered by a glass on it,,crossed while fingers tapping to the glass...staring to the blonde, his blink can count twice every five minutes,,,he was mezmerized how simple the blonde is yet look so pretty, prettier than those girls having a date in the same restaurant,,,how perfect the lips are, the nose, the eyes even the skin is too perfect for him as a boy,,,

"what? anything on my face? ren blushed,,and manage to sk,,his eyes can't be settles in one direction,,he felt his cheeks burning in flames but then he felt really cold,,,

"Tskk,,,don't be embarrassed,,,i mean,,you're pretty,,i just want to look closely on your face,,,i want to memorize it,, every parts of it,,,,seyong laughed and said,,,scratching his nose with his thumb,,,

"don't stare at me,,,shall we eat now? i'm hungry already,,ren sid trying to change the topic...

"the food will come soon,,i already ordered beforehnd,,,,seyong announced and soon the food came,,,

''Hi sir,,,here's your food,,,enjoy your date,,,hwaiting!!! the waitress said and threw his fist in the air before she left,,,,

"Date? re crumple his brows,,,

"Don't mind her,,seyong said and gesturd the other to eat,,

"seems you were popular in this place,,,are you always take your dates here? ren questioned with a confused face,,

"No...you're the first...just eat or else i won't able to bring you home on time,,,i'm sure your dearest friend will nag at me when he see me again,,so please,i love myself and i still want to see you next time,,,,seyong told manage to shift the topic to another,,

''Ahhh,,minhyun? yeah he's a nagger,,he's like my own mom you know,,but i love him,,he is the only bestfriend i have,,well yeahh i have the others too,,ren response with his brightest smile talking about his bestfriend,,,

"That,,jr..? jr right? your brother,, he don't like me,,am i right? eyong opened another topic but this makes ren sank his face and transformed in a gloomy face,,,

"Just don't mind him,,,ren answered,,he dig down his food on the plate and cut a smll ortion of the meat and put it in his mouth,,he chew,,wahhh this is so delicious,,try it,,ren complimented trying to be cheerful as he can,,but hearing jr's nme,,his mood was totally ruined,,,not ruined,,he just made some thoughts again,,,he misses the guy,,,he wants to take back his words he gave the last time but he can't,,he didn't mean the break up but that is the best way he had thought that time,,he somewhat regret it but he can't take it back anymore,,,he pouted,,,,

"Are you alright? i'm sorry,,i didn't mean to ruin your day,,i just don't know what happen or is there something happened between your brother,,i'm sorry,,,seyong apologize immediately as soon as he notice the boy's changed in facial expression when he mentioned jr,,,he thought that there is omething going wrong beween the two,,,

'I'ts ok,,don't be sorry,,let's just eat,,ok? ren said and brought back his bright smile again,,,,he doesn't want to ruin their dinner anyway,,seyong prepared this for him,,,

They ate while chatting happily,,,seyong making jokes tht makes ren laughed nd smiled,,just after few moments ren felt an stinging pain in his head,,he knows he was thinking deeply a while ago but it was too strange that his head always attack him with pain lately,,,he felt a little dizzy when he laughed too hard while his head moving along with his laugh,,he immediately grab his bag and took out the bottle with his medicine,,,he swallowed it and cover his face with his palm,,,

"are you alright? whats this? seyong got worried and just don't know wht to do so he gave the boy a glass of water when he saw him taking a pill on the bottle,,,he lift the bottle that was on the table and checked,,,you're sick? he asked,,

"i'm sorry,,,,give me tht,,ren said trying to ignore the question,,,,

"wait,,you have,,i mean,,you have a~~ seyong didn't manage to continue,,he bit his lower lip and suddenly a tear formed in his side eyes,,,

''seyong,,i'm fine,,,look give me that,,,ren said forcinga smile but he notice the latter being emotional all of a sudden,,they new each other or just not even a week but why thi guy acting like he knows what is happeing to him,,,

"Ren,,i know this knid of medicine,,,,seyong talked in almost whisper, his tears were threatening to come down his cheeks,,,,,,

"That was just for my headache so lese give me that,,,ren said, doing hi best to snatch the bottle from seyong,,,

"This aren't for just a simple headache,,,ren i know this,,my sister took this kind of medicine before,,,don't lie to me,,seyong blurted out,,,

"seyong please,,give me those,,,people at staring at us already,,,,ren said looking around,,it is already embarrasing him,,he stood up and run outside when he can't reach the bottle from the guy,,,

"Ren!!seyong shouted calling him but ren continue in his race,,,he race his feet too to reach the blonde,,and finally the blonde stopped at the outside, waiting for  taxi to come but unlucky him, there wasn't any available taxi he had called,,,

"let's call it a day seyong,,,,im tired,i need to rest,,,,ren told the boy,,,he squeezed hi eyes and hold his head,,,he felt the pain still though he took a pill already,,,it was even more painful today,,he fell and his sight becam blurred,,,

"ren~~ seyong catch the ren when he fell,,he called the taxi who just dropped some passengers infront of the restaurant,,,he cautiously took the boy inside and told the driver to go to the nearest hospital,,,

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Jr and sungjae finally reach home,,both didnt talk any,,sungjae felt suffocated already with the silence of his boyfriend,,he immediately opened the door and slam it to close, he sped up inside,,,

Jr just burried his face on the steering wheel and the scene when the stranger walk with the blonde keeps repeating in his miind,,how ren just smiled easily to that boy,,how he just agreed to go out with that guy without thinking twice,,,he can't do anything but to hit the steering wheel with his bald fist,,,he didn't feel the hurt on his fist anymore,,he lift up his face,,his vision gets blurry after all,,he exited the car like a drunken one but the truth,,he felt so weak,,he didn't ate properly lately,,,he always ignore the meal,,he always skip his dinner or someimes take only few spoonful of rice and then leave the table,,,ren doesn't know it because he always spend time with minhyun since he said the breaking up to the lover,,,

Jr fell on his knees on the way to the door,,he can still sense but it is too blurred already,,,he felt some noise in panic,,,he heard voices calling his name,,,he felt he was lift up but he is numb already, few seconds later he totally passed out and his vision is already dark,,,,,,,

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"Ren~~~ seyong keeps calling the boy who was now laying on the stretcher and pushed by the nurses,,,,he plans to confess but it turned out finding out the case of the other,,,"He is sick" why all of the people,,why again? seyong prayed in his thought,,

"Jr,,,wake up~~ the father called out and the step mother keep shaking the boy who was now on the stretcher and was pushed too by the nurses,,,they needed to stopped when the emergency room was infront of them,,,

Two people loving each other,,two different persons, two different personalities yet their heart match togethr, but then they still manage to hurt each other,,,

One decided to sacrifice for the sake of another,,one just needed to sacrifice to protect the relationship and with those decisions love affects even more,,and it led to hurting one another,,letting go is easy to say but it is not easy to accept,,,

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...sorry for long hiatus,,i actualy lost in this story,,,but then here is the update,,hoping to see any comment,,,maybe i'll end this soon,,