As the wind blew by and whistle the crispy orange dry leaves a soft faint, cries of heavenly wind would brush against each person. Some people love this type of weather, they love the mid-fall air. They say it has a romantic feeling to it, as if it was in a sad romantic movie. Of course those people could just be sappy. But as for one girl, she can’t help but disagree with everyone else’s idea, it’s a trait of hers, always opposing everyone. Finding something against what they believe in and play a travesty against it.
“I hate fall” A girl with long silky dark brown hair, muttered under her soft breath.
She shivered under all the wind blowing outside. If she hates fall, imagine her in winter. Then again, she likes winter. Many had questioned her on why she liked winter and not fall, they were basically the same thing right? Well to her, unlike everyone else, she finds fall the most unromantic season. Why? ‘Simply because it is’, if you put it in her words. Many would find her eccentric but she didn’t really give a damn. Being ordinary is beyond her world.
Well then again, they don’t know the reason onto why she hates fall. It’s not simply because she just randomly hates it, there’s a meaning to it. One would probably the many break ups that she’s had in the season of fall. Sure people don’t really get all emotional about their break ups after many years had passed….but, how can you recover when the person who had asked to marry you break up with you in fall? Well to make up for all the sob stories and to make long story short, that season reminded her that there is no such thing as everlasting love. It’s taboo in her dictionary.
“Why are you being cranky again?” Her mother would ask her as she walked in the house. Anyone can tell that the younger female that had walked in had a bad mood just by watching her expression.
“It’s fall, I hate fall. Why can’t it be spring?” The younger latter would whine.
“Because it’s the way that it is.” Her mother simply replied with much gentleness in her voice.
The latter sighed once more. Why does it have to be fall?
“Tell you what, why don’t you freshen up and I’ll cook your favorite food. Sinigang na hipon.”
Just hearing those sweet words of that delightful soup made her mouth water. So without hesitation, she ran upstairs and got herself dolled up. Actually not really, she just took a quick shower and threw on whatever she could find.
As she walked out of her room, she noticed one room close to hers that was slightly open. Gingerly she walked towards the room and was about to close it when something caught her eyes. The latter opened the door with much curiosity on her brown orbs. She took a few steps inside the room, it smelled like soft lavender perfume with a bit of sun smell. A smile crept to her face as she remembered on where she had a sniff of that fragrance. Oh how it gave her such a serene, tranquil feeling. With a beautiful smile plastered on her face, she continued to walk to the messy bedside. When she finally got there, she stared at the thing that caught her eyes, there were papers seeping out of the disarrayed pillow.
“Huh…I wonder what these are…” She whispered as she continued to stare at it.
Well she could have took the paper out and examine it, but then she remembered that the place she was in was not her room. So as the latter turned to leave, her hand accidentally knocked over the pillow a little causing it to slide easily to the floor and revealing letters upon letters under it. With a surprised gasp, she hurried and picked up the letters and the pillow.
“Why are these letters under the pillow?” She wondered as she tried to pick them all up.
As she picked them up, she saw a letter with her name on it. Once more curiosity filled her eyes as she took it on her palm and read it.
Remember when we were in middle school there was a black out in the school because of a storm? I was really worried about you when that happened but I was not allowed to leave the classroom. So instead of asking if I can go to you again, I sneaked out and went to your classroom. (Sorry, I told you that they let me go~). When I got there you were looking at your table. I remembered walking to you and flicking your forehead and scolding you for being so air headed. You didn’t know it back then but I came to your classroom because I was worried and scared that something might have happened to the girl I love. And oh god was I thankful to see you staring off the space because it showed that the airheaded girl that I love was ok.
Dara tilted her head to the side this letter is a year old, knowing the fact that this year is April 2, 2066. If this letter was meant for her, it should have been given to her right? But that’s the thing, this is the first time she’s seen this letter. Not to mention the fact that she doesn’t remember that whole middle school event. For all she knows, her middle school never had a black out. Once more she took another letter and read it.
You’ve seen every part of me (literally). Every embarrassing there is about me, you know. Every little details that I do unconsciously, you know. Even the things I didn’t want to tell you, you knew those also! Aish, woman why do you have to know all of those about me? It sucks since I want to be ‘mysterious’ in front of you, also be cool looking! Instead you know everything about me! Like that time when we were already living in together and I thought you left so I continued to sing ‘Dara Daraling, Dara Daraling, My beautiful Dara Daraling’ while dancing in the kitchen with only my boxers on, yeah that time remember? You randomly came back and saw my embarrassing routine in the morning, aish!
….but I guess…..i’m ok with that. I guess I’m somewhat glad that you know everything about me. That way, you’ll know that I trust you with all my heart. And I do trust you with all my heart, because I love you.
The latter reading the letter finally got the gist of what the letters were. With her facial expression growing soft, she continued to read the letters.
I remembered when we were in high school I think it was our sophomore year. All our friends teased us that we would end up together. I of course loved the idea, but knowing you and your crush to that Minho guy (bleeecckk hehe, baby your taste in men in high school were terrible, I mean seriously? He can pass as a gay!) Anyway, since you had a crush on Minho at that time, you denied it and said it will never happen. They said that when we get married, they will laugh and tease us at our wedding day. And guess what? They did.
When they say that you’re slow with things, they really are saying the truth. Don’t get mad at me now, I have proof! (Mwahahaha!) Just like the fact that I gave you this random balloon in high school, I thought you would have taken a guess since it had a question mark on the balloon plus the fact that it was prom in a couple of weeks when I gave you that balloon. I thought you would have known what the balloon was for! But turns out, your brother Sanghyun had to accidentally pop it before you can actually find the ring and the note that says ‘Will you go to prom with me?’ If it weren’t for Sanghyun then you wouldn’t even have known I was asking you to prom! Aigo…..but nonetheless….. I’m still so glad that you said yes to me.
P.S You looked really beautiful on your white dress when we went to prom by the way.
It’s Valentines today jagiya! ‘Which one is your favorite valentine day gift?’ I remember you asking me that once, but to be honest I love all of them. I asked you the same question and you actually gave me an answer. It kinda disappointed me since it was the simple gift that I gave to you (Ya, why didn’t you pick the expensive valentine gifts? Aigo!) You said your favorite valentine gift was when you walked downstairs and you saw post-it all over the kitchen counter with cute sayings on them, the fact that you liked the post-it more than the expensive necklace that I gave you afterwards of that whole event sorta made me disappointed. I wanted you to like all my presents, specially the expensive ones. But then again, you were never really the girl who liked material things (so why did I buy you all of those things again? Hehe jk). I, being a fashionista, learned to be simple because of you. I learned to enjoy the simple things more than the Gucci and Prada I used to buy (Wow, I sound like a girl). I guess….one of the things that I love about you is your simplicity. Just your simplicity is pure perfection.
Have you ever felt that time when you’re so devastated? Like you know you’ll never find that thing that you lost? Yeah…that feeling sucks right? I felt like that when I lost my wallet. Hey, don’t think that way jagiya! I wasn’t looking for it because of my credit cards or my money in it, I was actually looking for it because it had something way valuable than those. I remember back in our college days, looking for that stinking wallet for hours and hours in the school. I was so scared that I had lost it but turns out it was at your house. I remembered you asking why I was looking for it so badly, I told you it was a secret but I can tell you now. Inside that wallet is the first letter you’ve ever written me and the first ticket stub on our first date….and even till now…..I have that letter and that ticket stub.
You know sometimes being best friends for a long time can be such a pain? Especially being YOUR best friend, why? Because whenever you had your periods I’m the one that would go all the way to the market in 1 in the morning, buying a box of tampons, chocolate, cough medicine, and tissues. My reputation as a high school boy at that time was completely ruined with how much times you had to send me to the market. I think the people at that store knows me by ‘1am-tampon-boy’ Aish! But…even though I had to give up my reputation (and my sleep)……I had always wished that instead of you being hurt with your cramps and pms…I wished that it was me who was getting hurt instead. If I could, I would take all the painful feelings away from you and inflict it on me. That’s why I’m saying sorry now if ever in the past I hurt you. If ever I made you cry. If ever I made you want to slap me so hard for my stupid doings, jagiya I am sorry. I’m sorry for every painful things we’ve been through….but always know this, no matter what the obstacle is, I would pass it and find my way back to you.
We were a couple for a long time but I’ve never told you these because I thought you’d make fun of me. I’ll tell you now, every time I hear your voice, I get butterflies. Every time you say you love me, it melts my heart. Every time you smile, I feel my world become brighter. Every time you and I have skin contact, I feel my knees become week. Every time you kiss me, I feel myself out of breath. We’ve been together for so long yet every day I wake up in the morning, it feels like the very first day. Saranghae Jagiya.
Hello Jagiya, today I was remembering all our stupid fights when we were in college. I can’t believe we fought over who has a nicer butt! Megan Fox or Jessica Alba, of course it’s Jessica Alba, but you kept saying Megan Fox aigo…But one specific fight still lingers my memory quite clearly. I remembered us fighting over something really stupid and I screamed out: ‘What do you want from me?! ‘ You looked at me with teary eyed and gave this reply that made me forget about the anger, about the fight, about our stupid petty argument, you replied to me ‘Your last name…’ and at that moment, I knew that no matter how much we fought, no matter how much we argued, I will forever remember that moment and forget about our arguments and fights and just say sorry and tell you how much I love you. Why? Simply because you’ll be my wife.
When I was in high school, I remember always waiting for the clock of 11:11. I would wait and wish until it comes true. My wish would always be the same it would always be ‘I wish Dara is mine’ (either that or a new game hehe jk). In college, you texted me one night and told me to make a wish, us being a couple already, simply made me reply ‘Why? I already have you’ It’s true, I wish for nothing else but you on my side.
Jagiya! Do you remember how I confessed to you? No? Aigo, bad jagiya! I’ll remind you in high school you borrowed my calculator. Being such an awesome person (geek), I typed in: CAN YOIU FIGURE OULT THOE SEVCREET PHRYASE IN TOHIS SENTUENCE? I thought that since you were so clueless, you wouldn’t get the meaning to it. But then you went to my house that day and kissed me. So I guess we’re both geeks huh?
Kekeke~ Yesterday I asked you if you remember how I confessed to you. This time, do you remember when we first met? No? Aigo, Jagiya your memory is really bad aigooooo. Jk ~. Here I’ll tell you again, we met because of your shoelace being untied in kindergarten. I remembered having to tie it for you and you giving me that warm smile, ever since then we’ve become best friends. Well…until I fell in love with you in 5th grade and ended up being awkward around you most of the time. Other than that we were pretty close huh? Want to know a secret?
I still have that school boy crush on you, my dear wifey.
Today, I thought about the little things that you do. Of course it’s unconscious but it’s really cute. I remembered how your ears would turn pink whenever you’re embarrassed. Like that time when my sister Dami came up to you and told you that I had your picture as my background on my phone and always scream out ‘Look at this beauty, I love her!’ Of course you’d end up spanking me since Dami would end up teasing us. But…to be honest I didn’t care if the whole world knew how much I love you and if they tease us forever. I just want to show you that I’m proud to say how much I love you.
Yesterday I told you that I didn’t mind telling the whole world that I love you. I just remembered that you told me something that relates to that line. You told me once that if I love you, I’d scream it and tell the whole world. Instead I whispered it to you, I saw the confused look on your face when I did that. You asked me ‘Why did you whisper it to me?’ I smiled to you and replied, ‘You are my world. And I just told my world how much I love her’
Jagiya, even now you’re still my world. Saranghae.
Merry Christmas Wifey Jagiya! Today I heard our song. I couldn’t help but remember how we got it. I remembered going to your friend’s 18th birthday party. You said that the first slow song would be our song. Well knowing the generation where kids drink, have sex, and do drugs at that time, I knew for a fact that she wouldn’t play a slow song on a part with more than 100 kids invited. So when I saw your upset face, I took you out and danced with you under the rain. Today it was raining jagiya, today I danced to our song.
It’s summer already! I should be happy, our relatives asked me to go swimming with them but I said no because I was feeling…um down. Yeah, I feel down today, maybe even gloomy. Probably because of the memories I remembered of you getting so many fan boys. I remembered in middle school I was going to ask you to go to the movies with me, I wrote something on a piece of paper and tried to give it to you, but instead the teacher saw it and read it in front of the class. The teacher saw the initials on it and instead of you thinking it was me, you thought it was Goon-Dong! I knew I shouldn’t have put GD as my initials aigo. But that’s not all, you actually said yes to him and you dated him for 2 years! Aish, do you know how heartbroken I was when you told me that you two were official? Even so, I kept my mouth shut and continued to love you from afar. When you found out he cheated on you, I wanted to kill him but I know you wouldn’t want that either so I just stayed by your side. See, this is what you get for not loving me earlier. If you remembered that my nickname was GD, you could have went to a date with me in middle school rather than going with that monkey face Goon-dong. Aigo *pouts*
I noticed that I mostly write the things I do for you. This letter I’ll tell you how much you’ve changed me. First of all, I remembered that one time when I was almost expelled from our school because they thought that I had copied someone during an exit exam. I was pretty down at that time even though I kept saying I’m fine, I knew you could see right through me. That day you went to my house, we ate together downstairs and you said you had to go to the bathroom. I remembered that the bathroom downstairs was acting retarded so you went to the upstairs bathroom. When you got back we continued eating. After you had left and when I went to my room I saw a sticky note on my desk saying “I love you!” We weren’t together at that time yet so it made my heart skip a beat. Just your small note made me pass my dark ages.
I also remember the time when I had to go to the hospital (we were together at that time already keke) and check my heart monitor since it was acting weird. It felt weird having wires stuck to my chest, I told you that they had to do check-ups on me that day. I remembered you sending me a picture with computer wires stuck to you with tape on and a long coat, you said on the text ‘Don’t worry Jagiya! I’m a patient too! Don’t pass out~’ Just that text made me forget that I was in a hospital. That picture made me smile the whole day. Jagiya, I hope that you know that everything you do is beautiful. Everything about you is beautiful. And even if I don’t say thank you, please know that everything you do helps me throughout the day.
Today I went to the grocery store with Da-Jing I remember helping you out of the car whenever we go to the groceries. Also I remembered something else while I was walking pass the carrots. I remember sticking carrots up my nose and making you laugh until you cried. Of course we had to buy the carrots right after but seeing you laugh beautifully like that, I’d buy every carrot there is in the world just to see you laugh that hard. Seeing you smile is the best view I’ve seen in my life.
Aigo, mianhe jagiya. Today I tried to hack your computer, but I am thankful for doing that. It gave me a big smile when I saw that your password hint was ‘My Darling’. I typed in my name and I was able to log on. Saranghae jagiya!
Guess what? We went to Lotte World today! Jealous? Heheh you should! It was really fun even though I couldn’t go to most of the ride anymore. While I was there I remembered our 50th anniversary. We went to many rides and laughed together the whole day. Our kids were away and we celebrated our anniversary. Don’t tell the kids but I sorta cried when we went to Lotte World today. I was just so happy .
Dara smiled with all the bittersweet memories. As she picked up another paper, she read it with her heart slowly breaking.
…..It’s been a long agonizing 2 weeks since you were taken away from me. I was looking through my old things and I stumbled upon your first letter to me. It came to me then that I’ve never written you a letter, not even once. Today, I decided to write letters to you every day and hope to God that he’d be able to give it to you up there. Jagiya, if ever I’ve not showed you how much I love you, if ever I’ve not shown you how much you mean to me, please forgive me. Please know how much I truly love you. How much I want you by my side every time of the day. I’ll be lying if I say I won’t miss you. Jagiya, I’ve known you since we were in kindergarten. At that time I did not know what love is, I did not know what crushes were, all I knew was to play and become your friend. But if I had known back then in kindergarten, I would have told you how much I love you. If I had known back in kindergarten what being married is, I would have asked you then and there for your hand in marriage. I had a checklist of things I wanted to do together with you.
I want to start a beautiful relationship with you that we can both enjoy
I want us to understand that our relationship will not be perfect but we will make it work no matter what.
I want us to hold each other close and whisper through the night-pledging our solemn love to each other.
I want us to be each other’s philosopher and give advices to each other even if we don’t agree.
I want us to be best friends and be lovers at the same time.
I want us to have a beautiful family
I want to grow old with you.
You’re my first and last love. Jagiya……saranghae….
The younger female’s sobs continued to flow as she read the context. How many years has it been since her grandmother who she was named after, died? Has it been 3 years?
If she were able to guess how many letters there are under the pillow, she would take a guess of over 2000 letters. As she continued to sob, she picked up all the letters and placed it back under the pillow, some she placed under the bed along with all the other letters that her grandfather wrote for her dear grandmother.
At that moment, she noticed that it wasn’t because of the season that made her heart break. It wasn’t the season’s fault on why they broke up with her. She just met a few jerks, but that won’t mean that she won’t meet the right guy.
“Dara! Soups ready!” Her mother called her as she finished putting the final letter under the pillow.
But before she went down, she took a paper and wrote something on it before placing it on top of the pillow.
I love you, so much.
Q: So what happened?
A: Jiyong and SanDara have been married for a long time, they had a daughter named Da-jing [also had another daughter but I didn't put that there] Da-jing named her first daughter Dara. When the granddaughter dara went to her grandpa's room, she saw the letters and read them.
Q: How come the letters are all jumbled up, it's not in order?
A: It was meant to be like that. Since Dara dropped the letters, she jumbled it up and read whatever letter there was.
Q: Is Jiyong dead too?
A: No, he's just not in the room LOL~ That's why in the end Dara placed a letter there, to let her grandfather know that even though her grandmother is dead, her grandmother still loves him very much.
Q: The letter that Granddaughter Dara placed on the pillow, does this mean she's in love with Jiyong?
A: Oh god no! That's incest! LOL, she basically placed that letter there to make her grandfather feel better. Plus, she felt like she had to do it, for her grandmother and grandfather.
Q: What's up with the dates on the letter?
A: Well I wanted it to be future tense so I put the date as somewhere in the future. Sandara and Jiyong are the same age in this fic, Jiyong is 84 but since Dara died 3 years earlier...you know you get the gist right? Heh~ XD
HOPE YOU LIKE IT!!! [even though it's kinda ehh LOL~]
Author's note; This fic is dedicated to quirkyc0ffee unnie, glamroof unnie, SivSema unnie, and basically...all the Unnies that have been so nice to me!